Love and pain are highly correlated and interwined. ______________________________________________ OCTOBER
Melodramatic sky dances on mellifluous melancholy of autumn. Bleak cold wind veils the emotional landscape with mist of summer's love.
A flagrant ruddy tree with shaking twigs against indifferent cold. Leaves of memories fluttering, forever falling from ripeness slowly, silently. Each leaf once furnished eternal warmth, a pristine love. Now, pale dry and wretched. Rustling on the floor of eternity in languid grief. Crushed by the feet of evanescent life. Tattered, tired, dying without sun as the dusk descends.
For the fallen leaves are my heart And the cold naked tree me. Whose breath becoming air as its wistful boughs are leaden with unanswerable questions.
It is october. Letting go is in the air. Time whispering goodbyes. She is dying, me wilting. Memories fading. A slow burn of matter. It is an autumn bonfire. Eros sees wisp of smoke and sits by it whining. Sips warmth out of wreath.
I shall sit by the fire. and warm myself contemplating that every autumn has a spring. or is it the other way that every spring has an autumn?? Introspect readers!!
______________________________________________ : It shall come, My life, my world, me...will be done, Laying in a ground, Deep, not able to feel the beautiful sun. . Not to worry, For I feel no pain, I feel not your kiss, For I will in your heart remain. . Earth above me, Earth all over, Possible on my dearth I will get lucky, On top will grow a four leaf clover. . No more kisses we had, No more joys we sang, No more laughter, Just as we began. . Do hear my voice in your heart? Calling you 'my love', Will time pass, Will I be the one you think of? . Memories is all I have become, Rotting in the the earth, This place I lay, The place of my birth.
Standing two by two in the guided light, Smiles ring, smiles bright. Nowhere is found nowhere is I, Upon a hidden place I lie, Two shadows at play, Two hands hold today, I'm nowhere in the shadows path, Feeling alone in my wrath, Two lovers chat away happily to each other in romance, Two talking about the future and doing a hearts dance, I sit lonely and see them come alive, Upon me I just am on hanging to survive, Two perfect for each one, My time is done, Two enjoy each other in the sun, I wish her happiness with him, my time is done. : Whispers, softly sung in a wind of time, Where is my love, where is my vision of my destiny, Do not condemn the verses I sing, Dreams of arms to hold and moments in ecstasy, It's my heart in love that does ring, Thoughts in my mind longer then a day, Nothing to be ashamed, Feeling inside just does not go away, Not seeking fortune nor fame, Love sings with soft feathers singing in time today, Wanting the life of life to light my flame, A candle burns softly as the winds blow the sweet glow, Feelings deep, feelings in me to show, How is the air I breath so soft with love? How does the moon sing of love? Needing one, needing you, I sit back staring at the sky of loves colors and hue, Majestic heavens shine today as I cannot climb, The air of love the winds of time, Sitting back, dreaming of the one, Seems like these visions are never done, It's you my dear I love as I think of you I am not even done, Because my dear lady you are that special one. : and the night shattered of the fireflies in the sky. Everything around is in your image. Felt is the wind soft as you, heard are leave dancing with the wind. . Woman I am yours walking tonight with you. the night silence speaks in my bones. Oh how I miss you, love you. I carry you in my heart. In the day of the moon The night of the sun. On days I ache for you, Not the brightest sun can go through my cloudy skies. Not the calm of the calm quench my inner storm. To love you, to go into your eyes to kiss your soul. Into my flesh you dug a home. . There I surrender my soul to you. I am yours as you are mine my love. Eternal twins of lovers I see in the skies as those lights reflect and remind me of you. . Where does the fine line Begin and end of You in me? . I split my shadow in two There is me, There is you. Independent but one we are. . Our shadows have no mask to hide, In the light of the light we see our Beautiful darknesses love one another. Strip of color, saved of beauty and truth. . You are with me in my darkness Helping me cross paths to the other Side. Upon the grass, The streams, Spread in everything the Light of love shines on us. . Your hands as flashlight on my Chest to shine, Those sweet hands touches my face As wings, flown in airs of compassion and Pain. . Where is the line drawn on this Earth where you are not with me? The air, the ground and the waters all Drawn in our shadows that follows Me because you are, In me.
As the tree grows with her vines Wondering, have I become the tree Looking in a mirror with my face lines Wondering if nature speaks to me. . Looking back at my life and love, Some good, some bad, some I rather forget, Ones that come I think most of, Are the times of pain and regret. . The past is the past, let it go, That's what they say, What the hell do they know? For memories of events just don't fly away. . I walk slower then my in my youth, Upon events in my life today, Experience painfully taught me about the lie and truth, Lies fade away, crippling the heart, truth has a habit to stay. . Getting older, what parts of my life was a lie? Deeper feelings, what parts was the truth? Both danced in my laugh and my cry. Oh those innocent days of my youth! . My bodies destiny is already written and told, Birth, youth, adult then death, Some say I am young, some say I am old, I don't know, loving and living until my last breath. . Looking back and forward I have learned, There is good and bad, in what I see. I have lived and survived success and getting burned The results of what is to come, was how I saw 'me'. . In the experience searching and learning from my past, In the the times of trouble and pain I asked for reasons None came, but one, good and bad never will last, As I learned I am one with nature, one, my life's seasons.