I hope to not wake up in morningI'm sorry to cause all the mourningFrom here I declare the end of meThis world from my existence will be free
I'm so tired of crying for a man who keeps giving me reasons to every other day.I'm tired of making him my every thing when he doesn't give the minimum basic things.©borderlinewitch
The farther my reality seems From the reality humans collectively share,As bizzare as my pain sounds like, Like fabrications from the world of hell, I am called to painting and moulding my expressions of painInto situations that makes them easier to imagine. The more they say I see and feel in black and white, the more I'm drawn to bring out the contrast in everything I go through, make brighter the red and blue, the yellow and all their middle hues. Forgive me if you think I'm drawing castles in clouds and thorny forests in the air, this is the reality that's a part of my journey, Euphoria to be high on and crippling pain to bear.©borderlinewitch
Is it finally time to dissociateIt seems like you're always lateTo read me, as if I'm written in a different languageToo quick to assume, too reluctant to gauge.So I'll take the baby steps, I know you have no problem letting me goYou think I push you too hard to growI can see the tiredness in your eyesSeen that far too many times, to know what it signifies. I'll step out Sir, the denial of being seen has occurred far too many timesYou're human mistakes many times labelled as undoable crimes.I'll wait for the next wind to take meWill go gushing out, just the way I came in.©borderlinewitch
The past of jealousy
After two years of isolation, crowds will gather again,Behind the present boom of euphoric energy, hides a small past of pain.Maybe my attachment started at that point,Seeing you dance with the girl you were attached to, hips joint.I looked at you for a moment, that moment kept my gaze magnetically for an eternityA year later approximately, you found me smart and witty,I burned in the fire now full ignited, fuelled by the sparks of that memory,Thinking of the position I hold in your mindAn affectionate reminder of her, or were you emotionally blind,Feelings were shrugged off in jokes and nonchalance,You kept on with a charade of friendly balance, And here I was ready to give all to youBut you said I was complicated, and the idea of you loving me was too good to be true.So I detached from the relationship lacking emotional depthBut everytime that memory hits me , I still hold my breath,They say don't remember the past that gives you pain,But sometimes my efforts to forget go in vain.©borderlinewitch
I don't how I got so fixated on youThat a disregard for myself became my love language.Now I see I'm nothing without you, I'm nothing with you.The love has rendered my so empty,It carved out the little confidence I had,And it fed me temporary spoonfuls to keep me satiated. I forgot how to satisfy myself,And I kept coming back to you, back for moreI started believing the threads of my bare existance exist here,And I'll be as good as dead when I'm alone,But then I became completely empty and now I am always aloneBecause each time you wanted know how good you were for meEach time I had to give faith breaking the pieces of my own beingYou crushed it and kept asking for moreI am nothing without you, I'm nothing with you.
They use the word slut as an abuseAs a word to degrade your worth, deserving to be used.But then they put you down for keeping yourself in closed shelvesAnd say, " to survive and thrive today dear, you must know how to sell yourself".©borderlinewitch
The scream of hollowness ringing inside meThe experience of invisibility, of not being seenYou may call me a selfish or coward for running awayBut you're ignorant of the reasons that doesn't make it worth the stay.©borderlinewitch
He is no longer what he used to beHe is not what he promised to beYou, naive girl fall for promises so easilyAnd when they hurt you, they say you can't trust easily.You'll live, you'll live this reality without himHe feeds you on promises of supportBut fails you when you fall down You should now see, finally,The incidents repeated in a pattern, which you forgave so easily.He says you should understand, but didn't he understand you were differentAnd had different needs? Why can't he keep up his end of the dealDoes he deserve your good, when he blames you for your bad so easily?
By unknown writer
Dear caregivers, I'm sorry if you felt you're child's sensitivity was a liabilityI'm sorry if you were burdened by the expectation of caring for your child's emotions.I'm sorry you considered your child less human then you For it was human for you to shout and throw things, But it was less human for them to be quiet and cry.Down the lane, many years later, you'll find yourself depending on them For needs absurd to many, your paranoia disconcerting,When the loneliness closes up on you, and the world seems so unfamiliar it's frighteningYou'll reach out to your family, your children, for the very same needsThey had when they were stepping into the unfamiliar world.They learned to search for support outside home, and you demeaned their character,They were made to feel guilty of actions which you secretly were guilty for,But were too proud and maybe too afraid to see, the extent of damage you've caused.Hope you have the guts to hear the same thing You told your childrenWhen faced with the same paranoia and anxiety.You'll always expect emotional support from your childrenBut will always fail to give them the same.
From a barren desert in to a lush forestFrom a dried creek in to a mighty riverThis is what you have done to my lifeFrom a dark cave on to a green meadowFrom a cold realm in to a dazzling castleThat is where you have taken me...From the dungeon to the open worldFrom a commoner becoming a KingThat is what you made of meFrom being undone, you made me whole againFrom a resigned in to a hopeful oneBecause of you, I am back to being a manA King I have becomeA Queen you shall be, thee I will serveKingdom of love will be our homeOnly this I ask of you,Do not let go and say goodbyeIf you do, that will be the day I'll die©realdeal
I wanna hug you Until we both feel okay
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Kitna aasaan tha
Kitna aasaan tha Jab bachpana saath tha Rona, khilono seChup ho jata thaGussa humara Pal me toot jata tha Baatein sari maaKo bataya karta tha Darr lagta tha tohMaa paa ke beechSo jaya karta tha Kyu tune Mujhe chhod diyaAb rou tohKisi ko pata nahi chaltaGussa aaye tohLogo ko door kar detaBaatein toh mann seNikalna chahti he nahiDarr lage tohKoi saath hota he nahi©_deepasree_
And it was them who took steps far ahead of you Never looked back for years But one fine day thorns overcrowded their paths They looked back And asked you, "Why there's so much space between us ?"© Sadia. S
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Sochta hu kuch likh daalu
Tujhse ki un baaton koApni sari mulakaato koSath bitaai haseen raato koMann se sab kuch bhar nikaal daaluSochta hu aaj kuch likh daaluTere us muskurane koTere rooth jaane koMujhse lad jaane koAaj mai bayaan kar daaluSochta hu aaj mai kuch likh daaluTere door jaane koWapas kabhi na aane koAur kisi me doob jaane koAaj mai aansu baha daaluSochta hu mai sab kuch likh daalu©_deepasree_
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How do Riots take place? When an army of fools blindly follow manipulative leaders.
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Yaado ke Panne jala diye
Koi iraada nhi tha tujhse door hone kaHaalato ne hume alag kar diyaMaine kadam aage badha liyeYaado ke saare panne jalaa diyeMujhe yaad karke apna waqt jaaya na karKisi aur ke khayalo me banale apna naya ghar©_deepasree_
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Esa kya hai tujhme Paas nahi hai tab bhi tujhe mehsoos krta huMann me ese samaa gayi hai tu mereTujhe apne khayalo ki zanjeero se mukt krna chahta hu©_deepasree_
Pyar Do guna Badh gaya hai
Pehle thodi mulakaato me tujhse ishq hogyaWaqt ke sath teri kamzorio se roobaroo hogyaAb jake tujhe poora jaana hai Ishq bhi do guna badh gaya hai©_deepasree_