nemesis_here

On a journey to accept myself the way I am. Putting words together, as a gift, to heal a jam.

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  • nemesis_here 3w

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    White are the fluffy clouds
    White is the fur of ray
    White are our armors stained
    White flames we put away

    White is this hazy maze
    White our charisma grime
    White is this field of daisies
    White is how we stick and shine.

    ©nemesis_here

  • nemesis_here 3w

    So much love we showered on that one photograph
    That what was left in us for ourselves
    got lost somewhere between the light and the filters.

    ©nemesis_here

  • nemesis_here 4w

    All the stories I've read
    are now a singular part of me
    One personality rules them all
    stays by me for most of the time
    But with different positions I'm in
    another unusual character
    pops out from the tales residing in me

    There are thousands of people inside
    many voices, a whole new world within
    with millions of different stories
    some they took from the world outside
    while some they made on their own
    And I'm moving ahead with them all the time
    claiming they are the only ones I've ever known.

    ©nemesis_here

  • nemesis_here 4w

    Are you

    Aware?
    Of the feeling
    you're in wilderness that
    you've always hated, stuck there, running
    still still.

    ©nemesis_here

  • nemesis_here 4w

    If I were

    If I were this what seems like spring
    I'd fill your days with nectar of my blooms
    would put on a show with some birds and bees
    Trying to become something, to impress
    I'd willingly be a mockingbird for you

    If I were these days of summer
    I'd embrace your coldness with my warmth
    would make you see everything in a new light
    Trying to bring you back to me
    I'd willingly be a dried up well for you

    If I were the spirit of autumn
    I'd shed away all my treasured leaves
    would lose all in greed of getting something new
    Trying to be the one that has your new leaf
    I'd willingly stand defenceless before you

    If I were the essence of rains
    I'd soak you in all my concealed love
    would be that breeze, that petrichor
    Trying to just touch you once, would go by
    I'd willingly live less if I could be with you for a little while

    If I were this frosty wintertime
    I'd melt myself with heat of those hands
    would want you to go round and return, this infatuation
    Trying to show you what I love, desire
    I'd willingly be here, still, waiting for you.

    ©nemesis_here

    Guess what I'll do
    If I were you

  • nemesis_here 4w

    And I slept

    Sleep deprived, dark bags under my eyes
    I waited a long time for this moment to come
    Lying on my bed tonight, I'm tired again
    Thousands of things then strike my head
    But this time it's not just those sorrowful memories
    or my imaginary arguments still left to win
    or some witty images from this wearily active brain of mine
    These are the angelic lullabys of fairies of night
    the voices that I longed to hear again after that mess
    These are the magical gifts that they offer
    in return of all my gloomy weariness
    The wizardly tricks begin, smothered with pixie dust
    wands being waved in front of my eyes
    The knots in my body all loosen up
    My muscles all started to relax
    In ages, I really slept, for the first time.

    ©nemesis_here

  • nemesis_here 5w

    I'm going down the same road again
    knowing too well that I'll regret this.
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  • nemesis_here 5w

    Is it really possible to
    fix something you broke
    And can you then ever
    make it alright with one stroke
    I own something precious
    that you gave me once
    I ripped it, tore it
    scars it has of all my weapons
    I was playful back then
    was practicing my moves
    and it's all just worthless now
    I misused all I had, wasted myself
    I can't bring that time back
    I can't bring those moments back
    But I just thought of a way out
    I can't fix what's broken
    It's surely all in the past
    but with everything I'm left with
    I can make something new
    You don't have to come to me
    with those offerings this time
    I will come to you.

    ©nemesis_here

  • nemesis_here 5w

    All around me are words
    that you once said to me
    that I once wanted to tell you
    and some that were oddly buried in me
    that I want to make you hear now

    I'd say a thousand things
    to make you stay here with me
    but what's the point of this all
    when we both lie in this pool of gloom
    I can't rescue you, you can't save me

    Each left other's sides
    We were together then, still apart
    heavy tolls of life, lips sealed in silence
    that burden on our shattered hearts
    of something left broken, in ruins, part

    Our words haunting me day and night
    I wavered, so lost my chance
    Maybe then this brain makes up things
    it's okay this way, I do get to say all I want
    to you in my dreams.

    ©nemesis_here

  • nemesis_here 5w

    Suppressed Feelings

    I'm here, right beside you
    But your eyes are tired
    looking away, you stoop
    with that burden on your back
    I wish I could share it with you
    I wish I could take away your pain
    I wish I could make you look at me
    I wish I could forever hold your hand

    You don't say a word, you're just
    walking ahead, like a body without a soul
    I'm here, you don't shun me but
    you don't really savour my presence either
    I wish I could feel what you felt
    I wish I could know what you had in mind
    I wish I could be your comfort in distress
    I wish I could bring back your life, a faith blind

    I'm here, right beside you
    hesitatingly, I reach out for your hand
    You didn't take it, but you started talking instead
    I don't know if I should jump with joy
    for there's still hope, or back down woefully
    for that hope is vague, I know we are meant to be
    But why can't you see...that we are
    that art, that picture, that dead poets painted
    on this red sand, for you, for me, for us.

    ©nemesis_here