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  • _akonkwa_resme 4w

    Dry-New season

    Dry seasons
    New skin

    Its autumn and there's a lot to be shed.
    The old,
    The former

    Revolting bares consequences,
    I comprehend not.
    Reluctance yields chaos.

    Spring forth dear child...
    Its a new season.
    Flow in abundance,
    Gravitate with change,
    for change...love!

    Gravitational change...
    Its seasonal....!

    Embrace the new!


  • scaredycat2222 17w


    Im sorry
    if the way
    that I love you is too soft
    My hands were bound with promises made With words that meant
    to break them

    My cries were muffled with sheets twisted in silk
    That mopped up the milk That dripped from a broken cereal bowl
    He threw at the wall
    Right above my body
    where my head broke my fall

    I was naive in hoping for the end when I knew it was just the beginning

    I tried to shut my eyes
    but my world just kept on spinning

    My nails numb to the carpet and
    they just cant stop digging
    I cant claw my way outta here
    I can scream or yell my way out,i fear
    the only thing that stops them is ny blood on their hands
    and im just not bleeding yet

    who knew there could be so much pain inflicted
    with out leaving so much as drop baring witness
    to the wickedness that hid inside.

    who knew I could loose faith
    In everything and still beg for anything other than what he was doing to me right fucking now

    I just dont have the strength to fight back right now

    I vowed
    I would never, ever, ever
    never ever, ever again
    trust another person, lover, or friend
    with even the smallest piece of me thag they could beat, bloody, break or bend

    So im sorry
    If the love I give you seems like a tiny quiet cry that gets carried away
    In a soft summer breeze
    when its compared To the way you can love somebody it looks like you love blindly with the greatest of ease


  • scaredycat2222 18w

    Close the door you're letting the heat out

    I prefer to be alone here
    Shut inside my safe cocoon
    I'm really not one for conversations
    I stop giving a fuck
    about being understood
    You see my walls
    They're tall and sturdy
    And my door locks from the inside there are no windows
    to be raped by sunlight
    It's the perfect place for me to hide
    I used to come here
    when life got heavy
    It's always been my only reprieve but lately I spend all my time here
    I just can't bring myself to leave
    it's not like anyone
    will come by looking
    Nobody's knocking on my door perhaps I'll lock myself
    inside forever
    Maybe, i won't go home anymore

  • scaredycat2222 20w


    I dont want to be censored
    I don't want to be judged
    I don't want to be criticized for be out late and getting mugged
    I dont want you to hurt me
    I really cannot take much more hurt
    I really can't take much more of anything
    Im sorry i got mascara on your shirt
    I don't know exactly what im doing
    I don't know exactly where to go
    I dont know what it is you expect that you will get from me
    Im sure you tell me the moment that you know
    Ive always wanted to be accepted
    For all the fucked up fuckery ive grown to be
    Ive always wanted to be able to be called good
    I always knew shit wouldnt get better for me
    I wish i hadnt told you i was suicidal
    I widh i hadnt told you i used to get beat
    I wish i didnt have these secrets to share with you to begin with
    I thought if i got them out theyd somehow feel unwanted and finally leave
    I wish i didnt raise my voice when i get angry
    I wish you asked questions so you could better get to know me
    I wish i knew how to keep my fucking mouth shut
    Cause maybe then you wouldnt be so fucking angry at me
    I wish i could turn back time knowing the things i know today
    I wish i could find the younger me with a warning of whats coming her way
    Maybe if i wasnt so mangled and damaged
    Maybe if i wasnt so worn the fuck out
    Maybe then i could stop planning for my exit
    Maybe then i could find the peace everyones talking about

  • scaredycat2222 20w

    10th & Michigan

    I cant quite get him to release his grip
    I cant fucking breathe
    Are you trying to kill me?
    Wtf was that.
    Whys he calling me
    Oh god I cant answer
    I have to answer or hell be angry
    Hes at the door
    Hes singing
    Oh ok hes super sorry
    He wants to cuddle
    We made up
    I have to be careful not to wake him
    Im terrified to wake him
    Fuck I woke him up
    Im sorry
    I didn’t mean to
    U don’t have to do that
    Im sorry
    I didn’t mean to
    Youre right
    Im awful
    The worst girlfriend ever
    You deserve better baby
    Much better than me
    U want to cuddle
    Let’s make up
    Fuck it feels good when he touches me
    And kiss me
    And loves me
    Oh my god hes amazing when he is amazing
    I can do better
    I cant loose him
    I can be a good girlfriend
    I didn’t say anything
    I swear didn’t
    Please stop
    U just said
    Im sorry youre right
    Im sorry
    I promise
    Youth right
    No I swear baby you’re right
    Im shit
    Im fucking trash
    I love u too baby
    Im gonna sleep
    I will answer
    I promise
    I love u too
    Im sorry I was in the shower
    The phone was on vibrate
    Please don’t u don’t have to
    I get it
    I swear
    No no no
    Wtf wtf wtf wtf what the fuck!!
    God dammit
    Crying wont get you anywhere
    I dont know what to do with what im feeling inside
    I dont like what im feeling inside
    Its too much
    Im suffocating
    I need it out if me
    God get it out of me
    Do something
    You have to do something
    That’s That’s much better
    Numb is much better
    Hi love
    How was your day
    Oh what happened
    Im sorry
    Im sorry
    Im sorry
    Im sorry
    Youre right!
    Its me!
    My fault!
    Im sorry!
    Im sorry baby.

  • scaredycat2222 22w


    Play with me like an acoustic guitar till your fingers snap one of my strings
    Glare at me with your eyes open painfully wide
    While simply out of spite youre refusing to blink
    Grab a fist full of my ponytail
    And pull harder and harder till i cant take it anymore and a let out a squeek

  • 7signxx 24w

    You are my
    'Once upon a time'...

  • rachanarithu 24w

    Life Advice

    Dear 10 year old Rach,

    Knowing now what kind of a roller coaster your life is going to be, I want to hold you close to my chest and sheild you from all of it. I want to give you all the love and care you craved for since childhood. But as much as I wish for that, neither of us can travel through time, so here are couple of advices, I think would have helped you at your age;

    1. You are not responsible to mend relationships which you didn't break, your family was dysfunctional long before you came into the picture.

    2. I know all you yearn for is, love and the secure feeling of a warm hug but unfortunately we often place our expectations with the wrong people, parents included. Nobody's is flawless and everyone is in their own turmoil. Sometimes or atleast in our case, most of the times, we are the only ones for ourselves. I know that advice can break your heart but love, the sooner this is learnt, the lesser wounds.

    3. You are not responsible for other's behaviour, the world was cruel before you knew it. Those classmates and teachers from school, who bully, slut shame and even drive you nuts are already the way they are. You have done nothing to make them act that way although they will try to convince you otherwise.

    4. Oh my dear one, you will soon experience a beautiful feeling called love. Someone for however short duration of time, will paint your world with colors so bright.

    5. And yes, you will experience heartbreak and once you will break the heart of someone you love too. It's an awful space to be in but hold on, things will change for better.

    6. Love will return in different phases of your life in better and worse forms, shaping your life and yourself in ways you never imagined to be. It's growth, so as much as it will be beautiful, it will be painful too, brace yourself.

    7. Family is not just by blood, you will meet amazing human beings who become closer than family and trust me even will be crucial for your survival at that phase. The world ain't all that bad, hold onto that thought.

    8. You will reclaim some bonds within the family which are worth holding on to eventually. And those bonds will be helping you rebuild a life after a near complete destruction. So although it seems all is lost now, hold on, the tables will change.

    All in all, you are in for a hell of a ride and at times you might even feel disconnected with yourself. But remember we will be there for each other no matter what, even though it will take some time for us to understand, and accept each other.
    And most importantly remember two things, never let the world kill the child in you, love and kindness inside you and hold on to the thought 'this too shall pass.'


    30 and stilll alive (we made it this far together and there is a long journey ahead).

  • scaredycat2222 29w

    Room with a view

    I really want to knock your ass off your high horse
    I want to kick the pegs out from under your legs
    and bring you back down to where you were when i found you
    The first time er met.
    Its been such a long time,
    And heaven knows id hate for you to forget.
    I busted my ass so you could have enough time in the day to waste on climbing high.
    you would hardly recognise me as the that woman I was.
    From where you were perched
    I propably looked more like
    a spec of dust.
    While you were up there, enjoying that beautiful and undeserved view
    You stomped on me like some ant cause I no longer
    meant shit to you .
    No effort.
    No compassion.
    No thoughtfulness.
    No thanks.
    I gave ebough for the both of us except it wasn’t divided equally
    you took it all for yourseld
    on advance.
    I became irrelevant.
    I had little to no value.
    And became useless to you.
    Once you found someone else who could get you higher
    than i was able to.
    You Used my back and my head to give you a boost up.
    Then Bitched at me and said it was my fault when it wasn’t high enough.
    Ive heard many, many times
    that what goes up
    must come down.
    I just pray to God
    when that day comes
    Im there to witness
    Your ass hit the ground.

  • scaredycat2222 29w


    I unearthed my roots for you.
    Tangled mess, after tangled mess, of twisted, matted, uninterrupted and intertwined anchors yanked out of the dirt.
    My eyes skwinted when the pale, never been sunkissed tips were accosted by the warm rays of your blazing summer sun.
    Exauhsted, curious and eager to see what came after that arduous task was at last, over and done.
    I was a newcomer in your land.
    A clandestine in your forgein world that seemed like it was light years away from the home where i grew up to be.
    Reassured only by your words that echoed in yout promises that your world was alot like my world and everyone that you know would soon love me.
    You spent more time examining my splinters than exploring my fruit.
    They would soon wither, then turn bitter.
    You completely lost your chance to enjoy them in their youth.
    You hacked at my trunk with an unsharpened axe.
    You carved yours and anothers initials incased in a heart centered into my back.
    You shook my branches untill they bore only a couple lonley leaves.
    Then used my peices as fire kindling, turned me into ash to be blown away in the breeze.

  • scaredycat2222 29w


    There's never been room for my fight on your battlefield.
    No spot to wage war on your battlefield.
    There's no surrendering flags on your battlefield.
    No keeping the peace on your battlefield.
    Theres no victorys or wins on your battlefield.
    No weapons to cease on your battlefeild.
    Theres no feeling at ease on your battlefield.
    Only dying and defeat on your battlefield.

  • scaredycat2222 30w

    Better tie your shoe laces

    The epidemy of a con artist
    Your picture should be posted next the word "Liar" in the Mariam Websters dictionary.
    It wouldve been helpful had you come with a warning label.
    Potentialy hazardous to your health and pocket book.
    Do not expect honesty, loyalty, generosity, sympathy, or any other actions a good hearted human being typically comes with.
    May use you for everything you got then take off as soon as someone who is wiling or able to give more, comes along.
    Do not get attatched.
    Do not fall in love.
    Use extreme caution if participating in any form of sexual activty with the person.
    They can and will fuck your life up and will not show remourse or take accountability for their actions.
    Had i known that list of traits you came equipped with i would have used more caution with you
    or not have proceeded with you at all.
    The latter being the better option of the two.
    But you did not come with any warning label.
    You did not come with any sign stating your intentions or flaws.
    I wasnt able to go on the internet, look your name up and read any reviews.
    I really, really do wish i could have before allowing you to waltz into my life and leave once you have broken down every wall i had constructed over the last 35 years and then set the requirements higher than they had every been before.
    Now i can barley afford to replace what you dismantled.
    Let alone cover the costs it now takes to meet the new standards.
    You left me vulnerable and weak.
    You took my identity with you and my ability to speak.
    You stole what i felt confident was safe within your grasp.
    You lied when you said i could trust you
    And lied again when you said our connection would last.
    You blammed me for being naive.
    And blammed me for being blind.
    You blammed me for being stupid enough to accepy you for who you said you were and not waiting to see what id find.

  • scaredycat2222 30w


    I have to really think back to the time before i knew you were a wolf in sheeps clothing and after i found out that, yes, the saying "if its too good to be true, than it propably is" is more of a fact than just some annoying quote used by envious girlfriends who's tongues are irreparably bitter from their spoiled relationships that looked more like a jug of past the expiration date milk than an actual relationship.
    Only then can i remind myself that i am truly better off.
    I have to almost manually remove my perpetually beating heart and place somewhere away from my brain in order to be able to recall the truly fucked up things that even still to this day, and still to my utter dismay, you actually really did say to me with the admitted intent to dig that knife you expertly plunged into my back, just a little deeper as to guarantee the scars from you having back stabbed me, would ,for a very, very long time, be visible for everyone to see.

  • scaredycat2222 33w

    Finish your milk

    Epitaths and bubble baths
    Blustery days
    Fires ablaze
    Chilly dogs
    And morning fogs
    Hot summer days
    Long distant gaze
    Rewired brains
    Unclogged drains
    Drops of rain
    And Ankle sprains
    Friday nights
    Sore eyed sights
    Street lights on
    And played out songs
    Buzzing phones
    Flying drones
    Dirty floors
    And List of chores
    Ticking clocks
    Unmatched socks
    Tangled cords
    And Slamming doors
    Broken hearts
    Car wont start
    Shards of glass
    Pain in my ass
    Rips in jeans
    Forgotten dreams
    Shoe lace in knots
    And little red spots
    Razor burn
    Missed my turn
    Broken nail
    Stolen mail
    Tierd eyes
    Killing flies
    Liquor stores
    Dont want anymore.

  • scaredycat2222 33w

    Get your ass off the tracks

    A fine silver thread twisting and splintering as it hang wrapped around your pointed finger
    Stressing me out so damn much its become impossible for me to linger any longer than i already have
    I was forced to go before i had enough time to get a good look at your face so that it would be etched in my brain and could replace the thick unfamiliar fog that rest heavy in your place.
    I left so quickly the strangers who sat comfortably hypnotized by your spiderless web of finger pointing lies probably thought either my ass was on fire or perhaps i was shooting for first place in some long distance race.
    I lack the comfort of remembering what you look like,
    even though I hoped i would.
    I cant recall wether your hands were soft or rough or what they felt l like, even though by now i thought i should.
    And no matter how hard i try to, i cant hear the raspyness in your whisper or what your voice used to sound like,
    But believe you me, i wish i could.
    And no. It doesn't ever ease any pain to recieve a pat on the back and be told that "everything is going to be alright."
    Or to hear some nosy stranger tell me matter of factly that "Everything is going to work out just fine"
    And im certain im gonna scream if i havr to hear, just one more time, that you'll be back one day to stay if youre truly meant to be mine "

  • whole_words 36w


  • whole_words 37w

    Sparrow in the Machine

  • graearea 38w


    Take my heart
    But not for granted
    I'll water the seeds of love you planted
    Over the years with these tears
    This garden shed
    Where I hide my troubles and doubt
    Your green thumb wipes them away
    In their place grows not a rose from concrete
    But a concrete rose
    Forever beautiful

  • light_ofthe_heart 39w

    Say No To Violence

    I say no to violence
    I say no to killing one another
    I say no to inhumane act
    I say no to any form of negativity
    Why? Why? And why?
    How? How and How?
    These two questions keeps ringing in my ears
    Sending vibrations unaccepted to my heart
    Signalling my brain things my mind can't take to heart
    We said we are one Nigeria
    But so lost we seem in our seek for revenge
    And our thirst for blood
    Does violence ever serve as a solution to violence?
    No! Even a neonate will cry out
    The pain keeps getting unbearable each passing day
    Violence will only keep costing us our lives and peace
    In it the future and home we crave for will be lost for eternity.
    Irrespective of whatever it is, was or will be
    We are Nigerians and Nigeria is our home
    Our pride our peace
    We need to stand up and sweep the violence beneath where we sit
    Violence is never a solution to violence.

  • graearea 49w

    Hidden Gem

    I'm always a secret
    Kept in the dark where glimmer is a luxury
    Fed by the empty silence and echos of nothingness
    I stay in my little cage
    A willing participant to this game
    Maybe on this day you'll let me out
    So I can show you what my love can be
    Untamed, raw, full of energy
    Let it wash over you, show you how sweet it could be
    If you'd just love me without secrecy