I'm done to think that you were my home, I'm done to think that you were my safezone, you turned to be a battle, I needed to fight, you turned to be a dim when I needed the light
you turned to be a monster when I needed a knight, you turned to be the reason of my tears when I needed someone to lift me up, it's painful to see the moon be obstructed by the dark clouds, just how you turned to be a storm , that I needed to survived
the leaves , still falling the clock , still ticking the weather still changing, just how the autumn , turned out to be a rain
maybe we should cut off the bridge maybe we should stop the fight and take rest I'm tired to feel my chest being crumpled I'm tired to feel the thunderstorm inside of my ribcage
my moon , time is running out our direction will be apart again let's wait for another eclipse let's wait for our moon to be reconciled once more
PS: As things changed between us, I'm glad our path crossed, I don't regret to meet you. You bring so much happiness into my life, you'd bring colors in my colorless world, you'd bring butterflies, peace and joy..and I don't regret all those things you'd bring to me, maybe we are just—not meant to be together because we are just part of each other's story. My moon, you are free, maybe our direction will be apart, but your memories won't be forgotten, you build me yet you broke me, but atleast we met, I'd learned a lot of things because of you, I wish for your happiness, may you find the right person for you, may you find the right path that is really meant for you.. I must say thank you and... goodbye:)
PS: it's not a deterioration if you feel , you are changing as time goes by , don't think that the life you choosed is worst and or wrong , because , we are the creator of our own story , of our own life. So , this new year , focus on yourself , focus on your dreams and avoid toxic people , avoid toxic relationship , and let go the bitterness of yesterday , because this day was the right time to re paint the hues all over your walls ... Please do continue to improve and develop yourself , life is full of pain but , the lit is upon your hands just always think about what can go right . HAPPY NEW YEAR , MAY THIS YEAR BE FULL OF BLESSINGS AND HOPE:) love you all
ps . things might be hard , sorrowful and or painful but every pain has a brighter reason , it also molds us to become a better person. People come and go , but to those who left.. will also left lesson into our life's , and for those who stayed , supports us and lift us no matter how strong the flow of rains , right person will never leave , treasure those people who stayed into your life no matter what. So , don't just give up easily , always do remember that , there's always a rainbow after the frightful and scary storm.
seeing the rain with heavy eyes watching it's trickle , painted with bitter dyes wind carried away , the laughter of yesterday's summer breeze and replaced by a frown of heavy clouds and a tears of rainy days
dark clouds covering the smile of auld lang syne thunderstorms evolving throughout my body, encaging through the inner recesses of my soul it makes me shiver as the wind , blows out it's hard howl
Moon's gleam obscured Beneath the cold grey clouds it's like the pain I'd been encaging for a long time
rain , is'nt always about pain , despite of coldness , rains and shady vicinity there's always the brighter side of rainy season , and that is the rainbow , after the storm.
ps: life might be stormy nor rainy that will make you shiver of its coldness , make you feel broken and in so much pain And make you feel lonesome walking in uncertainties. always remember that there will always a brighter side of darkness , brighter side of rains and a brighter side of pain ... life is really is a twist and turns you just need to learn on how to be strong to face the world , you need to fight and think that the dark shady sky will be clear and sunny SOON:)
Ps: we may feel weary or dreary but it is part of the process , you should be strong to face the world , to face the reality or even the present and future ... Life is about growing up , learnings and experiences , if you are sad , let your tears flown out and let your self be lonesome ! after that , get up and fix yourself ... as you see the dawn ..There will always be a chances and hope to change yourself into a stronger and better one:) ...always do remember that God is always there for you , from dusk Till dawn:)
deathly silence with fearsome darkness gleam of stars are now defunct and gone strayed in the darkest dessert drowning in the deepest sea we are in the both , edges you're so far and will never crossed our paths again, we used to walk through the sorrows and bliss we both had in heart breaks and both , our heart meets we both hear , our laughter's , and some of sobbings and we both wipes each other's tears , either blue , nor Felicity we both gaze warmly to each others eyes , but now , i could only sense the coldness in my vicinity and felt , i was icebound by your pore... incaging in grief and wanna let out the thunderstorms inside trying to mend the pain solitary but it's hard to just enclosed the story that begins like fairytale but then , I realized.... reality wouldn't be like , fairytales , that was begin in "once upon a time" and end with " happily ever after "
Ps. Sometimes we met a person to teach us lesson and to learn a lot in life we also imagined and thinks that "I will spend my whole life with you" but then fate are really is playful ... People come in our life to teach us lesson , to make our self whole and make our self better and more stronger:)
I was situated naked in front of you offering all what I have for you but you keep on wrecking it playact for not intending to need anyone
you are running in circles where you cannot find your home you let yourself drown in a sorrow hoping for a hand to wash it off
I feel cursed by an evil wizard for giving my all that wasn't good enough wind breeze swaying your obscure sentiment that was on varied ashtrays hoarding the resentment only by yourself
you are down and you feel lost it's okay , to let your eyes mist by your tears, can you open your eyes wide , for you to be able found a concealed things?
that I was only here— , giving my whole pure , offering the home where you can locate soothe, but it was all just a cloud castle , hard to reach out where you could probably envisage me and that you could even step— into my door.