Moving through cycles of grief as I continue to heal. Three life changing events are swirling around my heart. By recognizing each of them, I breathe aliveness and celebrate my own survival. By the end of this month, my Dad will have been gone from this physical plane for one year. Ending an eight year relationship with a man who was my best friend hurts like hell yet is the best thing I could've done for myself. Ten years ago, 11/12/11, I attempted suicide. The Divine number of that date is 9, symbolizing endings and conclusions. This year I said good bye to two men I loved dearly in different ways. These past ten years have taught me so many hard earned and learned lessons of faith, trust the power of belief and the meaning of unconditional love. I am my own best friend hero.
This poem is an expression of shadow work. Deep introspection is where I go to examine the pieces of myself that ego wants to deny, judge and try to escape from or eradicate from my being. The truth is I AM ALL of what I feel and so much more. Integration of each piece is what makes me whole. Everything is temporary in life's ever changing cycle. Bringing consciousness to a higher level is awareness of our humanity. Here's to the healing journey from this human condition we live as spiritual beings of light having a human experience. Love all of you my friends ❤