Heart : Today is the start of a week long course that I paid out of my own pocket. To be certified. Conscience : That's good. What will be the added value on this course?
Heart : To be formally certified with Train The Trainer Certification and certified under National Accreditation Standard. Conscience : Ah good good. That would give you the edge.
Heart : Yes, I've been asking my office to send me formally to be certified., but...... I can't comment much. Conscience : Well you're doing it on your own which is good. Heart : Yes, I'm doing for me and investing my money on myself. I'm paying this on installment so that I am am able to do it. I took a whole week leave. I hope I am able to do well in the assignments and pass all the assessments and maybe change my career. Let's see.
**She starts investing in herself. AGE? Yeah it took a while but hell she feels as if she is still in her 20s, so nothing is going to stop her. YOU GOT THIS BIHA!. YOU GOT THIS! **
There's something I call the “ability pressure”. The pressure that comes from wanting to place a particular ability, or knowledge especially, that you have on display. This occurs most often when there is a wrong display of that knowledge or ability, and you feel a very strong urge to come all out and showcase what you've got.
In one of his teachings, Arome said
“if you can't control the ability, it means the ability is bigger than you. It takes a great deal of self control, to be heavy and highly combustible under power, and still retain your calm. But if you're able to do that, it means mastery has been attained.”
There really is time for everything. And whether or not your seed would grow to yield the desired fruit is dependent strictly on when it was planted. Unless maybe you got so much of them that it doesn't matter whether or not they're wasted.
Mastery, also entails having the ability to do stuff at the right timing. And like Arome said, if you can't control it, then it's bigger than you.