I know you are trying
I know you can do it.
I know you will do it one day.
You will achieve everything thing you are mourning about today.
You will be fit and healthy.
It shall too pass.
One day you will look back and will murmur to self that "oh my god I came a long way" and that day you don't have to question yourself "how u reached there?" And Why u came that way?"
because "You" were always the answer.
You came by yourself and you came for yourself.
A note to self as a reminder that in this mental battle with self that I'm fighting right now will be over.
I will win for myself by myself, from and against myself.