Behind the screens..
Yes, he was my drama queen. Not the drama queen you see on screen, but the way my drama queen will ever act. The late night calls when he was sleepy clearly defined how my drama queen will act. Maybe he wanted to talk to me because there were so many unsaid words in his eyes, but i knew that he was too sleepy to pretend that he wasn't sleepy anymore, but he stayed awake. Smiled at the screen. No, he smiled at me, and I smiled back at him. And sometimes, he would just keep his phone against the wall, and sleep for a minute. And it just felt peaceful to watch him sleep. Yes, it was all behind the screen. And that hurts, even today! But whenever he did that, I wish I was beside him. I wish I could stroke his hair when he was taking a short one minute nap and wake up again, just to talk to me. Maybe I was just dying to meet him in person and feel his warmth, but circumstances were against us, and it just took forever to see my drama queen act as if he wasn't sleepy anymore.
But who knew that everything will fall apart, and we would separate our ways one day? Because he was tired of the circumstances, but I was ready to wait. For him. For us.
_ Utkarsha Kalambe
Dt. 25 Jan 2022 @3:49 hrs IST