She tiptoed right into his study. She realized he was muzzy through her eyes. Snap!! She'd forgotten her specs like always. She stood there and wondered whether to grab her specs or get to him fast. She couldn't wait. So she went in. She stood close by his couch. She saw that his book had fallen off and as she bent down to pick it up, she saw him asleep, that's what she felt then. She picked up The Fault in Our Stars. She ran her palms over the cover and felt a sudden emotional gush. She looked down at him, and kept on staring till she could feel her tears burning her skin. She wiped them off and knelt down, ruffled his hair, kissed him on his forehead. He didn't buzz. He wasn't a heavy sleeper, never. She whispered into his ears, "Jason, my boy, get up!! Momma's home. Sorry I got caught up. I'm here to make it up for you." He didn't even move. She felt his hands and they were unreasonably cold. She heard her heart pounding. Her hands trembled. She was sweating like a pig in mid December. She couldn't even get up. She reached for his pulse. There was nothing. She went for his neck to find something again nothing. She pressed her ears against his chest. Nothing. All she heard was some unfathomable commotion outside. She felt her heart would come out, tearing her chest any moment. She blabbered, "This cannot happen. Jason, baby. Momma loves you. You need to get up. We'll go to the theatre and dine outside. We'll get a pair of new shows for you my love." She was in tears. Nothing would stop. She shook him and felt her body go limp. She screamed, "Open your eyes, Jason. For God's sake. Jason..... Jason.... Jason.... And the voice faded. Tears running down her cheeks, she kept looking at him. Her head was reeling. She knew she could pass out any moment now. She turned. She turned and saw Allan smiling at her from the frame. She struggled to get herself smile back. She did. Just in time. Before her eyes closed and she fell. Jason's dangling hand touching Martha's blonde.
You know it’s funny how someone place faith and hope, even if they don’t use it, they still have it and just put it somewhere and got to start to use it again; yes that goes for common sense too.. ..just saying, it’s time to wake up and do something about your today, you are the zest in life living life.