______________________________________________________________________ MY LOVE : if you think of the vast world. Shadows of souls that just limber in the wind. Looking for a moon every month just see beauty. Just be one with another they think of. . My flower the daughter of the sea and winds of softness. I see not the moons beauty but your crystal eyes everywhere. I don't look to be with another one for everything everything Brings you to me To be one us we..you and me my darling. . Once I wrote: Dream among my mind whispered me a song, Let life just go as seas of white come to shore, Among the tide among the moon its gone Gone the dreams I used to adore. . The song has sung its complex and complete Words and tears flows as waters from the shore Why is my heart the way it is and what has my heart become? I honestly do not know anymore. . But now in the eternal life of love, verses, words, the winds, the sounds, All bring you to me. As if you became everything, the ground, air, earth...for that's where we are. All lead you to me. . Love cannot be measured for my love for you is complete. In the silence, in the shadows, in lights, in the harmony of the dancers of the skies. I don't need to know love for I already live with her..you. I don't need nothing, for you are my everything. I now know what I did not know.. You. My love. You... That's what I needed to know. For you brought me.. You . ALL I AM : Looking into the eyes of the sea, I see everything going up and falling down, Like tides that hide as waves, Slapping the shores ceaselessly, As if trying to write its secrets on sands, And cannot help but come back to wash them off again, I see people opening veins, As if trying to bleed out a memory, And they dress up, As if threads can stitch a wounded soul, All the time you spent asking what life meant, Life spent collecting what your time meant, Life is a dream you live by waking, And the deepest holes in the world are found in people, Oh, I wish that I could fill your emptiness, But all I am is a space in time, I see your skin stained by letters and apologies, And I wonder what it is that makes your soul bleed, I see all the self-destruct buttons you hide As the rain washes your skin, And I wonder how I can make my umbrella Cover your fractured soul, And I wish that you would know that, The wind that blows out all your candles Will one day make you a wildfire, But if your eyes must rain, Let it pour upon my desert, I promise you a land of fire, Where the winter of your life remembers spring, And all your flowers rise to the morning sun, Now promises like people are made to be broken, And sometimes even a sea drowns of thirst, But my promises are me, And when I am broken you will be found in me, On the days I couldn't breathe, I learned to paint air, So that on the nights you cannot breathe, I will become your oxygen for you, I have learned that everything ends, So, I welcomed the breaking of my heart, And hid the fragments In-between the sands of your hourglass, Now the broken and the beautiful have something in common, And the lucky and the loved are often the same people, And this poem was meant to be a short song, Of stolen kisses and missing heartbeats, But my heart went on and on and on About I and love and you, In truth, all I wanted to say was, I love you, and that is all there is to me. . FEEL THE INNER WARM OF THE HEART : His heart skipped a beat when he saw her she looked at him too without blinking eyes she was so beautiful that he could not resist talking to her he was restless his breath was heavy "oh god! I want to make her mine" he said his heart was jumping out of his chest she was damn shy he thought if he did not speak he would lose the most beautiful woman on the planet who blew his mind he spoke but his voice fumbled legs trembled and words jumbled she looked down while he was murmuring he felt like holding her hand and kiss on it hug her and proclaim that she is his world. All of a sudden he held her consequently he had butterflies in his stomach "Oh my god she is goddess" he said Her sparkling eyes rosy cheeks and glossy lips "is she a dream?" He asked himself fortunately she was his reality? Her dark black hair long eye lashes white glowy skin what she is made of? is she an angel only wings were missing he felt like eating her up she looked so tempting he did not have words to praise her beauty or may be that one word is not made yet to describe her he was challenging angels to come down on the earth and see what beauty looks like... And the fact was he did not speak to her at all he was daydreaming and lost her without even initiating till today he thinks about her he misses her and his heart gets out of control with her thoughts He could have made her his universe but he lost her She became his dream and he never saw her again Whom to blame? Destiny? Himself? His will? Courage? What? Most of the things and people we lose just because we fear if we take a stand and lose thats a different story in his case he was in win-lose situation because he was not sure whether she would say yes or no but he chose lose-lose situation out of fear It could have been a win-win situation but he lost and He will have to live his life without her. Be yourself trust yourself and have faith on yourself if you really want to get something just sharp your axe time to time in order to gain confidence be loyal to your desires and dreams and certainly you will win. . A SHORT STORY OF FEELINGS : The depth of life The length there of The depth of a life The years there of The depth of your life The distance from your first wisp of Earth's worried air of Life to the finish line of A life well lived or of One spent waiting for A future which may or may not Hold you in it for Today is given you to Make all the difference you can and to Smell all the flowers you love and to Love as deeply as your heart can and to Let laughter break some ribs and to Let rain drown your tears and to Give yourself away and to Leave your worries in yesterday and then Do the things fear wouldn't let your dreams do then Say the things that matter most then Do the things you want done then Do the things you have to do then Do the things you love doing then Give a life a meaning Find life's meaning Hidden in love's meaning And your meaning Breathing in my meaning And pick up a book of meanings To check the short meaning Of short and find that that's the Aching distance from the First intake of air to the Last release of the same. . GREY MATTER : Many a dark night I lay bare on a naked floor Staring the sky straight in the eye Longing to see if it has a soul like mine Hoping a voice will tell me I'll be fine I hear nothing I see nothing Just a black canvas, just a blank page On nights like those Not even the stars Not even the moon Come out to play Not even a sign that I'll be okay I think of how odd I am How I was drawn a circle On a canvas painted with square people Even in a black and white world I'd still be grey I long to be lost in a crowd, yet I ache to be alone, just without the loneliness On a night like this My wrists are silent without a pulse All I hear is the sound of heavy downpour My skin is dry The sky isn't crying It takes a moment for me to realize It is raining in my soul As black ink spills from my veins unto white paper I'm reminded that Even if I can't see the sun It still exists at night. ______________________________________________________________________
I thought I could've danced onto your rhythm of symphony. The part of my mind which finds an escape through you. The way my emotions would flow when you're on my mind affecting me. You infected yourself in me. I do not know why. I kind of was scared to let you go. Or perhaps maybe the idea of not to be able to have the world seem such a happy place, Stopped me from letting you go.
On the other hand, you kept destroying me. The inner me. The stronger me. You wasted my time a little by little, Slowly converting me into an addictive insane.
Then it turns to the devil of the story, unlike how fairytales are told. The castle you made me dreamt of was a place where people sang the happy melody. They'd, along with me, wouldn't feel the pain. At least maybe for a day or two.
The castle now turns into a four wall cage. I'm scared and filled with rage. Where did they took you? Oh I'm so wanting you. I am desperate.
But now in return i was learning how you killed me. Killed my organs. Killed my senses, Suffocated my breathing, Pry on my life.
This is how someone brings happiness? To let anybody, to harm any body, to let one soul murder it's vital worth?
This was not what i pictured myself in my life. I hate it here. This place will not let go of me easily. So wrong. ______________________________________________________________________