Thi main tuti unn dino mein, Jab tum aaye mere raahon mein, Sab ke hone baad bhi akeli thi, Haste hue bhi roti thi. Tum bhi kuch isi tarah jee rahe the, Tum bhi apni Zindagi ke bikhare hisse samet rahe the, Tum bhi raat ko chand taaron mein kho jaate the. Maana ke ise koi naam nahi de sakte hain, Ise sirf ehsaas de skte hain - pyaar ka ehsaas. Maana ke duniya ke nazaron mein koi mayne nahi rakhta yeh rishta, Par humare liye toh yeh ek anmol sangam hain, hain na? Kabhi socha nahi tha ke yu bhi koi mil sakta hain, Jo itne faaslon ke baad bhi itne qareeb ho. Kabhi pata hi nahi tha ke mere jaisa bhi koi ek hain, Jiske mere jaise hi khayal aur armaan ho. Kabhi socha nahi tha ke yu bhi koi mil sakta hain.
Here I sit with a blade in my hand, Held firmly above my wrist. So close to slicing myself. Swallowing my tears and muffling my voice. Trying to hold my breath to steady my hands. I close my eyes and let my heart cry. I almost slice myself with this two inched escape. But, then I remember the promises I have made. I remember the faces of my loved ones and, I decide to suffer again for them. . . . . . #suffering#writersnetwork#writershub #baatein_aur_tum#miraquill#mirakeewriters#blade
Why don't you sleep in the night? Everybody asked me. But, I don't have answers to their questions. Because, even I ask myself at times. Why can't I sleep in the night? Is it because my mind isn't at rest? Is it because all the thoughts I pushed away during the day consume me in the night? Is it because the demons I kill all day come back alive in the night? Or is it simply because its peaceful And I can think in peace? Or is it because the solitude helps me sort myself out? Or is it because the silent night brings out the creative side of me? Or is it because I love staring blankly at the stars and moon above? Or is it because the world is the realest and I can shed my protective armor? I don't have a specific reason for it. Is it insomnia? Or just my stubbornness to stay up when the world is harmless and peaceful? Sure, it affects my health physically But, it gives me peace mentally. Maybe, yeah, I am an insomniac. Sometimes, its very peaceful and calming. At other times, its terrifying and disturbing.