Its been said,
"There is something different about her."
"I don't know what it is, but different."
I guess there is.
You lose all you ever have known.
But, you tell me "you've known for 2 years this day was coming."
That doesn't make anything any better.
I am just lost in the darkest parts of my mind.
Not knowing how to shine light there.
I am not sure of anything anymore.
I don't think I ever will.
I keep feeling I could have done this or that.
I feel like I took for granted all I could.
And never went back to correct that.
I could have done better, I could have done better.
Now I hold all this in.
The darkness is overpowering me.
I suppose I'm letting it.