#Thoseunspokenfeelings

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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 13w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery #Philosophy #Life #Darkness #LostLove #Problems

    Life is not a bed of roses, do you remember this...?��

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    The Widest Panic

    Night 3:34 am. Can't fall asleep. Insomnia and Panic attacked so widely.
    Sensation like something is bleeding so inadequately from the widest viewpoint of my head.
    Can't get out of anything.
    Everything was eating my body as a shark eats his meal.

    Craving for water but couldn't find it on the table.
    I was suddenly freezing so bitterly.
    Can't move from the upside.

    And the heartbeat was getting sluggish sometimes it was so fast

    I was feeling like my whole body is bleeding and trying to make it better but something was dripping blood from my body by hitten with a knife.


    I had a trauma since I was born. When I was born, my parents were upset because I was a girl. Their expectation was adequate than mine.
    My parents used to fight a lot with each other because my mom gave birth to a girl.

    After all of this, my mom ends up everything and left me in an orphanage.
    And I was so calm nature of person since I was born.
    I saw everything but didn't notice.

    Accordingly, when I was going to 4 years old,
    Some people came and adopted me from the orphanage.
    Because they don't have any children.

    Now the person I am is an adopted child.

    I used to write stories, poems etc, listening to music, studying.
    That was the life where I'm nonetheless encountering through.

    And my life is like messy hair that I can't get help to solve. Always living in a room. What feels like a huge world to me.

    And in my life, I was kidnapped once, and because of a severe shock, and I lost my memory. And that's why I can not remember anything. That is the enormous anxiety in my life. Everything was happening like a movie.

    I never felt safe anywhere. Always traumatised from everything. My stepparents started to hate me because I'm an introvert. My stepbrother also hates me because of being so calm nature of a person because he loves to play and have fun.

    Feels like all was an enormous lie. But can't believe that I'm still alive. No one can't clarify why am I still alive.

    Life sucks every time.
    When I was 5 years old, I was in school at that time. Some students were bullying a classmate. And I couldn't take it, I poured water on them from the lavatory. And that was the first time I learned how to fight.

    Therefore, some students began to bully me because of being a person who can not live without glasses. I can't see anything without glasses.
    They take my glasses and break them.
    Or throw it somewhere to not find it furthermore. And I fall to the ground every time and got hurt badly.

    And I launched fighting with them. I started wearing lenses in my eyes but not every time.

    I couldn't tell anything to my parents because they were too strict to talk with me. They never talk with me.

    When I was 9 or 10 years old,
    I got a friend. He was so great. And he loved to spend time with me. But in those all obscures and wildering moments he developed his feelings for me.
    And I couldn't notice it at all. Never knew it was gonna happen. Day by day, he was developing his feelings for me. Made a room for me in his heart. Never knew I became a weak point of his heart. Unfortunately, he became outrageous. And commenced thinking something weird. He thought I was gonna die for him. He thought that he might ruin my life.
    And he couldn't stand that pain and did suicide from the roof. And I was the one who didn't know it. I got 20 missed calls from him but I didn't notice it. Because I got stuck in trouble. And my mobile battery was too low so I switched off the phone.

    And that was the first time I saw so much blood on that road. The road was full of red texture a slight kind of water what we call BLOOD.
    The ambulance came and took him to the ambulance and I saw his hand was laying there and his blood was stuck with his hand.

    And he died.

    Brillina was the one who used to love him a lot but I never gave any attention to anything because of my study. And that was my fault.
    She cried a lot for him and now she can not see me in her eyes.
    And I know how bad it hurts.
    I'm still sorry to her. But I don't know how can I apologise to her. I don't have any words to say in front of her face. It is a shame for me to show her my face.

    Accordingly, 1 day, 2 months, 4 years was going day by day. But I was depressed as hell. I couldn't find any way to get out of these. There was no one who could pull me out from the darkness.
    I was in manic depression, it had been going to 4 years 5 months.
    I had a bag of pills. And I used to take it all the time but nothing worked on me. I became depressed more and more. Anxiety was killing my mind. Overthinking was killing my happiness. I couldn't find any way out.
    In my life, there were two times I was going to do suicide. And I couldn't because my cousin saw it. And he saved me. I never wanted to live like this. Like living a messy life. Where I don't know who is my real parents, where they are actually. What is the big truth that is everyone is still hiding from me?

    I wanted to know everything about my life. And I tried to die but couldn't. Someone was pulling me over my body.

    I never knew what to do. What was the antidote to my pain? What can I do?
    I feel like there's no one for me in my life. Is everyone fake in this world?

    Is there anyone who can pull me out of this darkness? No one. No one can do it. Never ever.
    I will be like this forever.

    And I found someone on a social media app. Pretty good. That person was so adorable minded. And I used to be happy with him. Because he was the one I used to talk to. I never met him in real life. But I believe that he exists in this world.
    Every day we became much closer like best friends. And he was the source of my happiness. I met him in a writing app. Then he found me on Instagram. I used to talk with him every day, he used to talk with me every day. I used to talk and he used to listen. He was like me, he was an introvert too. But he used to listen to me. His listening skill was great. Sometimes we had fights. A lot of time, we used to fight. And we never slept before solving the fight. And I was getting better with him.

    And there was the same thing that happened. He developed his feelings for me. And I didn't know it. One day, he was trying to confess his feelings. And he did it. But I didn't know what to say. because I didn't want to involve in this because these are hurting either I didn't want to hurt him.

    So that's why I told him that I don't want to go into a relationship.
    I don't believe in this bf/gf.
    He said, he loves me and he wants to marry me.
    and I didn't know what to say.
    I explained that if he really loves me then he has to wait for me. Or if he can't then he can choose someone else.
    Then we stopped talking about it.
    But I know he still loves me.
    I told him so many times to not be with me, it might ruin his life.
    But he doesn't understand. And I don't know how to make him understand.

    However, unexpectedly, he disappeared. And I was making an effort to find him everywhere. But I couldn't find him anywhere. And that was hurting. Because I was emotionally attached to him as a best friend.
    I didn't know what to do. I cried a lot. Every day I used to wake up with tears and go to sleep with tears. And I still miss him a lot. I always used to live in my imagination since I was born.
    And I used to feel like he could see me. Or he is watching me from somewhere. I used to feel like he is in front of me, or somewhere behind me. But I can not see. I was emotionally broken furthermore.

    But perhaps I moved on but he is still in my mind. Somewhere he is sleeping in the corner of my mind. I don't wanna wake him up. Let him stay there. For me, he is still alive but only in my imagination.

    But now I'm the strongest person ever in my life in my view. But there are also so many stories that still eats my mind and body.
    Nonetheless, I'm perfectly well with everything.

    And I don't wanna close to someone and attached to someone anymore.
    And I am quite apprehensive of doing it.

    And I'm ready to deal with the widest injury in my life, what is appearing in my future.

    So if you want, you can hurt me.
    I have given you that permission.
    Haha, thanks a lot...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 16w

    #thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery #Philosophy

    Somehow that individual gonna discover it hastily...!��

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    Infected Corruption

    A wild individual was strolling through a murky expanse.
    In a sudden,
    A voice appeared from so far away,
    "You run away till my sickness scatters to the planet and turns into the mental cottage. You can bring in it one day. And I'll be taken off at the equivalent location...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 17w

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    That relinquished oscillation,
    What if that individual mumbles something about it...!��

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    The Abandoned Oscillation

    Formerly upon a time,
    A girl interrupted the procedure of the heart whack.
    No one couldn't brought the beats back...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 17w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery #UnresolvedFiction

    It could be renovated...!��

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    Unresolved Catastrophe

    For a tragic catastrophe,
    The sum didn't unravel in the middle term way...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 18w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery #Love #Philosophy #Reality

    It couldn't exist, till the rain plummets...!

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    Latitude Circumstance

    In the nucleus of the heart,
    His location was on the battlefield...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 24w

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    Gives rise to everything miserable...!

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    Broken Plead

    Her anecdotes were like that conventional melody,
    When she caresses anything,
    That stuff becomes gloomy...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 26w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery #Love #TwoHearts #Heartbroken

    Another one was laying in the bedroom...!��

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    Two Hearts

    Two hearts,
    Used to beat for each other.

    Two souls,
    Making an effort to find the contact.

    Two hearts right there at the moment,
    But one left here beating by the wayside.
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 26w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Pain #Mystery #Heartbroken

    He disappeared...!��

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    Disappearance

    He left.
    He just abruptly disappeared.

    She didn't know,
    Does he exist or not!

    For her,
    He was the nightmare.

    He was still alive,
    But only in her imagination...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 29w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Love #Heartbreak #Mystery #WizardingWorld #Magics

    Never mind, This is a story. What I saw in my dream...!��
    I know, this nightmare is kinda weird...!

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    Green Of The Mystery

    A wizard named Credence looks like so young boy. His eyes' colour is grey. Short smooth black-brown hair.
    Appears like he was frightened of something. Anger, hate was in his eyes for somebody. He didn't know his identity. He didn't know who is his parents, who is his sister or brother.

    And another wizard named Mr Graves looks like a man. Looks like an old man. But he was an incognito man. His actual identification was Grindelwald. But credence knew it either he knew Mr Graves was using him.

    They were fighting for some issues. And that was severe fighting. They were fighting on a flyover in America.
    So many wizards and witches were there, they were staring at their fighting. Credence was furious about something on him. But fighting with Mr Graves was perilous for him. But he was an Obscurus. An obscurus grows in the absence of love. As a dark twin, as an only friend. If credence has a real brother or sister out there that can take its place, he might yet be saved. In their severe fighting suddenly credence furiously broke the flyover with his magic. For this, so many muggles fell from the flyover. Some muggles died. Some muggle was injured in their head, hands, legs etc. So in muggles, there was a girl named Sakura Yamauchi, who was fell from the huge flyover. She was 14 years old. She got injured in her head badly. But she was alive.
    Every broken piece of the flyover was fallen on the surface. Many muggles were found collapsed on the road with intense wounds to the chest or backrest.
    Also, there was a man named Haruki Senpai, who was fell from that exact huge flyover. He was 20 years old a man. But unfortunately, Haruki died.
    Sakura and Haruki were travelling somewhere for some reason. Unfortunately, their car got some issues. That's why they were walking on the flyover. But they didn't know that something bad was coming to ruin their life. They used to love each other so much.

    Some people took her to the hospital. She got injured badly. Doctors had surgery on her head. After doing surgery on her head, luckily her sense came. She forgot what happened. When she was falling from the flyover, she thought she'll just die. But after some time she heard from nurses that Haruki died with an intense wound to his chest and head. And then they took Haruki in a coffin. She fought with the doctor and nurses to see him for the last time. But they didn't let her because something worse will happen to her. She screamed a lot, she didn't know what to do. She was just crying so badly. She loved him a lot. She never knew this will happen with their love. After 5 days, she fled from the hospital to find Haruki. She knew that he died, but still she was trying. She didn't know where she'll find him. After another 4 days, she heard that there is a wizard who can make dead people come back to America. After hearing that she was started to find that wizard. Fortunately, she found that wizard.
    She met with that wizard. That wizard's name was Atkinson. Atkinson was the most empowered wizard in the wizarding world. Sakura told him everything, what happened. He told Sakura that he can do this. But it will take so long time. Then he started his work. Firstly, he drew a picture of Haruki. After some research, he found that Haruki was a wizard. He was Halfblood. But Haruki didn't tell her. Why he didn't tell her, no one knows. Then he found that his blood's colour was dark green. She was just horrified after hearing this. Then he took a bag of dark green blood from his pocket. He poured it in a long big glass. He mixed something in it. He was also drawing his face to his whole body. She didn't know how can he make him come back. She was just kept waiting. He made his blood. He was trying a lot. After so long time, he made his blood and sketch of Haruki. Then he made a body of him(Haruki) with his some spells. But it took 1 year. He made some spells. He muttered something in his mouth then he poured some blood. Then he poured all blood he had. It took 5 years to make him come back. He took some cells from Sakura's hand. He spells it on him. After all these, He muttered a spell on him. Fortunately, Haruki came alive after long 5 years.
    She got sick of waiting for 5 years.

    After Haruki came back, he saw her sitting on a chair. She was sleeping. She fell into a deep sleep. After seeing her, he was crying for her. She struggled a lot for him. She was distraught. She was exhausted with everything. That's why she got sick. She was sleeping sulphurously. Then Atkinson cured her with his spells and medicines. When she saw her, she couldn't believe that he came back. They were delighted to see each other again. Then he left the kingdom with her. Went back to their home. They got married and spent a happy married life...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 29w

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    It was getting harder to blew up her air...!��

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    Sparkle

    It was getting tougher to conserve her sparkle.
    She was glancing for peace,
    Therefore she stirred up with an ideal love story...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 30w

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    If he would...!��

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    Imaginations

    When she looks at the moon,
    She still thinks about him.
    And wonders sometimes if he still thinks about her too.

    He was alive.
    But only in her imaginations.
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 30w

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    That was never...!��

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    The Heart

    She brought the beats back,
    Of The Heart.
    What was never her...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 30w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery #Pain

    She wouldn't knew...!��

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    Loved Back

    That was 4 am.
    She was supposed to be asleep by then.
    But can't sleep because she was busy to thinking about what would have happened if she told him that she loved him back then...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 30w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Pain #Mystery #Philosophy #UntoldStories

    Was trying to hear that favourite music but couldn't...!��

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    Frigid Hair

    Her cold hair blew up his face.
    Icy hands touched his heart.

    Was trying to calm his love.
    Covered her with a long trunk.

    Was getting on to somewhere without anyone else.
    Was trying to love again but couldn't.

    A drop of tears rolled down the cheek of someone closest...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 30w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Pain #Mystery
    #Philosophy #Melody #Imaginary

    Felt the essence of kissing her...!��

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    Clasped Her

    He was a nightmare.
    She was the reality.

    Nightmare clasped her in.
    Leaned into her lips and slowly kissed her with the melody of Love...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 31w

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    #Imaginary

    They'll love...!��

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    Broken Sunlight

    Dreams are matching with wings,
    Today the birds are flying in the mind.
    With eye color,
    Draw a picture of love.

    Yesterday was life,
    A rainy wet day,
    Today in my mind is only,
    The dream of falling rain.

    When the clouds break the sunlight,
    As if they say lovingly,
    When they'll love them in their heart,
    Here the sky will be blue...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 31w

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    She tried but failed...!��

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    No Room

    She already knew that,
    He wasn't over her.
    She knew,
    He was with someone else.

    She couldn't confess but she couldn't give him up either.

    It's had been 4 years since she felt this way for him.

    She knew,
    There was no room in his heart for her.
    But she got greedy and tried,
    Even after, she apologised for everything.

    For confessing and making him confused,
    Her voice came to him,
    "I'm sorry for all these...!"
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 31w

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    #Heartbreaks #UnspokenGoodbyes

    Shaked his heart as melody...!��

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    Shrinked

    Her last words of her letter,
    Shrinked his heart as well...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 31w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery #Love #LoveOfAGhost #Imaginary #Philosophy

    She tie him up in the deep of her heart...!��

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    Solitude

    She wanted to love him in silence...
    Because there is no rejection in deep silence...

    She wanted to love him in solitude...
    Because in loneliness, no one can hold him except her...

    She adored him from afar...
    Because the gap has hidden her from the pain...

    She spread her kiss in the air...
    Because the wind has kept him calmer than his lips...

    She hugged him in her dream...
    Because there is no such thing as his end in her dream...!
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  • thoseunspokenfeelings 31w

    #Thoseunspokenfeelings #Mystery

    What was it...!��

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    Tie

    She met with her shadow.
    Shadow met with her darkness.

    Now she doesn't want to tie anyone else up...!
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