_shambhabi_

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  • _shambhabi_ 8w

    I am in a state of delimma not knowing what to do. Once moment I see them care and the other moment I see them ignore and avoid. One moment I see them showing me with all that love and other moment I see them not knowing that i still exist.
    This is is confusing. Not knowing what should I do next. Should I wait? But for what? Wait for them realising that i still exist? Yes. Maybe i should so that. But what about the time when they again forget that i still exist? I don't known. This is something i cannot handle. Why? I really don't know why.
    As i said. Im struck in a delimma.
    #writersnetwork #miraquill #pod #wod #delimma #love #them #me

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    Delimma

    It feels nice. When I see them care. They left caring long back but but still certain things show that they still do care. I'm in a state of delimma. A delimma where I don't know what's going on. A delimma where I'm struggling to understand things. A delimma i want to get out of.
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  • _shambhabi_ 8w

    Felt some sort of peace. Some sort of happiness and a feel of satisfaction. After texting him "I miss you"
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  • _shambhabi_ 8w

    We were in a fight and i was texting my male bestie. He was pretty understanding and tried to motivate me to do better and not overthink it all. I was a stupid emotional and sensitive little girl. I cried for hours today. But my boyfriend didn't really care.
    My male bestie knew about my bad asf headache. He told me to take medicines but as usual I refused like a kid. He told several times but who would make me understand to take medicines? My boyfriend knew how to bribe me to get have medicines. But this wasn't my boyfriend.
    Why did some of his texts look like my boyfriend's? Was my boyfriend texting my male bestie and he just copy pasted? I don't know. I hope it is. I miss him. So much. But does he? I don't know.

    #love #relationship #fights #headache #pod #wod #writersnetwork #miraquill #bestie #malefriend

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    And suddenly my male best friend started behaving the way my boyfriend did
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  • _shambhabi_ 8w

    Penned something down for #wod by @miraquill
    A poem consisting of #ten questions

    #negetive #shit #worthy #love #life #burden #nuisance #writersnetwork #miraquill #pod

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    Piece of shit

    Am I a burden?
    Am i not good enough?
    Am I just a piece of shit?

    Am i not worthy?
    Am i just a waste?
    Or
    Am i just a piece of shit?

    Am I the worst?
    Am i not to be loved?
    Or
    Am i just a piece of shit?

    Do you also feel the same like them?
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  • _shambhabi_ 8w

    I miss the days when we would text or call each other randomly. We would talk about random things from a scratch on my knee to the scratch on his laptop. I would send pictures of the newest pimple on my face and you would send me pictures of your nails that were barely long but you thought it's too long to keep. You would beg me not to chop my hair off and i would beg you to send me that one picture of you freshly out of the shower in wet hair.
    But we had a fight.
    We don't text or call. We don't ask each other for random pictures or to switch the voice call to a video call coz we just craved to see each other.
    My phone used to flood with notifications of your messages or tags in various Instagram posts or saving my snaps in Snapchat.
    Now I just want my phone to buzz with only one notification. That is a notification from you. Anything would make me happy. Just that it has to be you.


    Love makes you weird. Weird in a different sense.
    #love #couples #fight #life #writersconnect #writersnetwork #miraquill @writersnetwork @miraquill #miss #crave #weird #feelings

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    Anything would make me happy. Just that it has to be you.
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  • _shambhabi_ 8w

    He would always text me before he went out for any important work.
    Today he has his major entrance exam. We are on a fight so he didn't text me if he reached or that he was nervous. But i did text him good luck and told him all the necessary things i should.
    As usual he texted with a cold 'ok' and 'hmm'
    I knew he needed that message.
    He didn't tell me whether he reached or not. I wanted to know. But as i opened whatsapp, i saw a status update. From a guy who doesn't really update his WhatsApp status.
    It was a picture of his exam center, with a caption penned, "nice college".
    That's when I knew that he reached his exam center. It was his way of updating me while we were in the middle of a fight.
    Love is cute. Isn't it?
    #love #couples #miraquill #writersnetwork @writersnetwork #fights #cute #exams #pod #mirakee

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    Love is cute. Isn't it?

    But as i opened whatsapp, i saw a status update. From a guy who doesn't really update his WhatsApp status.
    (read caption)
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  • _shambhabi_ 8w

    It hurts when you get neglected after caring the most about them
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  • _shambhabi_ 9w

    Word Prompt:

    Write a 3 word short tale on Pain

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    Toppers failing exams

  • _shambhabi_ 9w

    Word Prompt:

    Write a 6 word one-liner on Texture

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    Lip texture of yours is drug

  • _shambhabi_ 9w

    In this era we still see toxic masculinity exist. Guys find it cool but honestly it isn't. It's the guys with this toxic masculinity who makes this beautiful world a shitty place to live for us girls. So what if we talk openly about our periods and it's cycle. So what if we don't fear people and but pads, tampoons and other products openly just as they buy condoms or men's hygiene products. So what if we know how to live our life and what to do with it? We don't need their 'advice'. We are capable enough.
    Can't we just get rid of this toxic masculinity of men?
    #writerscorner #writersconnect #writers #toxic #masculanity #toxicmasculanity #men #women #female #stereotypes #feminine

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    Toxic Masculinity

    Masculinity is cool
    But toxic masculinity isn't.
    Buying feminine products is cool
    But hiding them behind covers isn't.
    Showing love is cool
    But controlling in the name of love isn't.
    ©_shambhabi_