845doe

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  • 845doe 69w

    Am I finally ready to forgive?
    Cause I was ready to live
    Without forgiveness' consoling words
    They had flown away like tropical birds
    Left me at peace in the winter cold
    But now they're approaching again
    At the tip of my tounge ready for you to claim
    I'm not sure if it's right
    But just as seasons involuntarily arrive I cannot fight
    Reapproaching tropical birds
    Or the liberation of forgiving words
    They're blossoming at the mere sight
    When you whispered and asked if I might

    Forgive

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 81w

    We are wonderful creatures
    Travelling to the end of the world for self realisations
    Conquering mile after mile seeking unknown destinations
    We are strange creatures
    Breeding in desperation
    As to say it won't be for nothing this slow desecration
    We are sad creatures
    Mourning ourselves when others die
    Since we can't bear to see dear birds fly
    We are destructive creatures
    Dividing minds from one another by declaring nonsense wars
    Saying if we can't fix things we'll just move to mars
    We are fearful creatures
    Living with walls so high and encapsulating we can no longer see nor hear
    Living so blinded we'll let anyone steer
    Since we've been blinded by doomsday since we were born
    Making us dangerous and forlorn
    We are lost creatures
    Falling for words without listening to content
    So we can fight about what a 2000 year old book meant
    We are mindless creatures
    Craving rules and community with heedless conviction
    So we can divide one from another without care or distinction
    And we've been told our neighbor's are hateful and vile
    While we don't notice our being's filling up with bile
    ©845doe

  • 845doe 82w

    I have been reckless with you
    Giving you responsibility too
    For everything that's broken
    For every word said and spoken
    I think there was too many words
    I gave them away like flocks of birds
    Flying suddenly off the ground
    Scared you with the sudden sound
    You heard more than you should
    I'm sorry I misunderstood
    What healthy boundaries are
    I should have selected them from afar
    Cleaned them and inspected them alone
    Before throwing them like stones
    Cause you're not superhuman like I made you out to be
    I'm sorry I couldn't see you clearly
    I guess I just needed what you said
    I have to release it now instead
    So that I won't cling to an illusion
    Of me being your unique revolution
    Because I have to be my own resolution

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 82w

    I'm looking at fog
    While trenching through a wet bog
    I'm trying to see
    Anything at all, but there's just me
    And I thought I saw a glimpse of you
    But loneliness is silent and nothing new
    I'm walking through sand
    The ocean's trying to drag me from land
    Whilst I'm reaching to console your hand
    But when I look again
    Your presence i cannot gain
    I can see you now
    Far, far away somehow
    And I who fought so hard
    Almost drowned while barred
    From your dreams and life
    And I think I understand your strife
    But your island is far away
    And you keep me at bay
    I'm so sorry I don't know whats required
    I can't fight anymore I'm tired
    You give me nothing but silence
    And it tears my insides with violence
    There's no tears left to cry
    So I guess this is goodbye

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 91w

    I feel so alien in this place
    I feel like an unwelcomed case
    Of bad energy and darkness
    Bringing tension and stress
    But I don't understand how that can be
    When all I am is me
    Caring and interested
    Curious and invested
    In our current situation
    But all I feel is rejection
    From your disgusted reflection
    From your slamming doors
    And your unspoken words
    My voice can't reach your ears
    And I feel a pain gently sears
    And slowly it creates distance
    I don't even need to take a stance
    Cause when you're stubbornly you
    And unwilling too
    I guess I can't do anything for this place
    Cause you make me feel alien in every case

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 104w

    I don't know how I am to live
    Cause my mind turns on my mind
    And it leaves my heart blind
    When both escalated from the same place
    How do I divide and set space
    For both to grow, but never to lead
    When the fight is constant how do I breathe
    How do I please without disappointing
    How are you fiery yellow and immensely blue
    I love you and I hate you
    Because you're a fucking tease
    But every part is part of me
    And to you I'm me and so nobody sees
    I'll just lie here and bleed
    How do I finally leave?

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 104w

    I find it difficult to see
    To just blatantly be
    To not live in lost moments
    Or conspire future omens
    I find it difficult to live
    And I see myself as difficult to forgive
    For all my past transgressions
    And even though I've learnt many lessons
    I sometimes find it impossible to see
    And to just blatantly be

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 111w

    All of a sudden nothing is soothing
    And so everything becomes nothing
    And nothing is rampaging beautiful somethings
    And I who was carefully mining
    Hand picking jewels and diamonds
    Now there are only wailing sirens
    Leaving me bewildered and confused
    And I see I'm still bruised
    I'm a half made construction
    And the unmade is still in need of introduction
    I'm afraid of honest sunlight
    Cause maybe it'll turn into a blight
    And I'll forget what I've made so far
    What if I burn like a used cigar
    If I accept your hand
    What if I turn desperate and bland
    What if I become nothing
    Now that you've brought everything

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 111w

    How much time will it take
    For me to drain this lake
    Of uncertainty and fear
    When will my mind be clear
    Stuck in a prolonged roundabout
    Of anxiety and self doubt
    I want to ask you again and again
    But that just continues the chain
    So I'll ask myself instead
    Trust I can be lead
    Safely from lake to shore
    Trust I can battle my inner war
    On my own terms
    So my being can soothe spinning words
    Maybe even passage of time
    Won't drain this lake from my spine
    I guess I'll let it be
    And accept it's not all of me

    ©845doe

  • 845doe 112w

    I've realised many things
    Some that soothes and some that stings
    I've always been speaking
    Of the things I'm seeking
    But I've never taken action
    Always delayed with distraction
    I guess I'm laden with fear
    Afraid of lifes burden to bear
    But I've realised I'm open
    To anything I might rope in
    To your ravaging storms
    To your restrictive norms
    To your compelling loves
    To anything life shoves
    I've realised many things
    And I'll take anything that life brings

    ©845doe