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  • gemsofficiel 9w


    We hear it so often
    What does it really mean?
    Is it objective or subjective?
    Should I fill in the gaps or let the gaps fill themselves in?
    Should other people fill it in for me?
    Cause a lot of people are trying to do just that
    Especially the people closest to me
    Some do it cause they care
    Others do it cause they think they know what's good for me better than I do

    They don't understand me
    But they believe they do
    I don't blame them
    Cause it's human nature
    We think we know another person better than they know themselves
    Better than God knows
    But I refuse to live other people's reality
    I refuse to be defined by the ideology of another person
    The ways, lifestyle
    Experience, beliefs
    Of friends, foes and those who are close
    Though sometimes these help
    But it can never define my reality
    It can never define my life, my truth
    It can never define me

    So where do I go to for truth
    Who should define my reality, my life, my decisions, thoughts and words?
    Who should classify my actions, identify my purpose, determine my future?
    What or who has this responsibility?

    Only 1 has this role
    The one knows what I don't know
    Sees what I don't see
    Understands what I don't understand
    The one I call my God
    My Father
    My lover
    My prince
    My Knight in shining armour
    My King and my salvation
    The one who made me royalty
    Who has seated me in heavenly places
    Above all principalities and powers of darkness
    Who makes the impossible possible
    Who loved me when I couldn't love myself
    Saw me when I couldn't see myself
    Knew me when I didn't know myself
    Believed in me when I didn't believe in myself

    He told me to be strong when I felt like giving up
    Gave me hope when I thought all hope is gone
    Told me to go his way
    Not the way of the crowd
    To follow His plans
    Not the expectations and plans of men
    What people say I can't do or say is too difficult
    I say this
    My God is above every difficulty and obstacle
    So I let Him define my reality and determine my truth
    Because He is all knowing
    He's Jesus
    The same yesterday, today and forever
    My future is in His hands

  • gemsofficiel 22w


    The past 2 weeks, I've been down emotionally, spiritually and physically
    I even became tired of praying and reading my Bible.
    I felt so weak in every area
    Those that saw me wouldn't have guessed that anything was wrong because I tried so hard to look and feel strong

    But God saw right through me
    Nothing can be hidden from Him.
    He knew my pain and wanted to help
    I turned away and I felt I could help myself

    Yet God's love and mercy still showed up
    He made me truly understand
    That in my weakness, he is my strength
    Today, I'm strong because of His strength

    I understand that the tears that I cried were also prayers to Him
    He had my best interests at heart
    So I will trust in you always
    And depend on you all my days
    Je t'aime (I love You)


  • gemsofficiel 24w

    The Silent Killer

    During the day
    And even at night
    The Silent Killer strikes
    Man, Woman, Child
    The Silent Killer attacks them all

    Enslaving the body, mind and soul
    Making the sane person insane
    The insane person still thinks they're sane
    The victim forgets the past
    The time when their mind was intact
    When their body was whole
    And their soul was still alive
    It's all in the past

    The Silent Killer strikes
    With every puff on a cigarette, he strikes
    In every taste of a strange substance, he strikes
    With every sniff of a white powder, he strikes
    In every mixture of psychotic "delicacies", he strikes

    You lose your senses
    You lose yourself
    You forget where you are
    You forget where you're going
    You forget what's around you

    You go to that place in the clouds
    I think they call it cloud nine
    Where you feel like anything is possible
    You fly to the moon and back
    Going as high as you can

    Trying to escape from your painful reality
    Trying to fit in with the crowd
    Just wanting to feel good
    But when you come down from that high
    Your painful reality is still there
    The crowd you try to fit in with will forget you
    When the Silent Killer takes you
    You're constantly trying to feel good
    That you always run into the arms of the silent killer
    And away from the real solutions

    This Silent Killer
    You've erased many memories
    Cut short many lives
    Destroyed many destinies
    Filled the hospitals and rehabs with many casualties
    Decorated the cemeteries with souls that never got the chance to live
    And you still keep taking many with you

    Now its time to fight
    Now its time to rise
    To end your reign of terror
    And show the world that there's a better way out of pain
    That they should face their reality and show it who's boss
    That fitting in erases their uniqueness
    To let them know that the place between consciousness and unconsciousness is just a waiting room and not a solution
    That they should not run into the arms of the silent killer
    But into the arms of the Humble Savior (Jesus).