#al_thoughts

45 posts
  • leena_afsha_ishrot 9w



    One evening
    When they were near the shore
    She said "it's a beautiful sunset"

    He stared at her and replied "indeed it's beautiful"
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 9w



    I feel free
    What made you bound to agree with me?
    Happiness is my key
    Even without yuh

    After your departure
    I seldomly gift self-torture
    Hold on Babe
    You know I develop oxytocin
    When I befriend you
    Praise me or not
    I am the Q- U- E- E- N yh yh
    I am the Q- U- E- E- N
    I am here to buy assets
    Not to love a guy with debts

    Stare at me
    Or be bare
    Once I spot where my value is worthless
    I change places, as water does
    Hold on Babe
    Look up and around
    You're an ordinary Babe

    Curvy doesn't fit in your box
    You're cheap, that shocks me more
    You're not the guy I am attracted to
    Why are mostly good girls distracted by less good boys?

    Hold on Babe
    Why are you in hurry to make love?
    I feel free
    By losing you
    Regrets! Ha-ha-ha
    I did what I felt like was right to me at that time
    Yeah, your last words were harsh
    Babe, you're no less than starch
    Aren't you ashamed of your actions?
    You cannot break me into fractions

    Hold on Babe x2 oh babeeee....
    I am here to wear the crown
    With fireflies around
    And I always keep a shroud
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 10w



    When on someday he dials my number
    To check whether I am over him
    Or
    Do I still into him?
    He expects from me to fall to beg him back
    Or
    To feed my brain again by his venomous thoughts

    As if he occupies my heart with honor
    His toxicity is dropping off by his actions
    He nailed it smoothly
    And I was left in despair
    I ain't scared of love
    But to fall for the wrong person is like a nightmare
    It's not that one can walk out like it happened nothing

    I kept away every single thing that reminds me of you
    Tell me what steps to be followed
    To erase that sweet little memory that we've created
    Though we both had hardly any issue with distance
    How can I believe, you will slam the door on my face someday?
    You can be mad at me
    But what bound you to decide to stay apart?

    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 20w



    The poet in me is fading
    Cause' my dearest is expiring
    Hope is what I need to live
    But inhaling doesn't convey surviving
    Silence is what I wear these days
    I bloom not in spring
    But I spark in autumnal
    I sink in the crew of folk
    I still count the stars
    Sometimes with my empty self
    Sometimes with my wounded heart
    I still lean near that windowpane
    I carry the bitterness with me
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 20w



    I feel so lonely with my broken heart
    Only to block your memories
    Sometimes I smoke and drink
    I feel so exhausted
    Every thing change' in a blink
    I the only one to be collapsed
    Cause you played the mind game
    Baby you think I will kneel down
    But you are just a receiver
    Baby you think I will crawl to you
    But I'm mistaken to feel bless with you
    You made me stronger
    Not by walking away
    But I realise I am an alpha
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 20w

    #leena_unsaidwords #al_thoughts

    10:52 a. M. 30-8-21

    Hope you all liked it ��

    Read More



    You phoned me, to introduce me to your parents
    Though, your motif is to play with your desire
    But your behavior is bizarre
    When everyone is high up in their dream
    You are exploring me to scream
    Little did I rest in your chest
    You decided to tear up like flesh
    You and I wrapped in a sheet
    Little did I break into pieces
    But now on my way to not cry
    Now on my way to make my sky

    When everyone is high up in their dream
    You are exploring me to scream
    Little did I rest in your chest
    You decided to tear up like flesh
    Nor did I cry out your name loudly,
    But why did you departed,
    Like I'm the one to harvest?
    If it's not you, I would never walk to the door of Cactus
    Fairly I would thank us
    Oh boy, why did you corrupted love?
    Oh boy, why did you targeted for a nightstand?

    (When everyone is high up in their dream
    You are exploring me to scream
    Little did I rest in your chest
    You decided to tear up like flesh) x2

    By assembling all the red beads
    I ended up being morbid
    Your sourness is one of the worst taste ever I tasted
    That made me stagnated
    Now I, not your slave to be dominated by you
    (You consciously be careless
    I was unknowingly subject to you
    I separate myself, from your viciousness
    Now I don't give a fuck about you) x2
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 20w



    He believes in 11:11 wish
    But he sleeps simultaneously with others
    His thirst upswings
    Someone else or I
    Seldom matters to him
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 21w

    12:04 p.m. 27-8-21

    Idk just a mind stuff

    #leena_unsaidwords #al_thoughts

    Read More



    Sometimes by your threat
    Sometimes under your foot
    Cause of your starve and my curve
    I am swelling anxiety pills
    I am walking on my (broken) heels
    Irritation is what I chew
    Frustration is what I deal with
    I stop myself to go outta
    I wear a smile like a coat
    Your words are like candy
    You don't wanna become a daddy

    You think I will beg you to stay
    You think I don't slay by my looks
    This isn't the endgame, sunshine
    I'm in pain but I conceal by my smiles
    I will rise high to touch the barrier
    I will keep my head high like a skyscraper
    Your existence is a lie
    Every time you bite me like a pie

    I am swelling anxiety pills
    I am walking on my (broken) heels
    Irritation is what I chew
    Frustration is what I deal with
    I stop myself to go outta
    I wear a smile like a coat
    There's no devotion between us,why don't you accept?
    But an infatuation
    That's why I paint you with my brush
    In my canvas

    In the distance of every mile
    You change your fiancee

    You think I belong to a trash yard
    Lemme remind you
    I rule the throne of your graveyard
    I am swelling anxiety pills
    I am walking on my (broken) heels
    Irritation is what I chew
    Frustration is what I deal with
    I stop myself to go outta
    I wear a smile like a coat
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 21w

    #leena_unsaidwords #al_thoughts

    7:48 a.m. 25-8-21

    Tried to write as a song

    Identify my mistakes ��

    Read More



    Baby, I told you
    I will never let you down
    But you choose the path of erotic
    To feel a little exotic

    Oh baby, why so silly!
    I know I'm bea-uti-ful
    With my curve on
    I know I'm bea-uti-ful
    With my plump face

    But our mindset clashes
    Cause' you run after women
    While I after building my empire
    Baby, I told you...uuu
    I will never let you down, down, down
    Baby, I told you
    I will never let you down, down, down

    As our mindsets aren't the same
    This time not a single drop of water
    Did I waste for you
    How can I make my future goals with you?

    I will make you regret whom you lost
    You say I ain't pretty
    You say I will find a bald man
    You say I will engage with a less white man
    Baby, you too are a brown man
    I can tear your skin by the metrical composition
    But I told you
    I will never let you down

    Oh baby, why so silly!
    I know I'm bea-uti-ful
    With my curve on
    I know I'm bea-uti-ful
    With my plump face
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 21w

    12:14 a.m. 25 - 8 - 21

    #leena_unsaidwords #al_thoughts

    Tried to write as a song

    Identify my mistakes ��

    Read More



    You say you love me
    But you wanna have a sex tool too
    You say you love me
    But you are desperate
    For other women too
    You say you love me
    You wanna have somebody who pampers you

    But baby, how can I trust you?
    After knowing you wanna sleep with other women too
    You say you love me
    You say you love me

    I can't have you in my life either
    I have my self-esteem
    Which is most important than you!
    I am losing everything I love
    But baby, how can I forgive you after knowing all?
    You say you love me
    You say you love me
    But you starve only for intimacy

    Is hungry for lust the answer to all queries?
    Is the term L - O - V - E is losing its significance to be loved?
    I know nobody is fuckin' perfect
    Baby, why you decided to go another way?
    You say you love me
    You say you love me
    But why you are in hurry to lose your virginity?ooooo....uuu...oooo
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 21w

    Tried to write as a song

    Idk whether it's good enough or not

    11:44 p.m. 24-8-21

    Hearth - home symbolised as a part of fireplace

    Identify my mistakes ��

    #leena_unsaidwords #al_thoughts

    Read More



    I won't cry
    I will make my dream high'
    You think intimacy is the answer to ecstasy
    But baby, you're on the wrong way
    You wanna know...
    Whether I cried for you or not?
    I celebrate myself for my solitude
    I don't need you
    I am enough to adore me
    My new version doesn't weep...
    Like a baby in a cradle do

    You think you will run away by wearing your clothes
    But baby, you're with a most dangerous woman
    Cause she neither care for who she is
    Nor does she give her keys to rule her
    You know what?
    I don't need you
    I don't neeeeeed you...uuu
    I love the way I am

    I won't cry
    I will make my dream high'
    I won't cry
    I will make my dream high'
    Baby... baby, baby....iii
    If you think I will tramp for your affection
    You're mistaken
    ...
    I will peel off like a rotten potato


    I won't cry
    I will make my dream high'
    Oh, baby...
    By gathering the red flags
    Determining you as my soulmate
    But up and until I make any decision,
    I am high on my observations
    I won't cry, cry
    Oh, baby...
    I will make my dream high', high'...
    As you know I am shy
    But if you put me down-to-earth
    I will quote you on for hearth

    I won't cry, iii
    I will make my dream high'
    Oh baby...iii
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 25w

    12:08 a.m. 29-7-21 ✅

    न कभी उस जैसी शाम आई दोबारा
    न तुम्हें पाया मुकद्दर में

    कभी फुर्सत से आना उस दरिया के किनारे
    मुझे नहीं हमारी यादों से मुलाक़ात होगी यक़ीनन

    तुम्हारे साथ पूरी कायनात घूमने के लिए इबादत किया
    पर तुमने बीच राहों में मुझे कांटे समझ कर जीतेजी हत्या कर दिया
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 25w

    12:08 a.m. 29-7-21

    क्या याद है तुम्हें, हमारी पहली मुलाकात?

    सर्दियों के मौसम में तुम्हे पहली बार देखा
    किसी दरिया के किनारे
    जैसे ही तुम्हारे पास आकर बैठी
    मेरी घड़कन तेज़ होती गई

    जहां तुम मुझे देख रहें थे
    वहीं मैं शांत शर्मिली तुम्हारी बाएं कंधे पे सर रखकर
    दो पल सुकून से बैंठी थी
    हाथों में हाथ थामकर
    और डूबते हुए सूरज गवाह था

    तुम बातें कर रहे थे
    और मैं धीरे-धीरे प्यार से गालों को छू रही थी तुम्हारे
    वह लम्हा प्यार का, क्या याद है तुम्हें?
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 26w

    Dear 3 a.m.

    When it's 3 a.m., I can't sleep
    I roam in the depressed streets
    Where anxiety and suicidal thoughts knocked out the door of my mind
    Instead of plucking petals
    I plucked myself every day
    In the third half of the night
    The boy who loved me left
    And cursed not to fuse and unified with him
    He loved me, he said "you're different from other girls"
    He manipulated sweetly
    I melted in front of him,
    When he introduced me to his parents and his close ones
    But when I asked for time for union
    He stepped out with another
    Did I make a mistake in taking decisions?
    Did I suppose to allow to stab a knife in my back?

    You think it's over and yet in the midnight
    Your thoughts assembled to create a colorful creation
    By mixing some amount of red and orange pastel colors from my palette
    Because endings are not always peaceful as sunsets

    Nor all poems written are to be read
    Some witnessed why not to welcome
    Not all poems need to be rhymed
    Some are written the emotions of thorny bed
    Not every love story needed to tie a knot of marriage
    Some are beyond worldly yearning- soulfulness
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 26w

    #leena_unsaidwords #al_thoughts



    Identify my mistakes ��

    Read More

    22 - 7 - 21 3:34 p.m.

    क्या वाकई तुम्हें कुछ भी याद नहीं है
    जिन दिनों में, तुम मेरे गालों से ज़ुल्फे हटाया करते थे?
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 26w



    If forehead kisses mean protection, respect, and a promise to stay in all situations
    Then why did you leave me behind
    And walked in search of carnal desires?
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 27w

    #leena_unsaidwords #hindinama #hindiwriters #al_thoughts



    Nafs - soul/spirit
    Vasl - union
    Tijarat - trade
    Sailab - flood
    Saaba - cold Zephyr
    Humraaz - one who shares secrets

    Identify my mistakes ��

    Read More

    17-7-21 1:26 a.m.

    उनकेे बातें भी कमाल था, खुद में बेमिसाल था
    खुद उलझा हुआ था, कोशिश की मुझे सुलझाने में

    जहां हम नफ़्स के मिलन कहते है
    वहां वस्ल के नाम पर, वह खुद को तिजारत करते है

    सैलाब बह रही है यादों की
    सबा ने भी इंकार कर दिया उनका पता बताने में

    जिस्म-ओ-जान से उन्हें खुदा माना
    उन्होंने किसी हसीना दिलरुबा के खातिर मुझे ठुकराया

    कल तक जो मेरे हमराज थे
    आज मेरी खिलाफ है
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 27w



    Did you remember our first meet?
    You in a casual way
    Holding hands
    Butterflies in my stomach
    Long breath
    Sitting on the shore of The Brahmaputra

    First eye lock
    With a little smirk
    The rise in the temperature of the blood pressure
    Numbness
    Perplexed what to speak and not?


    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 27w

    Slam - strongly criticize
    Void ab initio - invalid from beginning

    #leena_unsaidwords #al_thoughts

    6:35 p.m. 11-7-21

    #pod
    #wod

    Read More



    But the truth is
    I am afraid to lose him
    To remain in a nameless relationship

    It opens up your sense when he slams you
    By pointing you as a void ab initio
    And the stream of judgemental statement flow
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot

  • leena_afsha_ishrot 31w

    18 June 21 10:58 p.m.

    अंदर कुछ टूट गया
    समुंदर की लहर में
    बवंडर ने उजाड़ दिया
    बातों का खंजर से
    ख्वाबों ने भी बावल मचाया
    इरादे है मेरे
    ख़ामोश रहने की
    कोशिश है मांजी के ग़लती न दोहराने की
    ©leena_afsha_ishrot