Day before yesterday i was randomly scrolling through Ramadan lectures and i was already feeling low as i wasn't prepared for Ramadan and deep inside my heart i was contemplating my relationship with Almighty Allah as i felt my imam was low due to personal and as much external reasons of society.
As i was scrolling i came across a lecture by Dr. Yasir Qadhi
"What if I'm not motivated for Ramadan" ?
As if Almighty Allah heard my dua as seriously i wasn't enough motivated knowing from past two years i was caged in lockdown due to pandemic.
I went through lecture and saw this as vital sign how Almighty Allah guide us when we sincerely ask for way out...
This reminds me of Qur'an verse
وَوَجَدَكَ ضَآلًّا فَهَدَىٰ Translation
Did He not find you unguided then guided you ?
Surah : Ad-Duhaa 93:7
Ad- Duhaa is the ninety-third chapter of the Qur'an, with 11 āyat or verses.
I was awestruck by the mercy of Almighty Allah on my fragile soul and i feel ashamed of my unthankful nature towards his blessings.
That's said i guess this isn't me alone who'd felt not enough motivated for Ramadan as each one of us are struggling differently.
As recent pandemic left most of us in distress and it was more of a traumatic phase which you and i have gone through.
Some lost their parents , few lost their relatives and each one of us lost sometimes which no one can compensate. Allah knows best.
Saying this Ramadan isn't about who will finishes reading maximum Qur'an , who will be racing for the charity , who'll be performing nafil and who'll be standing whole night doing ''Qiyam-ul-layl ".
Almighty Allah cleary stated in Surah Al - Baqarah
Ramaḍan is the month in which the Quran was revealed as a guide for humanity with clear proofs of guidance and the standard to distinguish between right and wrong. So whoever is present this month, let them fast. But whoever is ill or on a journey, then ˹let them fast˺ an equal number of days after Ramaḍan . Allah intends ease for you, not hardship, so that you may complete the prescribed period and proclaim the greatness of Allah for guiding you, and perhaps you will be grateful.
Surah Al- Baqarah Chapter 2 Verse Number 185
Ramadan isn't a sprint rather marathon so try to push yourself to finish line without competing with others but yourself.
If you can't read Arabic try to read Qur'an in your mother tongue , and those who knows Arabic try to understand the translation.
No matter what at least try to understand the message what Almighty Allah is trying to say , reason it , pounder and try to live up to the knowledge blessed by Almighty Allah.
Knowing pandemic was traumatic but this shouldn't be our excuse to distance ourselves from this holy month.
Knowing someone's is dead shouldn't stop us from distancing ourselves from ALMIGHTY ALLAH.
Knowing something didn't go according to plan shouldn't be our reason to be disheartened
Knowing someone left us shouldn't stop us from praying , when you and i are well aware prayer is an link with Almighty Allah which connects our souls.
I know I can't cover everything in this write up but my only concern is that Almighty Allah loves you despite your sins , you might be disobedient child , you might have done alot of haram , you might be adulterous , you might involved in alcohol, you might involved in riba ( interest) , you might have cheated and you might be backbiting.
My motive isn't to advocate you sinning rather to call you for repentance .
When Almighty Allah happens to me most merciful then tell me who I am to judge knowing I'm just other sinner.
Let's race up for this Ramadan.
Let's strive for hereafter.
Let's give up on sinning.
Let's embrace Qur'an to understand the message of Almighty Allah.
You and i are capable of everything Just making through this Ramadan finish line is enough rather than giving up simply without even trying.
Five things what we're capable of
1. Salah fives times a day note you can stretch your limit by doing nafil.
2 . Reading Qur'an a page or two with translation.
3. Not skipping fasting i.e unless you have periods or fallen sick or travelling ( make up this fast after Ramadan).
4 . Engaging in Charity i.e ( who are capable of giving zakat and you can also give a date if you can't afford remember charity is intention of one's heart).
5. Attending taraweeh prayers if you can't make it 20 rakat , make it 8 rakat knowing this is sunnah of our Prophet ( something is better than nothing). And last but not the least worshipping in the nights of Laylatul Qadr if you can't make it for last ten days try to pray on 21 , 23 , 25 , 27 and 29.
I hope you find this useful and Almighty Allah make this Ramadan a peace affair.
The night covers you and I hope it gives you rest and a gentle reminder that all things end and so shall your bad mood.
I am so proud of the person you have become. You carry your own vibe now. If people like it, they are most welcome.
If they don't like it you always leave the doors open. That is what makes you strong and beautiful. Also, at the end of the day you realize that you are human, you are at peace that mistakes are inevitable.
Nobody is mistake proof and so you are going to make mistake and you accept that you are going to make them.
These mistakes don't define you. You have a kind heart and it isn't necessary for you to prove it to everyone. You know better than to care about that.
That is what makes you beautiful. You know that you are only responsible for your own actions and you don't hurt anyone intentionally.
That is what makes you beautiful. You also know that what other perceive about you is none of your business and they can feel free to create any image in their minds cuz what they are good at.
You are beyond that and that is what makes you beautiful. You are bigger than your moods , you know to take stand for yourself and you don't let other people's opinions to stop yourself from making decisions.
You know what is best for you and you will take decisions that will help you to get to your destination, that is what makes you beautiful.
You don't need people to think too much about you, you can handle yourself, you know how to keep fake sympathy out and you don't pretend, you keep it simple and real.
That is what makes you beautiful. It has taken you a long time to know your worth and you don't need me or anyone to remind me of anything such but sometimes reading helps to pull us up from deep water.
You are happy knowing your worth which was a long process, so you don't let anyone spoil it, that is what makes you beautiful.
I wish you hapiness and soothing as the northern lights that gives the traveler hope in the darkest ....