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  • darkerthanblack 4d

    By unknown writer

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    Self help thing

    And as you grow up, you will lose people. You will find the ones you loved once distancing from you and you will stop talking to the ones you called your best friends. When you meet your old classmates in a reunion, they will tell you how much you have changed and it will be bittersweet. Maybe you will recognize the change within you or maybe you won't. The boundaries that you let people cross so easily before, they won't be able to cross it anymore. Your friends will tell you that it's not healthy drawing lines and putting a wall as if everyone is about to hurt you but walls are there to protect yourself, too. Sometimes, they are necessary. You will find your Mother complaining about how you have stopped listening to her just because you have your own opinions now. Your cousins won't like how you can't take a joke about yourself and the things you care about anymore, your ex won't appreciate the way you have broken contact with them and people will tell you often that they don't like the person you have become. I want to let you know that it's okay to let people think whatever they want to. When we are young and broken, we tend to let the world break us apart. For years, you have felt small and helpless. You have lived in the shadows of other people, walking on eggshells, trying not to upset anyone. Growing up is a difficult thing but it is also the bravest thing that you will ever do. Unlearning the patterns that were so deeply woven in you, losing the person that you were all this while and making space for a brand new version of you takes courage and unwavering discipline. None of them know how many nights you have trembled and cried, or how freeing you felt for the first time when you said 'no' to the things that made you uncomfortable. They don't know how good it makes you feel when you can speak your mind selfishly for the first time, or when you can show the parts of you that we hid so well because you were afraid that they won't be accepted and loved. Losing these people will bring you relief but it will also bring you some kind of grief. After all, they were the ones you once loved dearly and laughed with. They were the ones you looked forward to talking to. It's heartbreaking to realize that you lose just as easily as you love. So when you find yourself mourning their departure from your life, I want you to remember that this, too, is another part of growing up. Like every other thing that cannot be solely explained in words, all you need to do is to accept it even if you can't understand it now. Maybe, the people you lose during this process of healing and changing are only meant to stay with the older versions of you. Let this be your closure.

    //I hope you remember them as a memory
    but you find yourself moving on.

    — Rae Pathak(not me obviously)

  • darkerthanblack 1w

    Shayad

    Main shayad likh nahi paa raha
    Ya shayad shabad ban nahi paa rahe mere
    Maine koshish ki hai kuch likhne ki par kuch ho nahi paa raha
    Jaise mano kisi ne mere hath band diye ho aur kaha ho ki tum soch bhi nahi sakte aur na likh sakte ho
    Bas dekhte rahe aur bas dekhte raho Jo raha hai tumhre samne aur usse mehsus Karo par itna nah iki samaj aa jaye tumhe bas itna ki tumhre dil ko chu jaye par itna nahi ki tum ro do ya muskura do bas itna ki tum usse mehsus kar pao vo Kunse feeling dene ke koshish kar raha hai,
    Bas har chiz ko chuu ke mehsus Karo par itna nahi ki vo chiz tumhre zehn me bas Jaye bas itna ki vo tum yaad rakho par itna nahi ki vo tumhre dil me bas Jaye bas ek nishani rehe uski jo tumhe kuch chua jo jaise bas.
    Par ye chiz jo bas chuu ke gayi hai vo ek nishan to chhod ke gayi aur vo dheere dheere kured rahi hai mere dil me aur apni jagah banane ki koshish kar rahi hai jaise mano tum ek bade se pahad ke patthar me apna naam likhne ki koshish kar rahe ho ek tuti hue patli se lakdi se aur vo bar bar tut ja rahi hai par phir bhi tum lage hue koshish me ki kuch ho jayega uss umeed me.
    Umeed hi to ek choti se chiz hai har insan ke andar jo usko aage badhne deti hai, aur usko kuch karne ko majboor karti hai ki vo marega lambi chalang ek aur bar koshish karega kuch karne ke liye bhale hi samne se dikh raha hai sabko ki vo harr raha hai par phir bhi ek umeed choti se andar jo jali hue hai bas vohi uss insan ko ek bar koshish karne ko majboor kar deti hai.
    Haan mujhe ek baar aur kudna hai, ek baar phir se chalang lagana hai aur iss bar bhi ek bhut choti se ummed ne mujhe hath diya hai, aur main phir se koshish karunga
    Phir se
    Phir se
    Phir se.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 2w

    Dil ke baat kehna bhut mushkil hota hai logo ke liye,
    Kuch shabd me to bayan kar pate hai
    Aur kuch jo dil ke baat ko dil tak rakh kar sochte rehte hai kash koi samaj Jaye mere baate bin kahe ya koi aake puch hi mere se mera haal main keh dunga sab kuch jo iss dil me tha bhara hua,
    Par ye duniya bhi to kitni badal gayi hai dekho na tum.
    Apna gham batana chhodo koi aapse apka haal bhi nahi puchta bas sab ek dur ke nazar se sab bhaph lete hai aur kehte hai dekh to thik hi lagg raha hai ye shayad thik hi hoga ye, par ek baar bas ek baar aa ke puch lo uss insan se ki vo thik hai?
    Agar vo muskura ke bol de ki vo thik hai to bas vaha uske baithe raho aur phir thodi der baad phir puch lo bas aakhri baar uski aankhon me aankhe daal ke,
    Aage wala rote hue apko apne dil haal sunayega,
    Shayad hame vo baat jo uske dil me hai bhut choti se lage par uske liye vo bhut badi se hai,
    To thoda samjhe usse aur zaroorat padhe to galle laga le usko.

    Haan kuch hote hai ajeeb log jo hote to dheet hai vo kuch nahi batana chahte apna haal to bas unke sath thodi der shant baithe rahe aur bas vo utne hi apne aap me acha mehsoos karne lagange.

    Dhayan rakhiye aap apna,
    Aur ho sake to kisi se baat kar liya kare, acha lgta hai.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 3w

    By unknown writer

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    "Tum bicharrh gaye, badal gaye, sambhal gaye,
    Mai wahi hun, tabah, tanha, Aawara"

  • darkerthanblack 6w

    Jaan

    Jaan, tum ho ki main hoon?
    Tumhari yaade hai mere kitabo me basi,
    Tumhari har ek muskan aur ruwaiyat ke likha jokha rakha hai maine,
    Tumhari har marood ko namp rakha hai maine,
    Tumhare hothon me fasse tumhare baalo se jalte aaye hoon main,
    Tumhare kaanoo ke jhumko se raksh hai mujhe vo mujhse zyada tumhari baate sunte hai,
    Mujhe ghamand hai jab tum kehte ho ki main hoon tumhara,
    Maine vo har ek chiz napasand kar di hai jo tumhe nahi pasand,
    Maine tumhari pasand ki har phool ko chun chun ke dhunda hai tumhe dene ke liye.
    Jaan, jaana.
    Kya tum muskurati ho jab tumhe ye naam sunayi dete hai to?

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 7w

    A truth or may be a lie

    I am not the guy for which a girl will fall in love.
    But I am the side guy that every girl wants, who will love her, pamper her, care for her and listen to her, and she will just keep this side guy just for the time when she feels insecure about herself and when she is in fight with her boyfriend because she needs someone who will understand her.
    But the side guy always thinks that he will get the girl someday when she will see your efforts and how much you love her but she has always been seeing you as a side guy for her, by giving you the title of "my best friend" or any flashy word which makes the guy feel like he might get a chance but he is just a pawn who has very less chance of getting the girl but he is still fighting with a hope that she will understand his feelings for her but it doesn't happen.
    We all are some side guy for some or other.
    We are just not ready to accept the fact that this person is using us and we are giving them chance to ruin ourselves because of the hope that someday they will love me or they will fall in love with me but you are just s side guy, you will never be a main guy for her.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 10w

    Faltu baate

    Kuch faltu baate,
    Jo hamne ki thi,
    Shayad vo faltu hogi zamane ke liye par mere liye vo pyar thi,
    Ek second,
    Ek second,
    Ek second,
    Main tumhe yaad bilkul bhi nahi karta hu,
    Main to un baato ko yaad karta hoon,
    Main un pyari pyari baato ko yaad karta hoon,
    Tum to bas ek zariya ho un pyari yaado ko phir se jeene ka,
    Tum bas mehaz ek yaad me basi mere kahani ho,
    Maza aata tha na?
    Un baato me, jaha tum aur main bhut ajeeb ajeeb baate karte the aur bhut pyari yaade bana di hai un baato ne mere dil me,
    Bas ek galat kaam kar ke gaye ho tum,
    Humne jo baate ki kisi jagah ki, kisi gaane ki, kisi aur ke baate aab jab vo chiz jivan me aaynge to hamari baate yaad aayngi,
    Kya mazak hai ye?
    Achi pyari yaado me tum aa jate ho,
    Mujhe tum nahi chaiye,
    Mujhe vo baate, vo nazakat chaiye,
    Tumhari zaroorat padegi shayad un yaado ko sametne me.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 11w

    sunno,
    tumhari yaad aa rahi hai
    maan kar raha hai tumse baate krne ka
    par nahi kar skta
    kyuki aab tum mere nahi ho
    tum ho par mere nahi ho
    tum ho par kisi aur ka pyar ho tum
    tum ho par main aab tumhra nahi

    par tumhari yaad aa rahi hai
    maine koshish bhi ki puari photo or voice note dhundne ki
    par sab to delete kr di main gusse me
    aab sab khali sa lagg raha hai

    pata nahi tum bhi mujhe yaad krte hoge
    ya tum apne naye pyar ke sath busy rhte ho
    tumhe mere yaad aati hai jab hamara ganna kahi bajta hoga to
    tumhe uss sadak se jate hue mere yaad aati hai jaha maine tumhe propose kiya tha?

    shayad nahi aati hogi
    par mujhe aati hai
    mujhe bhut yaad aati hai
    par aab tum nahi ho sath mere.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 11w

    mere baato me tumhra zikr rhta hai,
    aur tum kehte ho ki main bhul junga tumhe.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 11w

    Main milunga kabhi tumse,
    tum hogi mere samne
    main raat der jagte hue tumhe socha hain
    jab mile ho tum to sab sach sa lgta hai
    jaise ek sapna ho koi.
    tum miloge na ?
    tum milogi na iss pagal se?
    ye pagal insan jo pagal hua hai tumhre aankhon me
    tum miloge na?
    iss insaan se jo tumhe paane ko sab kho ke aaya hai
    tum rhoge na sath thodi der aur
    jab tk ye baate aur ye andhera dil me khtm nahi hota
    rehna tum thodi der aur.
    Iss pyar me pde insan ke sath.
    jo tumphe marta hai,
    tum milna kabhi mujhse.

    ©darkerthanblack