Miraquill
Fog
In the morning
Out the windows
The eyes searched for a visible soul
But the heavy fog hid everything
The branches that knocked the windows
Were not there anymore
Hands reached out
To feel the prickly branches
In the cold foggy winter
And blind hands
Spilled blood on the hard ground
By being pricked by the branches
How blind
Did the fog make me
How did my mind fool me
Into thinking I knew where it would be
Like the back of my hand
Oh! What a joke this has been
Because right outside the window
Was where I was betrayed
By my thoughts of assumed familiarity
Again, what a joke am I...
To be fooled by my mind
That's clouded in trust and faith
On others
What a joke I have become
To be betrayed by my mind
Into trusting those who are no good
When the pain is very obvious
And my screams so loud
That my mind hurts
Does the fog of trust and faith
Fly away
What use is the sun
To shine on my pain
When its obvious
That my trust had been broken
And the thread of faith
Between all of us
Has snapped
What use is the sun's warmth
That did not shine
On the fog
Clouding my mind
Oh! What a joke I am
To drive in this thick fog
Despite the multiple warnings of accidents
The thick fog of trust
That is the reason for the scars
That decorate my arms and legs
No, they are not battle scars
They are scars to hide the pain
Of the accident
In the thick fog
They are there to hide
The irrational pain
Of betrayal and of snapped threads
Oh! What a joke I have become
To be blinded by the fog of trust
©eusmaph
eusmaph
Uhma Ponnusamy
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Melody of the Siren
Against the wall
Face upwards
A sigh of sadness escapes
As the melody of the siren
Greets yet again
The story starts about a war
War on both sides
And an ache so familiar
That wants to give up
Stuck in a desert
One with a rainbow arch
And ever so welcoming
The other not so hospitable
And ever so abandoned
The war with the abandoned
Is not winning and
As the days pass
The war with the rainbow arch
Doesn't seem any better
No matter which desert or war
I am on the losing side
My will slowly liberating itself
From living and onto death
What welcoming hands
And all the ease that just seems so bliss
"Forget the war that the mind wages
On the two deserts — one of rainbows
And other so dry"
Said a voice
It commands me into its welcoming arms
And yet a small voice
At the very back
So feeble and soft
Almost unheard
Asks me to wait and try again
And so passes another day
Into a week
Into a month
Soon months have crossed
And the voice still calls
Like a siren
I want to jump into it's welcoming arms
And sleep
For a very long time
But I don't
I start again
And again
Before asking myself
How long till I give
Into the melody of the sweet siren
My only fear being
That one day
It would be far too gone
The war long forgotten
And me in the arms of the sweet siren
Sleeping finally in peace
I had given up...
Into the melody of the siren
©eusmaph -
My Father And I
Is it wrong for me to want
To protect my innocence?
My child-like beliefs?
The magic that shine in my eyes...
And you having lost them
Is it wrong that I want
To continue holding on to my beliefs?
Why is believing in this little fantasy
Such a joke for others?
Does me believing mean I have not grown?
Or does it make you covetous
That I haven't lost my inner child
True! I am stuck in one of those many Transparent glass baubles
That hang on your Christmas tree
Yes, I am protected from
the cold harsh wind outside
I am not pierced by biting cold
Yet to make this glass bauble
Even I had to bear some heat
And some pokes
You talk of the cold season outside
The harsh cold freezing
winds of the tropical
And I talk of the heat on
the deserts of the same latitude
Why is it then that your
words aim to beat the
innocence out of me
Why can't I hold on to my
little fantasy of shooting stars, christmas magic
And winter wonder!!!
My mind travels depths
that I can't comprehend
Because your words
hurt me as such
But I still wonder
Is it just the way you care?
Maybe this is not your jealousy
Maybe it is you showing your love
Under the hidden layers of being a grinch
Maybe you poke at my glass bauble
And break my little fantasy
So that when others break my bauble
I am not so deeply hurt
So that it won't be tough to get up again
So that I rise like the rising sun
And the immortal phoenix
And you always can continue standing
In the corner
With the softest smile
Eyes so proud
Because I am receiving the award of a lifetime!
Is this what it is, appa?
©eusmaph -
Wide - Awake
The midnight blue sky
And thousands of jewels shining
Yet my heart earns for someone
With whom my midnight conversations will be
Eyes wide awake
Soft lullaby lulling the tired eyes
The dark circle even more prominent
But the brain doesn't heed to the tired voice
The atmosphere being so caliginous
The restless nights make me shiver
Like the fear in a deserted road
Far and deep
The darkness of the mind mocks
How tenebrous life is
How lonely broken promises are
And so many in life greet the loneliest
Only to be lead astray
Dark dark thoughts
Lead the nights
And finally the eye shuts
Blocking everything – wanted and unwanted
And the eyes open infinite times
In a deep despair to remember
The incubus haunting
But they have taken shelter again
In the depth of the darkest shadows
Waiting for the eyes to close
When morn comes
The conspicuous eye bags
Reveal yet another night
Haunted by the incubus
And what hurts is
No one wanders why or how
And no one cares to know
The what either...
©Uhma_Ponnusamy -
Mono
The sun rose in the east
The birds flew high up in the sky
Shouting joys of happiness
That my heart didn't heed to
And so here I am
On my bed
Pondering about the way of life
How tiring and monotonous it is
And how ready I am to give up
The smiles long ago became fake
The twinkle in the eye faded to nothing
A small frown greeted my morn
And a melancholia settles my heart
Nothing makes me move
As my arms freeze like lead
My eyes still like a statue — emotionless
My heart frozen in its own rhythm
And a buzz in my brain
Yet nothing frees me from my reverie
Hunger pangs make me move
And every step is forced
Yet my feet silently glide me
Down the well known path
My thoughts not processing
My eyes still to the on lookers
And in the bright, loud dining room
My heart felt lovelier than ever
Music blasting in my ears
And I feeling nothing
Maybe I had given up
Monotonously I wait
Monotonously I fake the smile
Monotonously I face reality
Life was monotonous
Every second was tedious
Maybe some day I will snap
Till then I will hide the darkness and skip
Till then I will wear a mask ...
Until then... Goodbye!
©eusmaph -
eusmaph
147w
I trusted you
You though you knew me
You knew everything about me
And that is true
Yet you didn't know enough about me
To figure me out
Knowing my past and the scars I bear
Doesn't mean you have figured me out
But that's beyond the point
I trusted you
I gave you my heart
To be kept safe
Yet you too broke it like everyone else
I now lie broken
In a place where no other soul exists
I am far away
Yet you see me
Do you realise what you have done
May I add, knowingly???
You see me everyday
Smiling and giving warmth
Like the sun that shines bright
That gives just enough warmth
To keep us happy
You see me too
In a similar way
Yet you don't know that
Beyond the curtain of happiness and warmth
Lies a broken me
I have been broken many times
I fixed myself so many times
And now I am tired
I give up
For years
I trust people
Only for them to break me
I am finally tired
Oh!! That doesn't mean
I give up on my life
I won't take it
But I pray to the gods above
That they themselves come
And pick my shattered soul
From a place where
No soul comes or exists
I have reached the final point
And my prayer is to the gods
To come and pick my shattered soul
My tears roll down everyday
My curtains closed
To prevent the light from coming in
Yet I motivate to be the sun
I am finally tired
I give up
I am in a place where no one can reach
Finally after a fight
Fit for a warrior
I gave up
But I am not yet collected
You all see me everyday
Yet you don't know me
I live
I breathe
I drink
I eat
I do everything
Yet beyond the curtain my eyes have drawn
You would see my soul
All broken
And shattered
Like glass
And you find me weeping
And in pain
But there is no more emotion
Oh!!! How I wish the gods could come and collect me ...
©eusmaph -
eusmaph
147w
Fate is a funny thing... It gives us hope... It makes events that none can understand... At the end of the day not everything is understood but...
It is the same fate that takes our hope away and it is the same fate that make
us suffer...
Oh, fate!!! How I wish to understand you!
It is a funny thing, ironically!
©eusmaph -
eusmaph
151w
Friends
History never taught me about you
It just flaunted about the past
I still don't see the beauty it has
As you do
For what is there in the past
As much as the tough bond which we share...
Mathematics just taught how to walk in life
Maybe without it I can't survive in the society
But it still didn't teach me what you taught
You taught me the meaning of one word
And that word taught me life
Biology taught me what I am of
But it was not all true
I have courage
I have strength
I have love
I am even that
But it was you who taught me that
We together created a word
Which is the first word in my dictionary
Politics is always boring
It never intrested me
But I am sure
We have fought more and worse than those in the parliament
We were the parliament of our constitution
We were the country, the ruler and the law
Chemistry!!
Oh! That subject gave me the shivers
I struggled
And I suffocated
But not once did I suffocate in the chemistry we shared
Nor did I have a single doubt in how our bond was
Its type, its strength
Everything lay in my fingertips
And never once did I drown in the deep waters of our chemistry
Geography and its maps
Were once my favourite
But the day I had to mark where you rested
In a map
I despised it
Language!
It conveyed a lot
Through many stories
Each had a tale
But our tale in all languages remained the same
Many might mistake these
So I clarify
This is for a friend of mine
Whose soul rests in the bond we share
And he rests beneath a pool of sands
Behind a ever-so-bright glass
With his eyes closed forever
Which I foolishly hope
Will open one day for me
I will await you
My friend
No matter
How long it takes ...
©eusmaph -
eusmaph
151w
I Will Remember... Forever
A bunch of flowers rested
On the white marble top...
The marble bowed down
Till it reached the ground...
Under the marble
Was sand
Sand that went down
Till it hit the hard, cold wood
Six feet under
Beyond the cold surface
He slept without moving an inch
His eyes that were closed
Hid the bright green eyes filled with life
But not anymore
His hands rested above his heart
As if holding a promise
But I felt that they were begging
Begging for them to beat again
But my foolish hopes
Had to be destroyed
Even if life can be brought back
Right from the grasp of death
I know
He wouldn't budge
But I hope that one day
He will open those eyes
That hide the bright green balls of life
But who am I kidding
He embraced death
To be who he is now
Oh Friend!
I will remember... forever
Till the day I die
I will remember
I will remember
How you died in my arms
I will remember
How you bravely embraced death
Especially when you could dodge it
I will remember
How you let death claw through your life slowly
I will remember
How your pain disappeared
As death appeared
At your doorstep
I will remember
How brave you were
I will remember
Every second of life that you spent
In my arms dying
With a smile
That radiated life
I will remember
Every second of your life
For they are embedded forever
In my memories
Dear friend,
I will remember you
I will remember... forever
©eusmaph -
eusmaph
151w
Just when the Caterpillar thought her life was over she began to fly
©eusmaph
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jeniayn
152w
Read More#embers #mirakee
I feel the flame within,
The warm embers of my heart,
Once kindled,
Cinder to ashes,
My soul rises like a phoenix,
Burning desire,
To accomplish my heart’s passion.
Desire ablaze to uplift,
My children from the
Burning debts of poverty,
A light ignited to join the flare
of humanity,
Embers of love,
To heal the burns of inequality,
Enlightening mind,
To heal the hands of disability.
The embers glow inside my heart,
Burning flames I call my soul.
@jeniayn.
