Miraquill
Again.
Theres no easy way to say this, but I am a broken person.
At the drop of a pen, I fall apart again and again.
In an instant i contemplate the worthiness of my self towards life.
Its almost like my life is following a written prophecy,
That entails pain, sorrow, heartbreak, and misery in a never ending loop.
I am dearly sorry for those who love me and feel differently.
I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of searching for a reason to exist.
A reason to be happy.
I cannot exhaust myself maintaining relationships, it's never been for me. The death of my mother will change me.
The loss of myself will leave me broken and weak on a cold floor. "It would be better for everyone involved if i never existed at all." I tell myself on a sad afternoon.
Its hurts so much because I truly believe it.
Such talent wasted on such a disappointment.
The talent of art, writing, creativity.
A soul discriminately corrupted by the pain in this world.
I fall apart again and again. At the drop of a pen.
Not that I'm dramatic. But because everything truly hurts me that badly.
©amyers
#tiredoffighting
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irishjigsaw_xo
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Bleeding heart
As my heart beats inside of
My chest I clutch this bleeding
Heart of mine in my hands
With tears running down my
cheeks. I just want to stop this pain
Inside wishing I can take this
Hurt away it's trapped away
It's the feeling that I'm dreading
To go away. I wish I can turn off
These emotions I'm feeling. These
Emotions I'm feeling are killing me
Inside.
I don't want to love, I don't want to
Care, I don't want to feel, I don't want
To here, and I don't want to real.
I want to be invisible go all numb,
Unattached to my body I don't
Need this heart anymore I
Just don't want it to beat no
Longer so I don't feel this pain.
It's driving me crazy can this feeling
Go away I'm tired of fighting with
My heart and constantly losing this
Battle I know I won't win with my
Bleeding heart all broken and scared.
©mermaid_soul11
