And then he began to notice, the dull color of my lips, the fine wrinkles on my skin. How my teeth weren't perfectly aligned. How my hair got frizzy after a long day at work. The way my waist wasn't the perfect size. He'd speak of my 'unfair' complexion and my biological clock running out of time. I'd listen to it all... and his issues with the way I looked at life. How my aversion to drinks was something that needed to be changed. How I should be more open to experimenting and try out cigarettes. He'd speak of the ways my introversion and over thinking were problems and needed to be addressed. How I needed to work on my looks and change the way I dressed. With his eyes following every beautiful girl on the streets, I was reduced to a mere thought he entertained, when he wished to be served in between the sheets. I started to notice the cuticle around my nails, my unshaven limbs. I looked at the dark circles around my eyes and my deviated nose. My face that lacked symmetry. How my breasts never settled at the same level. How my specs gave me a look that he termed medieval. Everything about me that used to be beautiful once. Was now a matter of shame, a matter of disgust. I felt the pressure growing on me. The pressure to try, try and be... someone I wasn't... to receive, his love and appreciation... I was so used to receiving. And I'd smile at it all. Because I was tired of being called... paranoid and insecure for speaking my mind. So I continued with the small talk he loved and I enjoyed. And never went ahead to tell him that his words were hurting me, as I pretended to blush and smile. Silently I lingered, putting my self respect aside. Questioning my worth, without him by my side.
When we cut a tree. We are harming ourselves in more then one way. We all know that a tree acts like a filter .....it purifies the air. We also know that it provides shelter. It's roots holds the soil. But have you guys ever noticed that it also provides shelter to birds. They mostly live on trees. That's their natural habitat. And when we destroy a tree, we are infact destroying their home too. I remember how I used to enjoy the fresh air and sounds of birds in the morning. But slowly the sounds were less nd less audible. And the air........ Human population is increasing.....so we need more space to live, for transportation and various commercial uses. So in order to get more land we have to cut more trees. But I afraid that it's a natural loss that is going to be, most probably, disastrous in the coming future. Many hundreds of years back, it was a balanced ecosystem. Lots of damage already done. But still we can mend certain things. If we plant a few trees in or near our houses ......may be we can cut the loss. Please , do think and act......it's better late rather be sorry.