Miraquill
I don't know how I am to live
Cause my mind turns on my mind
And it leaves my heart blind
When both escalated from the same place
How do I divide and set space
For both to grow, but never to lead
When the fight is constant how do I breathe
How do I please without disappointing
How are you fiery yellow and immensely blue
I love you and I hate you
Because you're a fucking tease
But every part is part of me
And to you I'm me and so nobody sees
I'll just lie here and bleed
How do I finally leave?
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I find it difficult to see
To just blatantly be
To not live in lost moments
Or conspire future omens
I find it difficult to live
And I see myself as difficult to forgive
For all my past transgressions
And even though I've learnt many lessons
I sometimes find it impossible to see
And to just blatantly be
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845doe
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How much time will it take
For me to drain this lake
Of uncertainty and fear
When will my mind be clear
Stuck in a prolonged roundabout
Of anxiety and self doubt
I want to ask you again and again
But that just continues the chain
So I'll ask myself instead
Trust I can be lead
Safely from lake to shore
Trust I can battle my inner war
On my own terms
So my being can soothe spinning words
Maybe even passage of time
Won't drain this lake from my spine
I guess I'll let it be
And accept it's not all of me
©845doe