#spokenword

6703 posts
  • faygold 19h

    ANAKAINOSIS OF THE MIND

    There's a place that's so powerful
    It controls our actions
    And every circumstances in life
    If you feed it the right meal
    It produces the best results
    If you feed it the wrong meal
    It completely destroys you
    But it destroys slowly without you realizing.
    If you do not come to realization
    You might die an ignorant being
    Who did nothing right but felt he did something worth value on earth
    I'm talking about THE MIND
    The interesting secret is you can control THE MIND
    You can decide what comes in and eliminate negative things.
    Don't give space to the Enemy to inject negativity into your mind
    Block it out!!!
    RENEW YOUR MIND DAILY!
    MEDITATE ON THE WORD AND ON THE RIGHT THINGS
    Then you will see a TRANSFORMATION!
    A ANAKAINOSIS!
    The Holy Spirit is available to help.
    ©faygold

  • scaredycat2222 1d

    Nope

    Im sorry
    if the way
    that I love you is too soft
    My hands were bound with promises made With words that meant
    to break them

    My cries were muffled with sheets twisted in silk
    That mopped up the milk That dripped from a broken cereal bowl
    He threw at the wall
    Right above my body
    where my head broke my fall

    I was naive in hoping for the end when I knew it was just the beginning

    I tried to shut my eyes
    but my world just kept on spinning

    My nails numb to the carpet and
    they just cant stop digging
    I cant claw my way outta here
    I can scream or yell my way out,i fear
    the only thing that stops them is ny blood on their hands
    and im just not bleeding yet

    who knew there could be so much pain inflicted
    with out leaving so much as drop baring witness
    to the wickedness that hid inside.

    who knew I could loose faith
    In everything and still beg for anything other than what he was doing to me right fucking now

    I just dont have the strength to fight back right now

    I vowed
    I would never, ever, ever
    never ever, ever again
    trust another person, lover, or friend
    with even the smallest piece of me thag they could beat, bloody, break or bend

    So im sorry
    If the love I give you seems like a tiny quiet cry that gets carried away
    In a soft summer breeze
    when its compared To the way you can love somebody it looks like you love blindly with the greatest of ease


    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 1w

    Malignant

    I noticed you look slighted
    if I'm the tiniest bit excited
    I don't know why you feel invited
    To use my weaknesses
    As your strengths
    when you trigger me
    I feel frightened
    like Hell and Earth just collided
    like I'm standing
    where the devil once resided
    It takes a really insecure person
    To stoop to those lengths
    You appear confindent
    Almost delighted
    When the trauma
    In Me Is ignited
    You become a monster
    when indicted
    Every move you make
    is a power-play
    When my feelings are recited
    I feel our world instantly divided
    You won't stop
    Till the power is lopsided
    Do you feel proud
    when you've treated me that way?
    When we met I was misguided
    I wanted love so I decided
    I could wait
    Till your ego had subsided
    Now I doubt i'll live to see that day.
    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 1w

    Witch one

    You described me as an enigma
    an illusion if you will
    Did you struggle to wrap your head around my ideas
    I dug in deep
    You gave me chills
    have you ever dreamed of making love to me
    and when you woke up
    You wanted more
    Come and see me
    But don't lose your footing
    Be the object I adore
    Close your eyes tightly
    Before you kiss me
    I won't shut mine
    while I kiss you back
    I'll make your walls crumble
    Ever so slowly
    I want you to fill
    The places where i lack
    Learn the magic that I teach you
    I'll keep you spell down
    Through and through
    What comes next for us
    I will not spoil
    I promise it'll all make sense
    once I'm done with you.
    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 1w

    Anti-gravity

    When did my Roots get so blunt and Tangled that they no longer dig into the ground
    I cant remember when i lost my willpower
    I guess i must have misplaced my self-worth
    Where the fuck
    Went my individuality
    I cant remember when i lost my drive to stay on this earth
    I don't even know where to start putting myself back together
    Im fucking stuck between
    not completely dead yet
    And i wouldnt call this alive
    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 1w

    Close the door you're letting the heat out

    I prefer to be alone here
    Shut inside my safe cocoon
    I'm really not one for conversations
    I stop giving a fuck
    about being understood
    You see my walls
    They're tall and sturdy
    And my door locks from the inside there are no windows
    to be raped by sunlight
    It's the perfect place for me to hide
    I used to come here
    when life got heavy
    It's always been my only reprieve but lately I spend all my time here
    I just can't bring myself to leave
    it's not like anyone
    will come by looking
    Nobody's knocking on my door perhaps I'll lock myself
    inside forever
    Maybe, i won't go home anymore
    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 3w

    10th & Michigan

    I cant quite get him to release his grip
    I cant fucking breathe
    Are you trying to kill me?
    Wtf.
    Wtf was that.
    Wtf…wtf…wtf..omg…omg…omg…
    Whys he calling me
    Oh god I cant answer
    I have to answer or hell be angry
    Hes at the door
    Hes singing
    Oh ok hes super sorry
    He wants to cuddle
    We made up
    I have to be careful not to wake him
    Im terrified to wake him
    Fuck I woke him up
    Im sorry
    I didn’t mean to
    U don’t have to do that
    Fuck
    Please
    Im sorry
    I didn’t mean to
    Fuck
    Youre right
    Im awful
    The worst girlfriend ever
    You deserve better baby
    Much better than me
    U want to cuddle
    Ok
    Let’s make up
    Fuck it feels good when he touches me
    And kiss me
    And loves me
    Oh my god hes amazing when he is amazing
    I can do better
    I cant loose him
    I can be a good girlfriend
    I didn’t say anything
    I swear didn’t
    Stop
    Please stop
    U just said
    Im sorry youre right
    Im sorry
    Please
    Fuck
    Ok
    Ok
    Ok
    Ok
    Ok
    Please
    Pl3ase
    Ok
    Yes
    Yes
    I promise
    Youth right
    No I swear baby you’re right
    Im shit
    Im fucking trash
    Ok
    I love u too baby
    Ok
    Im gonna sleep
    I will answer
    I promise
    I love u too
    Im sorry I was in the shower
    The phone was on vibrate
    Please
    Please don’t u don’t have to
    I get it
    Ok!
    Ok!
    Ok!
    I swear
    No no no
    Ok
    Ok
    Omg
    Omg
    Wtf
    Omg
    Wtf wtf wtf wtf what the fuck!!
    God dammit
    God
    Damn
    It!
    Crying wont get you anywhere
    I dont know what to do with what im feeling inside
    I dont like what im feeling inside
    Its too much
    Im suffocating
    I need it out if me
    God get it out of me
    Please
    Do something
    You have to do something
    Ok
    Ok
    Ok
    That’s That’s much better
    Numb is much better
    Ok
    Ok
    Ok
    Hi love
    How was your day
    Oh what happened
    Im sorry
    Please
    Don’t
    Please
    Ok
    Im sorry
    Im sorry
    Im sorry
    Please
    Ok!!
    Youre right!
    Its me!
    My fault!
    Im sorry!
    Im sorry baby.
    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 3w

    Ant hill

    The dissident
    The provocateur of all that is nonconforming
    And malcontent
    Spreading propaganda and
    Disbelieving you will one day be someone to be afraid of.
    Youre always something to be proud about.
    Im always gonna shout out with you
    In some dingy hotel room at 3am while youre half naked and im searching for a cigarette in my purse so i have an excuse to go outside to get away from you before my God damn head explodes.
    You make my head feel like its gonna explode.
    Turning sheep into heretics
    You play un fair for the hell of it
    Take mine and your shares of it
    Eye got my eyes on you
    I just cant take my eyes off of you
    Quickly righting all the wrongs that you do
    Ill make the bitches batting their eyes stear clear of you
    Can you jusf try and stay irreverent
    To me youll never be irrelevant
    Can just discuss the fucking pink elephant in the room already
    Times just a tickin and checkouts an hour before noon.
    Our time together goes so fu king fast
    but days when i get to see you are never too soon
    Youre Full of hot air like a birthday balloon
    Juxtapositioned and grey like a rainless thunder cloud reminding me its June gloom
    I cant keep going like this or one day ill die jumping out the window trying to ride that broken broom
    ©scaredycat2222

  • reign_unleashed 4w

    Love

    It's always a slap in the face
    A blow to the stomach
    A stab in the bacc
    Heart wrenching
    Gut punches
    ©reign_unleashed

  • scaredycat2222 5w

    Click

    Play with me like an acoustic guitar till your fingers snap one of my strings
    Glare at me with your eyes open painfully wide
    While simply out of spite youre refusing to blink
    Grab a fist full of my ponytail
    And pull harder and harder till i cant take it anymore and a let out a squeek
    ©scaredycat2222

  • cristvivi 5w



    As beautiful as your love and words,

    we ended just as another sad story to tell




    ©cristvivi

  • scaredycat2222 5w

    Butter

    It's like i can feel you anxiously waiting for the moment
    i decide that ive had just about enough of this waiting on you, and decide that im not going to spend my days wedged in between being patient and quieting my aching heart that wont stop crying cause its grown tired of longing for someone who is completely content, happy even, with missing someone they know damn well is not content and is very unhappy missing them.
    If i wanted to suffocate in this lonley and ice cold room where my lips have been neglected so long theyve become frost bitten by the icy words i scream into my pillowceach night half hoping you'll hear them and bgg the other half wishing my brain will finally fucking listen to my tongue and leave your sorry ass who i know is only playing games. Who is only allowing me to slip into your world when you feel me slipping away. Amd who i know isnt going to fullfill me because you dont fullfill anyone but your own selfish needs while issuing future faking promises of a brillant future where some day, soon you always promise itll be just nnb you and me, if i just hold on a little bit longer. Have just a little more patience and have just a little of hope.
    What kind of a dumb fuck do you mistake me for?
    ©scaredycat2222

  • cristvivi 5w

    Deep

    Sometimes you have to let arms be Honey

    So when you give a hug,

    They can understand how sweet it is to be loved by you




    ©Iampapipicasso

  • scaredycat2222 9w

    PCH

    Mysterious, dark and deep
    Bluer than the sky above
    Blacker than the blackest of black any damned soul could ever hope to become
    Only lightening can shed light on its surface
    But only for a moment
    Those moments came and went fiercely with a crack of the devils whip
    A flash of an acid trip
    A squeeze of an angered mans grip
    You are the ocean and its waves
    And i want to drown myself in you
    Relinquish to you my last dy in ng breath
    Loose in you all that i aquired to make me who i am
    Who i was
    Who i ever accepted i would be
    Toss me around with each wind gust that accelerates your waves
    My body, no longer needed, lost in you with time, envelope me in my grave.
    Protect my flesh from the sun and moons violating rays
    Only a beating heart needs sunlight to see, in you i welcome all that is night. I need no eyes, i can no longer see.
    Ive become one with you and you became one with me.
    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 10w

    Patience

    You want your love to be enough to get me to put my pipe down.
    I wany your love to be enough to make the voices in my head get quiet and pipe down.
    You want my heart to open its arms and squeeze you so tight you feel like it will never let you go
    I want my heart to magically repair itself and stop being tiny little shards that i kick about everytime the broom brushes them to and frow.
    You want to hear the words i love you come from my lips said in my voice in to your ears so you can make sure i mean them.
    I want you to accept that i am not capable of doing the things you expect of me except for wanting to be right for you, except for wanting to want you as much as you want me
    Except for hoping that the fucked up shit that was done to me doesnt make you believe theres something wrong with me
    I accept that you expect to be able to accept me for me.
    Be patient and i promise we can live happily.
    New places, new faces, you said you want babies, maybe with these changes i can loose the crutches that keep me steady and i can be steady on my own and you steady on your own.
    But its hard.
    Its terrifying and its fucking hard.
    So forgive me for being a little quiet sometimes. Forgive me for looking a little tierd somtimes.
    Forgive me for needing you more than you may need me to be fine sometimes.
    I do believe that i love you, but i dont know how to make myself feel okay with letting you know that i do.
    I do want all the things you want and i know that one day i can be perfect for you.
    I know you said you dont have patience but i have ebough for both me and you.
    You just have to acccept it as my gift for allowing me to have something up ahead to look forward to.
    ©scaredycat2222

  • thequillr 11w

    'An October Morning'

    Her image fluttered in the breeze, swayed with the morning mist, and imprinted itself upon my memory. In that moment, I could not think of anything else. The empty station, the chill of the October dawn, the silence emanating from the walls - these details rose to my mind with a throb much, much later. I wondered then if in later days I would still remember how she felt in my arms.

    Now I know. The last of her breath is slipping away from my embrace. Her warmth is now a phantom around my body, receding with the slow pace of the train which bore her away from me. And I am left alone, contemplating the grey inevitabilities of a distant relationship.

    ©theQuillr

  • scaredycat 12w

    Jabber Jaws

    Hold your breath
    Detonate
    Kick your feet up
    Procrastinate
    Let your gums flap
    Self In criminate
    No one's watching you,
    Not need to dry your eyes.
    Prying eyes may they be blinded
    By a sun
    so bright your beaming with love and with pridefulness
    That will kill you faster than a car crash or a plane crash or
    a shot gun blast to the Head
    out west where the weather's best, actually it's the best of the best,
    better than all the rest of the states of mind that bind you to this hell you call your home
    Sweet home is never a home unless you can appriceate being alone in this world
    And it is a lonely place to be
    Except when it's our home and we're there together just you and I I sure did love to love you,
    Or maybe I loved just loving someone who knows me better than I could ever know myself
    Could I be enough for someone like you
    you know what I mean you know where I've been and what I've seen I've seen it all at the end of the day cause you make my days worth it at least that's what I want to say.
    ©scaredycat

  • undefinedvisionary 13w

    Sometimes We Can Travel The Same Path But We Will Never Leave The Same Footprints



    ©undefined_visionary69

  • scaredycat2222 13w

    Challenge

    Promises, baby, promises.
    Sugary sweet nothings generously poured into my ears.
    Cuddles and kisses and fogged up windshields.
    Never been more sure of anyone, untill you, my dear.
    Smiles go missing with the grand romantic guestures.
    One day a door swung and hit me cause he let it go.
    He became so busy he couldn't see me untill the wekeends.
    But needed to spend his weekends catching up on chores.
    Hed didnt call after work like he always used to
    He treated me like i wasn't a priority anymore.
    When he Finally found a little time to come and see me.
    His eyes were glued to his cell phone cause i guess i made him bored..
    Obvious questions were met with obvious answers.
    Feelings expressed were misunderstood.
    When i checked for butterflies they were al gone.
    I thought that love would last forever.
    I was wrong.
    ©scaredycat2222

  • scaredycat2222 13w

    Creamsicles

    I have to really think back to the time before i knew you were a wolf in sheeps clothing and after i found out that, yes, the saying "if its too good to be true, than it propably is" is more of a fact than just some annoying quote used by envious girlfriends who's tongues are irreparably bitter from their spoiled relationships that looked more like a jug of past the expiration date milk than an actual relationship.
    Only then can i remind myself that i am truly better off.
    I have to almost manually remove my perpetually beating heart and place somewhere away from my brain in order to be able to recall the truly fucked up things that even still to this day, and still to my utter dismay, you actually really did say to me with the admitted intent to dig that knife you expertly plunged into my back, just a little deeper as to guarantee the scars from you having back stabbed me, would ,for a very, very long time, be visible for everyone to see.
    ©scaredycat2222