naveena

22, lost in transition �� Surely, not a writer! Trying to be active

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  • naveena 162w

    For every time you shunned me away
    I came back, keeping my self esteem at bay


    For everytime I came back, I regret why I didn't learn
    That if you do it once, you could do it twice


    For everytime I regret, I don't regret coming back
    Because leaving is devastating and
    I wasn't here to devastate


    For everytime I was devastated, I knew you'd save me
    But how did I not know that it was you,
    both devastating and pretending to save me


    It was always you and I was a stupid
    Stupid to believe your fabricated truths
    My instincts did try warning me,
    But I was a fool
    blinded by my love for you


    So here it is to you,
    I write this to tell you
    You are a history etched,
    I don't regret


    And it's a goodbye
    erasing you and your memories
    I finally love myself


    But something stops me
    from loving myself, I still have your
    remains all over
    And I can't love any part of you


    So here's to my self healing journey
    I wash and scrub away your dirt
    I am enough for myself
    I can love myself
    I love myself

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    So here it is to you,
    I write this to tell you
    you are a history etched,
    I don't regret

    ©naveena

  • naveena 201w

    ©naveena

  • naveena 202w

    I took a screenshot of my recent milestone. I completed a streak of 100 with a friend on snapchat. Since she had uploaded the milestone, I had to upload it too.

    This made me wonder, why is our generation enslaved in shackles of show off and stuff. What will I do of these streaks when I need someone to hug me and tell me it will get fine?
    Hey streak friend, will you hold me when I will be breaking in front of you? Would you even know I am breaking? Will you help me heal and grow?

    I can't believe what we are turning into. I see streaks growing, real friendships drowning. What if I don't maintain a streak, will I still be called a friend of yours? Will a streak define my friendship with you?

    Can we move past the overgrowing technology and appreciate real relations and emotions?

    Take me back in the time when real friends existed and not meaningless streaks.
    Take me back in the time, take me back.

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    Take me back in the time when real friends existed and not meaningless streaks.
    ©naveena

  • naveena 203w

    Does it really ends?
    How do you know, anyway?
    Let me just say
    I am done
    I can't take it anymore

    Can you leave now?
    Its hurting
    you and me
    It's a mess
    I don't want to untangle

    it will always be this way
    But I give you the chance
    to make it better

    It's upto you
    you are supposed to run away
    the final call is yours
    I hope you'd listen to your (my) heart
    (stay)

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    you and me
    it's a mess
    I don't want to untangle


    ©naveena

  • naveena 204w

    I am not good at keeping friendships. For past 2-3 years, I have lost a few good friends, two really close friends and a best friend. That's a sign as to something is wrong with me and not others.

    I have realized I really can't keep friendships. I am not going to lie. I am honest and I am blunt.I don't think twice before speaking. I can't sugar coat words. That's my nature. Am I being toxic? (How do I get better?) How do I change myself?

    I have feelings too. I feel hurt too. The fact that I can't let go of these people leaves me bitter with each passing day. I don't look at others the same way now. I don't let people in for the fear that I am going to invest my emotions and feelings. Then one fine day, they won't like how I behave and leave.

    How do I survive? I had put in my heart and soul, only for people to leave.

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    I had put in my heart and soul,
    only for people to leave.

    ©naveena

  • naveena 205w

    Pull and Push
    You pull me close
    I push you away

    You fear my push
    I fear your pull

    Opposite attracts
    But how do pull and push attract

    You'd love me when I need love
    But I'm afraid of love
    That's exactly why I don't need love
    And I'll hurt you, so that you are scared

    A loop of pull and push
    pull and push
    pull and
    push
    pull
    and push
    pull
    and
    push
    pull and push

    so let's have an end
    you'd rather wish it ends in pull
    but I'd rather wish it ends in push
    maybe lets not pull and push

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    Opposite attracts
    But how do pull and push attract

    ©naveena

  • naveena 207w

    You are playing with your watch
    similar to the way I do
    I watch you from the corner of my eye
    hopefully you won't catch me looking at you

    Felt an urge to talk, but resisted
    wished to ask "What were you thinking?"
    Were you thinking of someone or somebody or somewhere or something?

    You walked out
    "Wait", I'd say (in my mind)
    Let me observe you a little more

    But you don't stay
    a thought lingers
    maybe you have the same worries, fears and dreams as mine
    because the way we play with our watch's wouldn't have matched otherwise

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    maybe you have the same worries, fears and dreams as mine
    because the way we play with our watch's wouldn't have matched otherwise

    ©naveena

  • naveena 262w

    Leave. People just leave.
    No explanation, no questions and no arguments.
    I wish, I wish I could do something.
    Maybe wishing is the only hope.
    Hope, my friend, is cruel and terrible.
    Terrible just like me or maybe you.
    You, my dear have no fault.
    Maybe I was always the fault.
    Faults are terrible too.
    Maybe that's why you left.
    I wasn't flawless and
    you seemed to be looking for perfection.
    Maybe that's how it was meant to be.
    We weren't supposed to be together.
    And silly me,
    I would still look out for you everytime, everywhere and in every person!


    (First try! Your feedback (positive/negative) would be much appreciated.)

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    Maybe that's how it was meant to be.
    We weren't supposed to be together.

    ©naveena

  • naveena 267w

    That's how life is.You need to keep going despite all odds.

  • naveena 270w

    Why do I fail to write about you when the sole reason for my existence is you?

    ©naveena