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akilanoso

Calm minds and screaming thoughts make the best of pair.

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  • akilanoso 58w

    you tore my mental peace so loud that the remains still echoes in my head and heart.
    I could hear them like a constant chirping.
    Begging to stop. But it wont.
    I am sinking yet I want no one to know that I am drowned and gasping for some life.
    Drowned in your cold blooded response.
    Drowned of our vague memories that holds no dear to you anymore.
    Were you really real?
    or
    was I detained to think you were real.
    Who are you.
    Who were you
    and what did you do.
    I
    behold to question any further.
    because
    I only hope to look for answers now.
    Answers that will hold no value,
    once known
    but the serach for answers
    is what keeping me woke
    that some day
    maybe some day
    my quest will end and I will lay in peace.

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    Quest

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  • akilanoso 61w

    Two years ago, I imagined things different for myself. I always believed in happy ending and you to be my happily ever after. No, I was not a fool. I was in love. Madly. Until the time I realised you were not anymore. We were distant and growing apart from each other in the same city, in the same office, in the same bedroom. You never said anything but my soul understood a long time back that it was time to talk. But neither of us did. We were not ready. I was not ready to let you go. You were a life changing boat. An experience I would have never let slip alone for this growing distance. You made me feel smart and beautiful. You loved me for who I was. I had never felt this kind of attachment before. You showed this side of me that I never knew existed. You were my first and I hoped you would be my last. I learnt all of my love from you. You were my source. I have still not come to terms that you are not going to be a part of my life anymore. Not as a friend, not even a stranger. It scares me till death. It feels like I have known you forever and now I have been compelled to forget you but the truth is I will never. You were a part of me, you saw me grow, you helped me grow. Your footprints are embedded in my soul forever and I can never change that. That's the thing about first love.

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    Post-Love

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  • akilanoso 84w

    I get attached too often
    with cups and glass
    and window shields
    with evenings and wine
    and colour and art so fine
    with people and expression
    and all things random
    I am the only shelter I look for
    My fondness for emotions
    have been thriving for too long,
    Happiness and humour
    Solitude and sorrow
    Angst and Anxiety.
    When each one leaves
    I feel like a barren land all over again.
    So I jump on to the next notion
    and hold it tight like a stubborn child
    like there is no tomorrow,
    yet it departs without a farewell
    leaving behind trails of deep sorrow
    of wrong and right,
    of guilt and plight
    never relinquishes its sight.
    So I think its all in my head
    Far too simple yet so complex.

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  • akilanoso 92w

    I despise an end.
    An end to everything,
    that I have been attached to.
    An end to a movie.
    An end to a relation.
    An end to never seeing each other.
    An end that entangles all your emotions to one knot.
    And you are almost persistent to never elucidate
    that ties your vehemence to one.
    that fades into zero and none with time.

    It is the fear of never letting go
    of never finding something better.
    To settle in
    of anything and everything
    It is almost grating
    that there could be a finer realm
    of life
    than this.
    Oh boy!
    What a mess.
    How will we ever find a way ?

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    Vehemence

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  • akilanoso 93w

    I am a lost soul in this wilderness
    with no edge,
    abandoned to every stretch.
    Land searching its limit
    running its eyes up to the summit,
    the stars and moon peek
    horizon is what we seek!
    Have you not heard ?
    "Time is an illusion
    and every thing breaks to a fusion",
    "Moon has phases ,
    the dark glows and gazes".
    And what do we know of the tipsy bar,
    "Is it the fault in our stars"?
    and the dire need for infinite endings,
    ever is achieved by apprehending,
    Lost is an expression of depth
    will I ever know the roots till my last breathe?

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    Lost

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  • akilanoso 95w

    This world is an unforgiving place. One mistake and you are out of league. One bad behaviour and you are no less evil. People dont understand that we are made of many things. Good and bad. Highs and lows. Sad and happy. A single phase do not decide someones fate.
    Every coin has two sides.
    While everyone focuses on the good side. No one teaches to deal with the other side. And that's where Karma comes into picture.
    I question myself sometimes, Am I really a bad person?? Is this all my karma? Do I really deserve all the negativity? I might be then!! Huh.
    Most of the times I fall for it too hard and trust me nothing is more difficult then acceping it, that yes you might be.
    And then there is this gulp, you take everything down with you and you dont want to fight and resist anymore. You sulk and sulk and sulk.

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    Dark Days

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  • akilanoso 101w

    Every night I seek the perception of how will the next day be different than the previous. Melancholy it is. Isnt it?
    Star shudded sky, twinkling, like it had the most vivid moments to witness and the clouds waving by to withstand an evidence of what a wonderful night it is or will be. And only if we wish to appreciate the very moment we are in. Thats it. Not a second more nor less. That very moment.
    Winter night packed in a warm blanket, struggling to make a way through insomnia. Listening to the old gold melodies. Trying hard to figure out what life could bring the very next bit you are to breathe. Is it the 'life' we refer to condemn and manipulate what is to come forth? Or is it some dust sprinkled around, conspiring and making a way through your mind to absorb your thoughts and mend our very ways we want it to be?

    @writersnetwork @mirakee @mirakeeworld

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    Dust

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  • akilanoso 102w

    Escape the evens because odd tells you a little more of everything from skin drapped and tones wrapped,the hugged curves and cheeky reds to pinkish lips and not so messed yet , odds a little hard to accept
    But odds do stand out the best.����

    @writersnetwork @mirakee @mirakeeworld @mirakee_words #nature #love #travel #friendship #inspiration #life #poetry #thoughts #diary

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    Odds

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  • akilanoso 102w

    Word Prompt:

    Write a 3 word short write-up on Impress

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    Impress your Self_peace

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  • akilanoso 102w

    For a certain reason now, I feel like I am losing everything.
    Slipping through my hands and I cant do anything about it.
    I am into this huge facade of life.
    Wherein it feels like I have everything but nothing.
    This blur vision, fading in itself.
    It is unclear of what may come next.
    All unconditioned love, dissolving one by one.
    And I have no one to blame but myself.
    I might just go mad of how quickly a phase change and this one being the toughest.
    I become so cold sometimes that I am numb to almost everything.
    And in the very next moment I might just burst into tears.
    And yet I have no one to blame but myself.
    I was certain,it might happen one day,
    Well nonetheless, I was on the otherside the other day.
    And today here I am, going through the same pain that someone had already felt the other day.
    And I have no one to blame but myself.

    @writersnetwork @mirakee #nature #love #travel #friendship #inspiration #life #poetry #thoughts #diary

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    Blame Game

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