The $^*+ never, ever fails to amaze me.
You know, people really hate me.
The hatred is really deep.
I am told.
Eh well, I live my life,
You live yours.
My path can’t be yours.
The way it goes.
Yes, yesss I am mad
I am set in my ways
Please forgive me
Forgiveness is for you
For it doesn’t matter to me.
If you hate me,
So will the next.
For reasons only they know.
She told me one day,
After I had it out with some donkey
“Jessie, you know one of these days someone is going to shoot your ass.”
Yes, it may be how I die:
But, I said it once & I mean what I say
You hurt my family then we have a BIG problem.
I will die for my family.
I will die for any one of them.
I have family I wish it could have been me.
To spare them the pain, for I am used to pain now.
It shows no mercy.
And I would take it all to free them.
Many can say why.
Many can say how.
Whoever can question anything I have just stated.
I will do it because it’s who I am.
Who I have become.
So, let your questions flow like a river
I pay no mind to your petty judgement
I have my own to tend to
Until the day I take my last breath.
For pain is one big test
You can fail, you can pass
The passage you find at the end may set one free.
I’m willing to find out, if need be.
If need be, one will find out.
I say what I mean.
I mean what I say.
For actions speak volumes
I have 1 fear and it’s no person
For being here has made me strong
You show fear, you can take a bullet
Or a blade
I am who I am today, from my eyes
Seeing all I have
Soaking it all in
Breathing it in
Holding on to it
Breathing it out
For it’s not mine to hold
It’s never been mine
I take your pain
I hold it in
I do what needs to be.
That’s all I know.