Miraquill
So here it is to you,
I write this to tell you
you are a history etched,
I don't regret
©naveena
naveena
22, lost in transition �� Surely, not a writer! Trying to be active
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naveena
162w
Read MoreFor every time you shunned me away
I came back, keeping my self esteem at bay
For everytime I came back, I regret why I didn't learn
That if you do it once, you could do it twice
For everytime I regret, I don't regret coming back
Because leaving is devastating and
I wasn't here to devastate
For everytime I was devastated, I knew you'd save me
But how did I not know that it was you,
both devastating and pretending to save me
It was always you and I was a stupid
Stupid to believe your fabricated truths
My instincts did try warning me,
But I was a fool
blinded by my love for you
So here it is to you,
I write this to tell you
You are a history etched,
I don't regret
And it's a goodbye
erasing you and your memories
I finally love myself
But something stops me
from loving myself, I still have your
remains all over
And I can't love any part of you
So here's to my self healing journey
I wash and scrub away your dirt
I am enough for myself
I can love myself
I love myself -
naveena
201w
©naveena
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naveena
202w
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I took a screenshot of my recent milestone. I completed a streak of 100 with a friend on snapchat. Since she had uploaded the milestone, I had to upload it too.
This made me wonder, why is our generation enslaved in shackles of show off and stuff. What will I do of these streaks when I need someone to hug me and tell me it will get fine?
Hey streak friend, will you hold me when I will be breaking in front of you? Would you even know I am breaking? Will you help me heal and grow?
I can't believe what we are turning into. I see streaks growing, real friendships drowning. What if I don't maintain a streak, will I still be called a friend of yours? Will a streak define my friendship with you?
Can we move past the overgrowing technology and appreciate real relations and emotions?
Take me back in the time when real friends existed and not meaningless streaks.
Take me back in the time, take me back.Take me back in the time when real friends existed and not meaningless streaks.
©naveena -
naveena
203w
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Does it really ends?
How do you know, anyway?
Let me just say
I am done
I can't take it anymore
Can you leave now?
Its hurting
you and me
It's a mess
I don't want to untangle
it will always be this way
But I give you the chance
to make it better
It's upto you
you are supposed to run away
the final call is yours
I hope you'd listen to your (my) heart
(stay)you and me
it's a mess
I don't want to untangle
©naveena -
naveena
204w
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I am not good at keeping friendships. For past 2-3 years, I have lost a few good friends, two really close friends and a best friend. That's a sign as to something is wrong with me and not others.
I have realized I really can't keep friendships. I am not going to lie. I am honest and I am blunt.I don't think twice before speaking. I can't sugar coat words. That's my nature. Am I being toxic? (How do I get better?) How do I change myself?
I have feelings too. I feel hurt too. The fact that I can't let go of these people leaves me bitter with each passing day. I don't look at others the same way now. I don't let people in for the fear that I am going to invest my emotions and feelings. Then one fine day, they won't like how I behave and leave.
How do I survive? I had put in my heart and soul, only for people to leave.I had put in my heart and soul,
only for people to leave.
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naveena
205w
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Pull and Push
You pull me close
I push you away
You fear my push
I fear your pull
Opposite attracts
But how do pull and push attract
You'd love me when I need love
But I'm afraid of love
That's exactly why I don't need love
And I'll hurt you, so that you are scared
A loop of pull and push
pull and push
pull and
push
pull
and push
pull
and
push
pull and push
so let's have an end
you'd rather wish it ends in pull
but I'd rather wish it ends in push
maybe lets not pull and pushOpposite attracts
But how do pull and push attract
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naveena
207w
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You are playing with your watch
similar to the way I do
I watch you from the corner of my eye
hopefully you won't catch me looking at you
Felt an urge to talk, but resisted
wished to ask "What were you thinking?"
Were you thinking of someone or somebody or somewhere or something?
You walked out
"Wait", I'd say (in my mind)
Let me observe you a little more
But you don't stay
a thought lingers
maybe you have the same worries, fears and dreams as mine
because the way we play with our watch's wouldn't have matched otherwisemaybe you have the same worries, fears and dreams as mine
because the way we play with our watch's wouldn't have matched otherwise
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naveena
262w
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Leave. People just leave.
No explanation, no questions and no arguments.
I wish, I wish I could do something.
Maybe wishing is the only hope.
Hope, my friend, is cruel and terrible.
Terrible just like me or maybe you.
You, my dear have no fault.
Maybe I was always the fault.
Faults are terrible too.
Maybe that's why you left.
I wasn't flawless and
you seemed to be looking for perfection.
Maybe that's how it was meant to be.
We weren't supposed to be together.
And silly me,
I would still look out for you everytime, everywhere and in every person!
(First try! Your feedback (positive/negative) would be much appreciated.)Maybe that's how it was meant to be.
We weren't supposed to be together.
©naveena -
naveena
267w
That's how life is.You need to keep going despite all odds.
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naveena
270w
Why do I fail to write about you when the sole reason for my existence is you?
©naveena
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lovenotes_from_carolyn
143w
Read MoreThe following piece is lovingly dedicated to my youngest son, who is currently living in an unpredictable daily hell, as we await proper diagnosis and treatment for what ails his mind.
Consequently, my loving husband and I are right there in that hell with our son, because that's what it is to be a parent.
You are far stronger than you know son. I just really wish you didn't have to be. ♥️
UNQUIET MIND
by Carolyn Glackin
Chaos and panic
Decidedly manic
Sanity ran out the door
Mind's on a bender
I hereby surrender
I really can't take any more
Distorted delusions
Unwanted intrusions
Taking up space in my head
And a menacing voice
That leaves me no choice
Than to think I'd be better off dead
Wild ideations
With unknown causations
Leave me in doubt of what's real
And I say that I'm fine
But it's merely a line
'Cause I no longer know how I feel
Though it's dark and it's deep
There's no solace in sleep
Now that demons await me at night
Nowadays all my dreams
Start with blood curdling screams
From the moment I turn out the light
My own eyes now deceive me
Though I doubt you'd believe me
If I try to explain what I mean
And the scars on my arm
Bear the truth of self-harm
Done to cope with the horrors I've seen
I'm wired and unfocused
As I head toward psychosis
Reality warped and obscured
As I hide in my room
Filled with terror and doom
Due to the voices I heard
Some call me crazy
While the rest say I'm lazy
But I'm asking you please to be kind
Before you misjudge me
Berate or begrudge me
Come spend one day in my mind.
Copyright Carolyn Glackin 11/17/2019
*Title credits go to Kay Redfield Jameson for her novel "The Unquiet Mind," which I read many years ago. All other words (aside from the title) are solely my own.
*The chosen artwork is called "The Scream," by Edvard Munch (circa 1893).
#mirakee #writersnetwork #mentalhealthawareness #moodswings #paranoia #mania #depression #psychosis #grandiosity #fear #hallucinations #anxiety #terror.
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iwrotethatforyou
162w
Read More//fireworks//
To you.
If poetry could
Heal humans
I could have
Written nothing but
words of cure.
Giving you the aid
Foremost.
Apologies if it
Sounds a little
Selfish
But who wouldn't
Want to be a God
If it occurred to save
The ones you love.
If prayers are
accepted easily
There's a river
Which is brimmed
With all the prayers
In your name
I hope,
Someone listens to
The silent whispers
And leaves every
Blessing you deserve.
I read someone
Who talked about
Holding fireworks
In his hand;
I wonder;
Can something
Having a capability
To burn us
Be beautiful enough
To love?
My thoughts scatter
When my life smirked
At me and
I realised,
I have the answers
Safe in my pockets.
And even if
After all this,
You don't find sleep
In your closet
Lay your head
On my lap,
Look up
I have wrapped
Those fireworks
In bubbles
We could look
At them sparkle
All night until
We fall asleep
And wake up
In the arms
Of a world
Where prayers
Are heard.
Where blessings
Count.
Where we don't need words
To heal but
To describe how wonderful
These fireworks are
How beautiful
This life is.
©_shweta
Pic credits to my dear friend.©avi
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the_empathic_poet
185w
Read More“people leave, it’s what they do. but, you’re strong. you’ve been here many times. so, cry it out. and take care of yourself even more. just remember, the ones who hurt you will one day seek you out. and you will be a different person. you will forgive. you will move on. and you will one day accept the way things happened. how it hurt you. but never let it define you. you are you. and that’s okay.”
©the_empathic_poet
#writetoheal #youareenough #thatsokay #innerstrength #introspection #abandonment #biggestfear #ptsd #anxiety #youareyou #kindinheart #sensitive #agoodperson #loving #alwaysbeyou #speakyourtruth #sotired #triggers #thistooshallpass #ridethewave #nonattachment #transference #groundedinreality #youdontneedthem #ithurtstoomuch #causeireallymissyou #honesty #tryingtobestrong #andrespectyourwishes #aquaintances #writer #artist #photographer #youreabeautifulsunflowermylovetakecareofyourself“people leave, it’s what they do. but, you’re strong. you’ve been here many times. so, cry it out. and take care of yourself even more. just remember, the ones who hurt you will one day seek you out. and you will be a different person. you will forgive. you will move on. and you will one day accept the way things happened. how it hurt you. but never let it define you. you are you. and that’s okay.”
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smileyme
195w
Read MoreIf I ever seem cold
Just know that
I am still
In the process of
Learning to heal these wounds
I struggle to express the emotions
In between the spaces of
my broken sentences
I can never seem to join
©linnie_sml©linnie_sml
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rebelliousdreamer
201w
Read MoreI walked to my phone today
And remembered those uncountable calls
I got from you each day
It was not then that I had realised
The importance of your presence
But now that you are away
I do
I do feel those miles as miles away
Because the silence of my phone
Tells me that you are away
No notifications, no calls
Nothing at all
Now that I feel your absence
I go back to the night
I spent talking to you
Like a kid who wasn't afraid to share
Share that went in my mind
I remember the night
When I told you the hidden secrets
And you told yours
And that smile we shared
Because we knew
Something that occupied
Our hearts for years
Had found it's way out
To someone really safe
I remember that 4am messages
That asked, you too haven't slept right ?
And the answer was always a Yes
Now that I couldn't sleep
I look to my screen
In hope that the call that took away
All that made me find no sleep
Comes again
I don't know if you feel the same
But this silence isn't good
I feel more sick now
When all I need is your voice
And my heart wants to dial that
Number again
I know that ring wouldn't be picked up
I miss everything that we made
It is now that I realise
That how simply
I took those conversations
For granted
And now that I crave for it
Still I couldn't bring it back
I don't know whom do
I miss more
Our friendship or our love
Or I miss you
Or Your presence
But I wish everything ends
Like a nightmare
That never happened
And my screen vibrates again
Again we indulge into those
Never ending fights
Again when I say,
I couldn't sleep
I get back,
Oh, me too and the
Never ending happiness
Lives itself yet again.I don't know whom do
I miss more
Our friendship or
Our Love
Or I miss you
Or Your presence
But I wish everything ends
Like a nightmare
That never happened
And my screen vibrates again
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positivity_in_us
202w
Anyone who is going through a period where they have no friends, no safe haven and no peace of mind at nights, I really know this will change, the times will change and the fates will be in your favour. I want you to be strong and love yourself to pieces. I trust you. You are strong, stronger than before.
©_cannonballs__ -
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veiled_in_anonymity
203w
Read MoreKnit with delicate intricacies
Your web of lies
has my feet every time
I fall
head over heels
pretending not to notice
So I can extract
one more
just one more
of your sweet lies
You think you have me
but I have YOU!
You're trapped.
In a web that is yours
but obeys my command
So go on
Say it one more time
Say that you love me
You LIAR!You're trapped in a web
that is yours
but obeys my command -
दो शब्द तसल्ली के नहीं मिलते इस शहर में,
लोग दिल में भी दिमाग लिए फिरते हैं। -
shirock
203w
रुकने के लिए कैसे पूछ सकता था मै,
जब जाने के लिए मैंने ही मजबूर किया उसे।
©shirock
