#deathismycatharsis

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  • juhiyverma_ 68w

    Just wondering.....

    Why do i need to
    hate everyone else,
    if i can hate myself

    ~as much as i want to.



    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#selfcontemplating#spiritualawakening
    #catharsis#deathismycatharsis#loveandhate#myself#unlost#unfound#lifeandlove#selfworth#iam#ihatmyself

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    Why do i need to
    hate everyone else,
    if i can hate myself

    ~as much as i want to.

    ©juhiyverma_

  • juhiyverma_ 72w

    Without You.....

    Have you ever wondered what this world would be like, without you?
    Lifeless and dead like you??Or the same as it was before, cold and cruel.With only hatred for people like me.Maybe i am wrong or maybe Not.Maybe i judged it all wrong with my myopic eyes and cluttered mind Or maybe i just could not look enough. Not Looked enough to see whether it was all a perception of my own dismantled thoughts,and my handicapped mentality that unwillingly forced me to frame an all wrong notion about the world i am living in, among the people i m struggling with, towards a future i m not ready to be a part of.What if everything that i have been doing is just a part of something thats never gonna happen.Something that was never in the bigger picture that the world hung upon the walls of my broken heart, only to stain it with my own blood.Maybe it wasnt merely a coincidence that all those wounds werent meant to be transformed into beautiful scars but painful memories to be remembered long after I m gone.Or maybe they were supposed to trigger the ache this world inflicted upon me , time and again which my dead and soul less body could no longer feel anymore.But sadly i was numb and oblivious to everything around, owing to my already non existent life.The world would always be the same, no matter you exist or not. Its gonna be there like it was , unperturbed by my death or yours or anyones'. It hardly makes any difference to the world whether u r alive or dead or in a totally third dimension.But for your own satisfaction, u can believe what you want. Whether the world would stop existing for a while or time would cease to mourn over your death. Its all upto you.You can believe in anything and everything that pleases you.Be it the sweetest lies or the ugliest truth. You are already dead so that just means nothing.You are investing in the wrong place, for the wrong people, all for the wrong reasons. Those eyes hiding behind the prettiest faces and honey coated words are myths you could never unravel.Though death might be the eternal truth,your family would be the only one devastated by your loss nevertheless sooner or later they too would learn to live without you.The birds would still chirp every morning and the dawn would still bring beautiful sunshine to your bedroom window, even in your absence. Your words may echoe in the house where you grew up but there wont be anyone to be yelled at now.And Teatime would be the only time , you would be missed But everyone would get used to this new life.Isn't it??


    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#struggle#existence#identity#catharsis#deathismycatharsis#withoutyou#theworldilivein#insaneworld#lifeandlove#soulsearching#darknightofthesoul#awakenings#spiritualascension#unlost#unfound#iam#death#darkthoughts

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    Without You.....

    Have you ever wondered what this world would be like, without you?

    Lifeless and dead like you??Or the same as it was before, cold and cruel.With only hatred for people like me??Maybe I'm wrong or maybe I'm Not.Maybe I judged it all wrong with my myopic eyes and cluttered mind or maybe I just could not look enough.Not enough to see whether it was all a perception of my own dismantled thoughts,and my handicapped mentality that unwillingly forced me to frame an all wrong notion about the world I'm living in, among the people I'm struggling with, towards a future I'm not ready to be a part of.

    ©juhiyverma_

  • juhiyverma_ 85w

    LET DEATH BE MY CATHARSIS!!

    Oh, how I fell in love with
    the lunacy sleeping in you
    your chaotic demeanor
    left me enchanted
    no sooner did i realize
    I was drawn towards you
    like a moth towards light
    a mother towards her unborn child
    a lover towards the love of his life
    I was lost
    lost in translation
    of whats happening
    and whats not
    of what could never be
    and what was always meant to be
    my body in confusion
    of all the undesirable chemicals
    as they started flowing through
    the blood inside my veins gushed
    unimpeded
    leaving me
    in a state of sepsis
    that nobody could help me out with
    that no amount of epi or oxygen
    could cure me anymore
    my brain tried to help
    but my body was out of reach
    oblivious to the trauma
    you put me into
    the shock
    my fragile heart couldnt bear
    my breath
    though in vain
    trying to hold onto my life
    my blood
    devoid of any feelings
    no matter how hard it tried
    only poison it could carry
    to my brain
    to my limbs
    to my viscera
    to my mouth and eyes
    as I lay frozen and cyanosed
    not becuase of the impure blood
    but my toxicated emotions
    my putrid thoughts,
    gangrenous
    devouring
    every inch of this tastelsss flesh
    consolidating in me slowly
    as my hands lay still
    rotten and stinky
    waiting to be amputated
    with an artificial
    not so functional
    though a manageable robot,
    a machine
    to replace
    some of the damaged parts
    you marred
    with your negligence
    this fatigued heart too
    inefficient to pump
    that shitty⁰ fluid anymore
    succumbing to the torture
    inflicted upon by picograms of
    undeserved love and care
    adorned by your denial
    almost taking away
    the miniscule of sanity
    left behind in that corner of
    my nasty little greymatter
    as it too
    gave up on my body
    undesirous to try any harder
    brainwashing itself
    to accept the truth
    of my dying body
    of my tormented soul
    lest i shouldn't end up
    lifeless
    like a
    corpse
    doomed until eternity
    under this barren earth
    soiled with fear
    hopeless
    dead
    with a regret
    of never waking up
    again.

    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#myth#truth#youandme#me#myself#selfrealization#lifeandlove#catharsis#loveisamyth#uglytruth#betrayedbywords#randomthoughts#iam#seekingquerencia#justafewwords#lifeisachoice#loveisachoice#death#deathismycatharsis

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    Let Death be my Catharsis!

    ©juhiyverma_