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  • juhiyverma_ 68w

    Just wondering.....

    Why do i need to
    hate everyone else,
    if i can hate myself

    ~as much as i want to.



    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#selfcontemplating#spiritualawakening
    #catharsis#deathismycatharsis#loveandhate#myself#unlost#unfound#lifeandlove#selfworth#iam#ihatmyself

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    Why do i need to
    hate everyone else,
    if i can hate myself

    ~as much as i want to.

    ©juhiyverma_

  • juhiyverma_ 72w

    Maybe i was obsessing
    over nothing.
    But you ?
    You can never be a nothing.

    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#dreams#wishes#nothing#youandme
    #obsessed#you#maybe#justafewwords#bsyunhi#unlost#unfound

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    maybe
    I was obsessing
    over nothing.
    but you ?
    You can never be
    a nothing.

    ~ dreams

    ©juhiyverma_

  • juhiyverma_ 72w

    Without You.....

    Have you ever wondered what this world would be like, without you?
    Lifeless and dead like you??Or the same as it was before, cold and cruel.With only hatred for people like me.Maybe i am wrong or maybe Not.Maybe i judged it all wrong with my myopic eyes and cluttered mind Or maybe i just could not look enough. Not Looked enough to see whether it was all a perception of my own dismantled thoughts,and my handicapped mentality that unwillingly forced me to frame an all wrong notion about the world i am living in, among the people i m struggling with, towards a future i m not ready to be a part of.What if everything that i have been doing is just a part of something thats never gonna happen.Something that was never in the bigger picture that the world hung upon the walls of my broken heart, only to stain it with my own blood.Maybe it wasnt merely a coincidence that all those wounds werent meant to be transformed into beautiful scars but painful memories to be remembered long after I m gone.Or maybe they were supposed to trigger the ache this world inflicted upon me , time and again which my dead and soul less body could no longer feel anymore.But sadly i was numb and oblivious to everything around, owing to my already non existent life.The world would always be the same, no matter you exist or not. Its gonna be there like it was , unperturbed by my death or yours or anyones'. It hardly makes any difference to the world whether u r alive or dead or in a totally third dimension.But for your own satisfaction, u can believe what you want. Whether the world would stop existing for a while or time would cease to mourn over your death. Its all upto you.You can believe in anything and everything that pleases you.Be it the sweetest lies or the ugliest truth. You are already dead so that just means nothing.You are investing in the wrong place, for the wrong people, all for the wrong reasons. Those eyes hiding behind the prettiest faces and honey coated words are myths you could never unravel.Though death might be the eternal truth,your family would be the only one devastated by your loss nevertheless sooner or later they too would learn to live without you.The birds would still chirp every morning and the dawn would still bring beautiful sunshine to your bedroom window, even in your absence. Your words may echoe in the house where you grew up but there wont be anyone to be yelled at now.And Teatime would be the only time , you would be missed But everyone would get used to this new life.Isn't it??


    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#struggle#existence#identity#catharsis#deathismycatharsis#withoutyou#theworldilivein#insaneworld#lifeandlove#soulsearching#darknightofthesoul#awakenings#spiritualascension#unlost#unfound#iam#death#darkthoughts

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    Without You.....

    Have you ever wondered what this world would be like, without you?

    Lifeless and dead like you??Or the same as it was before, cold and cruel.With only hatred for people like me??Maybe I'm wrong or maybe I'm Not.Maybe I judged it all wrong with my myopic eyes and cluttered mind or maybe I just could not look enough.Not enough to see whether it was all a perception of my own dismantled thoughts,and my handicapped mentality that unwillingly forced me to frame an all wrong notion about the world I'm living in, among the people I'm struggling with, towards a future I'm not ready to be a part of.

    ©juhiyverma_

  • juhiyverma_ 78w

    Idealised Despair....


    Life has always been unfair to me,
    and this unending ocean
    of unelongingness
    and hopelessness
    has been my only achievement so far.
    the painful experiences aren't just past things
    to remember and laugh off
    they are the avalances that broke apart all the courage and strength i gathered for years,
    to move ahead ,
    that now,
    they lay my heart barren and my memory soiled.
    that I could no longer discern ,
    this threshold of despair is real
    or merely a figment of all my dismantled emotions ,
    piled up through decades,
    not to be fluxed
    with agony and resentment but hope.
    that this awakening
    isn't a chance meeting with myself
    but an age old healing
    to process the obscured sorrows
    that came uninvited to my life.
    that this sense of abandonement
    and alienation
    isn't real
    but a hallucination,
    trapping me all the way,
    into another world.
    that all along
    i had been living
    in an idealised despair
    that sacred journey
    towards my inner being,
    untouched by darkness.
    towards an actual ghost
    i could never dare to fear again.
    towards a blurry vision,
    of watching myself burn
    a thousand times,
    to be reborn
    anew,
    every single time.
    towards the absolute truth that
    i too,
    deserve to be accepted
    with all my imperfections,
    that i too,
    deserve to feel worthy
    of my precious life,
    just for once.
    that i too
    deserve everything ,
    other than
    this idealised despair.

    ©juhiyverma_


    #life#love#despair#idealiseddespair#lifeandlove#youandme#awakenings#insight#selfhealing#betrayedbyqords#juatafewwords#deserve#imperfectlyperfect#randomstuffs#bsyunhi#darkthoughts#unlost#unfound

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    Idealised Despair...

    Life has always been unfair to me,that this unending ocean of unbelongingness and hopelessness has been my only achievement so far.the painful experiences aren't just past things to remember and laugh off.they are the avalances that broke apart all the courage and strength i gathered for years,to move ahead,that now,they lay my heart barren and my memory soiled.that I could no longer discern,this threshold of despair is real or merely a figment of all my dismantled emotions,piled up through decades,not to be fluxed with agony and resentment but hope.that this awakening isn't a chance meeting with myself but an age old healing to process the obscured sorrows that came uninvited to my life.that this sense of abandonement and alienation isn't real but a hallucination,trapping me all the way,into another world.that all along,i had been living in an idealised despair.that this is my sacred journey,towards my inner being,untouched by darkness.towards an actual ghost i could never dare to fear again.towards a blurry vision,of watching myself burn a thousand times,to be reborn anew,every single time.towards the absolute truth that i too,deserve to be accepted with all my imperfections,that i too,deserve tofeel worthy of my precious life,just for once.that i too deserve everything,other than this idealised despair.

  • juhiyverma_ 81w

    fading
    and falling;
    wild,
    running away,
    stopping a moment,
    a few paces off;
    a profound
    contentment.

    ~ awakenings

    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#spiritualawakenings#insights#awakenings#darknightofthesoul#soulawakenings#selfrealizations#spiritualawakenings#unlost#spirituality

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    fading
    and falling;
    wild,
    running away,
    stopping a moment,
    a few paces off;
    a profound
    contentment.

    ~ awakenings

    ©juhiyverma_

  • juhiyverma_ 81w

    Do not look down upon me
    for I may not fulfil the criteria
    you set for me
    for I assure you
    I will not be the one
    you want me to be,
    for I may not be at par with the
    unusual expectations you have for me.
    Do not look straight into my eyes
    for I may not be able to
    hold onto my grief
    my tears
    no more
    for I assure you
    I will not be the victim
    of my own incapabilities
    for I know I have in me
    the strength
    of the mightiest star ever born
    Do not pity me
    for the mistakes
    I never thought of commiting
    though unwillingly I had to
    for I am just a puppet
    having no control of the strings
    you tied to me
    Do not force me
    to chase the untameable
    for I may lose
    the purity of
    this very soul
    you never wanted to see
    for I may not
    cross the gates of hell
    to please you with
    false hopes of
    fathoming mysteries
    of this mighty universe
    Do not clip my broken wings
    for one day
    i shall too
    fly afar
    in the endless sky
    unlost
    unfound
    free.....
    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#lost#thoughts#onlyme#theonlyone#unheard#unloved#undeserved#undesired#thedarknightofthesoul#awakenings#insights#selfrealisation#catharsis#metamorphosis#survival#darkthoughts#intheabyss
    #universe#unlost#unfound#free

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    free...

    Do not look down upon me
    for I may not fulfil the criteria
    you set for me
    for I assure you
    I will not be the one
    you want me to be,
    for I may not be at par with the
    unusual expectations you have for me.
    Do not look straight into my eyes
    for I may not be able to
    hold onto my grief
    my tears
    no more
    for I assure you
    I will not be the victim
    of my own incapabilities
    for I know I have in me
    the strength
    of the mightiest star ever born
    Do not pity me
    for the mistakes
    I never thought of commiting
    though unwillingly I had to
    for I am just a puppet
    having no control of the strings
    you tied to me
    Do not force me
    to chase the untameable
    for I may lose
    the purity of
    this very soul
    you never wanted to see
    for I may not
    cross the gates of hell
    to please you with
    false hopes of
    fathoming mysteries
    of this colossal universe
    Do not clip my broken wings
    for one day
    i shall too
    fly afar
    in the endless sky
    unlost
    unfound
    free...

    ©juhiyverma_