I know I've taken a lot of your dear time.
Fair enough, I've said a lot, that has impinged
you deep inside, yet there's more left I have to
say and you still need to know.
I've seen you hustling to join your broken bridges;
collecting the ashes and rebuilding castles over
clouds so no one sees you scattered. Being alone
dwelling over your mistakes, listening the tick
tack of wall clock, synchronizing it's rhythm with
uneven beats of your heart.
I know, the things have been changing every now
and then with sun setting below the horizon,
leaving behind the scents of cold, freezing you
with thoughts of having nothing left to live with.
I know pain resurfaces you again and again when
you try to find happiness in encase of memories.
I know words keep colliding in you're head, finding
no escape, finding no ear to hear your silence.
I agree, it's been a long while since you last
hugged someone tight in your arms to embrace
their warmth that does always calms your rising
heartbeats. I know your trembling hands want a
hand to hold that stays for you forever.
I know it's been a long time now.
But yeah. Here I'm.
Probably wanting to spend a little more time with
you. Understanding you and knowing your soul.
Asking you to wait back a little longer.
Because you see the night is almost over;
Come let's watch the beautiful sunrise together.
©laconicutterance
~Siya~
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laconicutterance 237w
Asking you to wait back a little longer;
Because you see the night is almost over;
Come let's watch the beautiful sunrise together;
-Jidnya Pandya
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@writersnetwork #pod -
laconicutterance 238w
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.
-Maya Angelou
/You my little princess are a wee packet of beauty inside out/
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@writersnetwork #pod #readwriteunite #mirakee
*read slow*Just slipping at moments, other times hurt being
embraced by the harsh naked ground. At times
fighting for yourself with your soft tiny arms to
stand back then sometimes crying, breaking into
tears when no one's around.
You my little princess, are a wee packet of beauty inside out.
All complete impeccable as jigsaw of love you are
born. So small yet how do you feel so much
connection for someone else's scar? All torn off
inside, you know how to hide your wounds and
hold back your miseries plus pain. What are you
made of that you still renew and cure my heart
from all that you have within.
You my little princess are a wee packet of beauty inside out.
Bangles pinks and blue clinking mellow tunes.
You adorable person, you little heart, dress them
on your thin hand, banging soft jingles with every
step you run, the same way as you unfurl your
voice around like a calming chirping of the
singing morning bird.
You my little princess are a wee packet of beauty inside out.
You suffer, yet don't uncover the layers you lay
within. You sow it all in writing that stays draft,
hidden. You break into threads some small, thin
and sharp. Surrounded with torn faiths and
hopeless oceans, with every sun submerging into
distances so far. Then too ready to heal again
with that thunder that each time hits you so hard.
You my little princess are a wee packet of beauty inside out.
Yes you, my little girl, you are beautiful than
sunset and sunrise are, broken though, yes you
are beautiful more than emotionless people
around are. You have know what happiness truly
feels like. You kid soul. You kind heart.
You my little princess are a wee packet of beauty inside out.
©laconicutterance -
laconicutterance 239w
And so there you are my dear friend, standing on mid
way of this huge journey called life, close to enter
in the vast ocean where rough waves might
threaten your being and on the other hand leaving its
calm happy shore which always showed beauty in
sunsets.
Betwixt the two cradles, one that witnessed your
sweet laughs and other that will now hear your words of
silence. A little child by heart my friend, you are
now on the brink of being called sensible and
strong on the other half.
©laconicutterance
~Sia~ -
laconicutterance 239w
Don't know what this is.
*sounds weird*
#writersofmirakee #readwriteunite #mirakee #podAnd may be, though not really, you know it's hard, confused, we all will open arms in longing, longing for things, for holding them back that once meant stars and moon to us, that just left. You never noticed when or how; why they did not stay? You wanted them to be with you but something just took them away of your sight, far away, out of reach; Something did not work well, all ruined, all scattered.
You wish them back, close. You carry their essence. You need them. There's amount, huge, love for them that reside in you.
It's empty now. A vacant nothingness. Feels its your fault as they never spoke. It's worst.
Nostalgic at moments of that one song you used to listen and sing, it's melodies did sooth but now too afraid to match its strings with beats of your heart. Don't know why? But too scared of that no-knock return of what then we left, yes things we weren't able to hold or what left us back then; Fear of facing them again. Facing us again.
Vulnerable. Delicate. Too insecure. You feel the pain even in the rays of light. Weird it is.
we still live on lies, hell afraid to accept what's true, afraid to accept that miseries end, yes they do.To accept that people do return, may be not the way once they were. Yes afraid to know their new being. Shivering at the very thought of being what we don't want to be, called what pierces or being judged, blamed, hurt.
We join hands to wish upon that tiny broken star but never mend those wee bits rupturing inside us into the perfection of constellation;
And then one day, out of rage or don't know what,
we all just fling away even the thought of stitching the torn fabric, mending heart or speaking to happiness, to love, to us. Sitting close to people feels strange. Too strange.
Tired and exhausted, too afraid;
we just give up;
©laconicutterance
~Sia~ -
yes, you are sky of limitless possibilities;
wide enough to trap all best in little time;
all that this universe hides;
the havoc doesn't really carries,
the valor to crumble you;
you are stringed with infinity;
isn't that just beautiful?
hold what's in you;
you are your own beautiful perfection;
©laconicutterance -
laconicutterance 240w
Of all the love that fabricates me;
there's your incessant love that helps me relive in ends;
©laconicutterance -
But may be there is sky, a radiant golden sky
behind those hazy thoughts you are constructing.
May be you can wave away those clouds with the rustling gush of your inside valor, that'll not only add smile on your face and beauty in your heart but will also make thunder seem pleasant.
Like the raging ocean falls beautifully on the
shore and the raining sky adds soft aroma around.
Your single little move might lighten up the dark nights you have wrapped yourself in.
©laconicutterance -
laconicutterance 246w
/And then I reach for something to hold close to me, but hands return empty and cold/
#writersofmirakee #readwriteunite #mirakee
@writersnetwork @readwriteunite @mirakeeSpread out in reach of something, my hands
always return empty and cold.
Feet chasing the unknown, I always find myself
running behind things, umpteen things I can't
explain, things that don't have a name and
meaning, things I don't know about.
Sometimes I'm afraid of losing what isn't even
mine yet. Strange fear of things slipping and
drowning in the deep seas of undefined depths.
Enmeshed by sudden ache. A blow hits every bit
of me, a frantic haste I shiver in. Loud beats of
my heart they pierce the cloth I weaved of
calmness, torn off in pieces of little turmoiled
threads.
Heart feels vacant at moments, vacant of the
little things of feeling, happiness and joy, vacant
of pages to read the letters of nostalgia.
And in other places heavy, heavy of tons of
nocent emotions from nowhere.
A terrible lie shades this body. A stored trite smile
to fake togetherness of everything, holding back
the chaos, the messiest edges of life.
When there's nothing in this world that seems to
add glint inside me, constellations seem to differ
over shapes, when ceaseless sorrow overpower
its strengths on me I again spread out my hands
in reach of something to allay my psyche, but
they return empty again.
Empty of the love I needed, empty of the warm
embrace I wanted, to attenuate this hurricane that
ruins me, empty of that one familiar touch that
could relent my frore heart.
All alone and empty I'm, of a hand to hold my hand.
/empty hand/
©laconicutterance -
Though late;
But I'll return back, not now;
not retracing those senile stairs that took,
me up but lead me into unfathomable depths;
curtain that shrouded me, but never did stop,
the incense of bitter voices from,
coming in;
May be;
It's fabric was too webbed;
or maybe its weak threads did never,
braced its being, like mine strings ruptured;
I tailored them, they preferred cuts;
I'll return, may be it will not be,
easy for me;
I'll wait;
till people drown in my absence;
I'll not ask the stars up there in the sky;
to shine brighter than yesterday,I'll appreciate,
them even when they illuminate low;
thousands of them bedight sky;
I too will;
They say;
I wasn't perfect, may be I wasn't;
may be they never noticed my sores;
that adored my skin during the struggles,
of being perfect, may be they never wanted to;
I tried to fit, but never really stood close;
to match expectations, I was lost;
So I wanted to be with myself;
was that bad?
Yes I'll,
stand again, and now,
never judge my weaknesses;
they construct me, they join me;
I'll emerge from uneven broken pieces;
I'll listen each tune my soul sings ;
I'll stay, not because I have to;
but because I want to;
I'll not leave again;
I will return, and now when;
I'm stitched beauty inside out;
I'll not back off, I'll come, now when;
I'm more fiery and fierce, to withstand the hits;
I'll come with summed trine vigor;
and strength dripping, I'll come;
to rule, I'll come to shine;
©laconicutterance | Siya -
laconicutterance 254w
@writersnetwork @readwriteunite @mirakee
#pod
I'm not able to write anything these days.
Tried this. I hope you all will like <3Lately we all realise life's an endless destiny;
its path painted with uneven shades of emotions;
ups and downs all the way long,
where we stumble and then walk again;
certain roads less illuminated, filthy & slippery, we fall on;
then others, brighter than the brightest star we cradle in;
stardust in our soul, and smile on face so pure;
we dress in the garment of protection, for safety
from every little thing around we live in;
fragile at the edges, they breakdown from the pinnacles;
then we drown in hope of drowning all those feeling along with us;
But has the sun ever set taking with it all its shines inside its skin?
There are always those tiny little stars in the sky, that bedight its presence even in the absence of its arc;
blow with the hope;
& trust what's in you;
live in new;
change what hurts;
sow happiness inside,
each inch you grow;
come out as lion;
in forest of hurting wilds;
©laconicutterance / Siya
-
zenith_ 160w
How long has it been, you faking smile?
How long has it been, you hiding to break apart, to cry?What d'you call it
When the roof above you
Crumbles into nothing,
And leaves you
Stained
Of forgotten shadows?
What d'you call it
When the same street
No more brings you
To the same destination?
What is it
When life offers you
Crevices of glass
And you miss the floor
By an inch?
When they'll come
They'll see
How brutally exhausted
You have been
Counting your scars
They might realise
Their marks
And for how long
Will someone hide
The rashness of love
Turned into
More or less
A grave
This corpse no more
Hovers over happiness
To carry
It is all this damn sadness
That accompanies me
In my darkest hour
Holds me
Through all lights;
Dismal and fair
Often termed as ghosts
I'm more close to shadows
They don't lurk behind me
They walk with me
And when you realise
The tap leaking
How d'you think
The world got its sound from?
They carry me flowers
Raven and murky
Pale to germination
And when you hold them
They grin to love
I'm pleased to meet them.
©zenith_ -
zenith_ 158w
Abandon me, for yourself. You're worth so much, and I'm just an obstacle. A hindrance. A trouble. I'm no good.
So I'll wake up one day
And the curves of my bed linen
Will be torn by an absence
The cup of coffee
Would be stained of forevers
Left unspoken
And died announced
The door would be ajar
Just this time
It is no one coming back
And the walls
They're screaming for love
To be felt
And I'll walk past it
Believing nothing happened
One day
My fears would return
I'll be dead
In my bed
And there'll be no one
To care
I may stumble on paragraphs
But I'm curious about sentences
So one day
The evils will return
One day
I'll be waiting for him
And he might never come
The doorbell might be buzzing
And I'll be laying on the floor
Experiencing the cold tiles
I'll not open the door
And then
They'll forget me
So if you are to choose
Don't choose me
Over a love
Held so closely
Because
I might run away
Although then
I hope, I never return.
©zenith_ -
And when I touch the curtains
To let the sun shine onto me
It smolders my flesh
The scars
Which were old enough
To let blood lose shade
Now touches me to the core
And what I do?
I smile
And look at them
I stare at blue
Turning purple
I see colours
Of all shades
Is it falling in love,
Or out of love?
The way
Violin sings to me
The way
Stars speak of music
The way
Moon shines away
The way
It feels
Is it falling in love,
Or out of love?
Through the dark and dull
He has made me realise
A world apart from that
Exists
Here itself
He hasn't left me
Till yet
Is it falling in love,
Or out of love?
The streets
Speak of us
And oh dear streetlights
They know
Our favourite place
Is it falling in love,
Or out of love?
©zenith_ -
zenith_ 156w
In what language would you describe what a writer feels?
How d'you read minds?Mornings have always smiled at me
Leaving me with no questions unanswered
Yet I often wish
The last sip of coffee
Still favours the answers
I receive
It has been so long
The tree near my house
Still wishes for a love
It still wishes
For his love
To grow and bloom
And just not to wither away
I wish
These photographs
Were real enough
To make people stay
Even if it means
Just a little longer
The clocks
Have ticked time to leave time
They have known hours of wait
For someone
And minutes of departure
Of someone
They have seen
Seconds crossing future
And hours turning to past
How lonely
Would have been
The pages of my journal
Nor do they know him now
Nor do they ask of him
Am I even surviving? -
The calendar showed January.
It was freezing cold. I was roasting marshmallows in the rising flames of your false promises that I burnt down the very moment I caught you making up stories. Stories, not about 'us'. But, about you and me. Separately. The melted snow froze again, but my frozen heart never melted after that day.
The calendar showed March.
The sun was finally coming out of hiding. And, I was going into one. Away from 'us'. We both feared how the world would respond to our choices. Flowers bloomed for the sun, and withered for me. Spring was so long my favourite season. But now, my drained heart only waited for the first few drops of Monsoon.
The calender showed May.
But I knew it was a must. To break off all ties. From the heat of Summer and your deadly eyes. Summer spoke to me of a hundred reasons to stay, soak my scars in the sun, and flaunt them as a tattoo of 'our' survival. And, your eyes? Of thousand more. To leave. 'Us' behind, and you, alone.
The calender showed July.
My watch showed 7:25 pm, and I couldn't take my eyes off the wet road on which I waited for you that whole night. I was too tipsy to imagine the coloured, torn snack packets and soda cans painting a rainbow on the black coal, while all I kept counting, was the adventures you had planned for that day and for our lives, together. You never came. But, rain did. Bringing hopes to all, and washing away mine.
The calender showed September.
Autumn arrived only to leave me thinking. About everything that ever happened. Leaves changed colour. They fell off. You showed your true colours. And, 'we' fell apart. I soon realised the sync. Nature was trying to defend you. If she can change, why won't you? And, you did. But, so did I. Me, for my better. And you? For the worst.
December didn't show up.
Or maybe, it did. I wouldn't know. Cause by then, my heart was left all stabbed. Brutally. With sharp snowflakes and blunt lies.
A year has gone by.
A broken calender and a broken heart is all, that remains.
One needs a replacement.
Another, a transplant.
Because, life is too short.
To get healed in time.
- Merusri Mukherjee
©meru_mukh -
amulyafreelancerr 156w
I paint a grave on the unrestricted canvas above us,
With drops falling down over it's reflection,
Blurring the already unreadable poems of sadness.
For my poem is the art I wrote,
Strokes of sadness, my prized verses.
Drops are the full stops I missed,
The reflection, a comma of my motionless venture,
Begging me to impose a state of reckless error,
For a grave is not complete without death and,
I'm not dead. The sadness keeps me alive.
I paint a grave and it's incomplete,
A mistake, may I make?
A dream, may I end?
I'm an artist staring up at the sky listening to,
These infinite verses amidst shades of red,
Calling me home, but I'm a motionless wreck.
And I'll spend my life staring.
©amulyafreelancerr
@writersnetwork
Image (c) : @amulyafreelancerr//STARE//
I paint a grave on the unrestricted canvas above us,
With drops falling down over it's reflection,
Blurring the already unreadable poems of sadness.
For my poem is the art I wrote,
Strokes of sadness, my prized verses.
Drops are the full stops I missed,
The reflection, a comma of my motionless venture,
Begging me to impose a state of reckless error,
For a grave is not complete without death and,
I'm not dead. The sadness keeps me alive.
I paint a grave and it's incomplete,
A mistake, may I make?
A dream, may I end?
I'm an artist staring up at the sky listening to,
These infinite verses amidst shades of red,
Calling me home, but I'm a motionless wreck.
And I'll spend my life staring.
-Amulya -
_gust_ 162w
I've scraped my skin
not on purpose
but it did bleed
helplessly, losing
something that was
valuable to survive
I may have
hurt myself
since, not
purposely, and it
never did bleed
but only was pained
by someone once
valuable
I've dug into me
removing the
superficials of my world
and beauty queen of
others' eyes, searching
for my happiness, which
like a pimple came,
that burst like a bubble
not valuable definitely,
but happiness was, no?
Now I'm still digging though
out of habit to be hurt,
a constant with the smiles
that hid something sad and ugly
but valuable truths
Maybe everything is inside me
wanting to flow out,
tears, bloods, happiness, sadness,
all so valuable, without much value
@gustPriceless.
-
Beginning
There is always a premise that begins your story the way you want it to. I find mine beginning with a loophole.
-
It is strange that we seek respite in people, in stories, in homes, in everything that makes us and breaks us. We are here and we are broken, you say. And I remember you telling me, there is nowhere you can run to when you need to rest. And yet, you ran.
-
My story struggles to break through walls built with insecurities and lies. It climbs and climbs and tries to find a way out. And when it finds none, it turns to the darkness for respite.
-
You told me that a traveller who lost his way, must have lost his heart too. I'd like to believe that you had lost your heart on an autumn trail, frail and weak but content, sated. You were whimsical and all you ever wanted was to come to rest.
-
My story is nothing but words strung together on a summer evening. Told, as a whim took over, under a twilight sky. Lost to the first stars and an unloved heart. You told me, it was okay to let it out. To put words out for people to look into, for people to tear apart until they assume they know you inside out. You tell me, they won't. That's the beauty of it. The assumption.
-
I wonder what your story was. You picked mine out of my skin, my heart until it clogged my throat and I had no choice but to lay it out before you. But you kept yours inside. In some black, hollow pit where it wove webs of frustration and temptation and the urgent desire to break free. When it couldn't, you broke free of everything that tied you down. You ran, so that you could come to rest.
-
Someday, I'll make my words as small as I feel. And I'll tell you to read them out to me, all over again. I'll wish I understood them. I'll wish I understood myself. And I'll wonder if it is too late to take steps that would make me feel less small. Or ways to make my words seem like the story, that you told me, they were.
-
I wonder if you came to rest. I have questions. Questions you could answer if you weren't busy running. I don't know whom to ask anymore. You were a traveller who lost his way and you don't seem to be coming back home.
-
I wonder if it was ever home. I wonder if this was ever a story.
-
If you are here, please listen. I cannot seem to breathe anymore.
©wasted_sparks -
meru_mukh 163w
Well, my rants missed night. But, maybe, night missed them more?
#night__rants #writersnetworkThe silence of night wakes up the morning in me that no dawn ever could, and I am left intrigued by the kaleidoscope of colours my insight throws, upon the canvas of a black sky.
- Merusri Mukherjee
©meru_mukh -
String.
once I was
thrown a rope
swinging up and down
memory filled with mirth
someday
once I was
pulled a bit closer
tied down on a leash
a freedom of following
most days
once I was
singing songs on a tune
of the dangling chains
remained down to earth
every day
once I was
holding onto me and my life
stitching it with a thread
to a believable fate of hope
for another day
©gust
