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The Day
A year ago,
Do you even remember,
The 28th day of November?
The day you kissed me
For the very first time,
The way it felt
When your lips touched mine,
The fire that burned so bright?
How do you so easily forget
The moment haunting my mind?
How do you not even miss me
When I'm fucking dying inside?
Did any of it mean anything?
To you, do I mean anything?
Is it just me that'll never be the same
While you don't even remember the day?
©Leilah Eirynne
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Die
I'm not suicidal,
Not quite.
I don't have it in me
To take my own life.
But all the same
I want to die.
Fall asleep,
Dream goodbyes,
Never again
Open my eyes.
Free myself
From loneliness,
And lies,
All this pain
And strife.
©Leilah Eirynne
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poetry_oleilah
35w
Am I?
I'm trying, I'm trying
I trying so hard,
I can't figure out
What I'm doing so wrong.
Why am I so easy to leave,
Am I so forgettable?
Do you even miss me?
Am I so regrettable
You had to ditch me?
Am I such a loser,
So damn easy to part,
I have no place in your future?
No place in your heart?
©Leilah Eirynne
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poetry_oleilah
35w
Anyway
Cutting her skin
Watching the blood
Trying to make
That final one
She can't stay here
Has to escape
Nobody's left to care
Anyway.
©Leilah Eirynne
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poetry_oleilah
35w
Go Free
I'll never again ask you to stay
I understand why you walked away
I hoped that I could be enough
But I always knew I'd never win your love
I hope someday you'll think of me
At least smile at our memories
I only ever wanted to make you smile
But, I knew I'd only have a little while
You'll always be in my dreams
Nobody else will ever compete
So, I pray I'll never have too see
The woman that's so much more than me
But all I want is for you to be happy
So, here I am, setting you free
Find somebody that deserves your days
And I'll go drown my pain.
©Leilah Eirynne
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Love Story
You're my epic love story
Of that, there is no doubt,
And I got so caught up in the feeling,
I so wanted my happy ending
I broke my own heart forgetting
I was destined for a tragedy.
©Leilah Eirynne
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poetry_oleilah
37w
Bottom
I find my salvation
At the bottom of a bottle
Because that's who I am.
I try to pretend
to be someone better
But I'm not fooling anyone.
I'm so goddamn sorry
That I'm not good enough
I'm nothing that matters
And I never will be.
I'm my father's daughter
And that's all I'll ever be.
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I wish I could do for you
All that you do for me.
I wish I was the safe place
That lets you to breathe.
I wish mine was the touch you need
And my kiss made you weak in the knees.
I wish I could give you that peace.
More than anything I wish
That for you, it was me.
©Leilah Eirynne
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poetry_oleilah
39w
Wish
Everything about you
Shines like gold.
You're unbelievable,
Too good to be true.
I never thought I'd know
Someone like you.
From your eyes to your smile,
From you're mind to your heart,
You make everything better
Just being who you are.
I wish you could see it,
I wish you knew,
The lies in your mirror
Are so far from the truth.
You're a breath of fresh air.
You're the warmth of the sun.
I've never been so awed,
Not by anyone.
I wish you could see it;
See you the way I see you.
See how amazing you are
In everything that you do.
©Leilah Eirynne
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poetry_oleilah
41w
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Peace
When the world is on my shoulders
And I find it hard to breath,
You are the oxygen I need.
When there is no light
at the end of my tunnel
You make the darkness feel like home.
You are the happiness so rarely seen.
My happy place. My smile. My peace.
Things I never thought a person could be.
A breath of fresh air, my favorite teddy bear.
You are the safe place I created in my dreams.
Because of you, I'm okay with me.
©poetry_oleilah
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In all the dark of the universe,
you saw me not the slightest.
In this galaxy of stars,
even though I burned the brightest.
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The Road
The road ahead is winding,
like the belly of a snake.
With every step it digests me,
there’s not much more I can take.
Broken trees form a canopy,
for a path of dirt and mud.
Trenches on each side,
filled with tears and blood.
Flowing memories beside me,
like two crushing streams.
Broken promises in whispers,
I love you in the screams.
All around me in the woods,
hungry stalking eyes.
Somewhere in the black ahead,
I can hear the subtle cries.
I must stay on the path,
if I stray I may get lost.
If I stay here any longer,
my mind may pay the cost.
If this is all in my head,
then into madness I descend.
My worst fear is realizing,
this road may never end.
©william_alan_poetry -
eurusgrey
80w
i did not say no but neither did i say yes. i just froze when he grabbed my hand a little too tight and when his breath hovered over my face a familiar panic took over and my flight or fight instinct died right there. i couldn't scream. i couldn't utter a word and he took my silence for a shy yes but how come he did not see the terror in my eyes or the way my lips quivered just a few inches from his. the way my skin did not feel right when he touched me.
i scour myself every night and every night i see red but the touch remains blue and it still doesn't feel right.
the necklace is placed still in my closet and there's a hint of pale moonlight trapped in there somewhere. whether it mocks me or just tries to sympathise i never understand but the feeling of suffocation does not feel right for sure.
he wasn't blind. neither stupid. just cruel.
he smiled when i said please. no. that wasn't a way of showing pleasure i was begging for mercy.
were my bleeding lips not enough to show how much i was wounded? were not the bruises i traced the morning after enough to show my suffering?
it's funny how the pitiful words of consolation on my face turn into hushed whispers that stab me in the back.
keep asking me for reasons and facts to turn into excuses i won't care. i'm hurt and i'm broken. i'm under no obligation to explain my pain.
when i heal and how i heal is none of your concern anyway.
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Drowning
I take a step toward the waves,
One foot then two.
I embrace the chilling cold,
waters of you.
As the water rises,
lapping around my waist.
I see the sand disappear,
like it was erased.
The water went grey,
a reflection of the sky.
How I ended up this deep,
I may never know why.
I know I can’t turn back,
For that it’s too late.
Water all around me,
As I realize my fate.
I’m sinking slowly,
As the sunlight fades to blue.
I never thought I’d die,
Drowning in you. -
Cosmic
Your eyes dilate,
Like tiny black holes.
Your gravity seething,
To devour my soul.
Your lips steal air,
From within my lungs.
The taste of stardust,
On the tip of our tongues.
Your thoughts radiate,
into the void.
Of what’s left of my heart,
That has been left destroyed.
Time has no meaning,
When you’ve been left alone
Like a goddess you came,
From the black unknown.
Bathed in light,
From millions of stars.
Washing me clean,
Leaving only my scars.
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The Wolf
Walking through the woods,
Surrounded by moss and vines.
As the fog clears,
I see a shadow through the pines.
A wolf with blazing eyes,
Stares at me with lust.
With a forked tongue,
Behind teeth of stain and rust.
Crashing through the tree tops,
And rooting in the ground,
A light to guide me out,
Of this misery I found.
You swooped into my life,
On black wings made of smoke.
Stay and let me breath you in,
Before the fresh air has me choke.
Take my eyes and see through them,
What I dream of come the night.
Let go your insecurities,
And then return my sight.
I don’t know why you risked it,
With your heart of gold.
I will follow you,
leaving the wolf in the cold.
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The Book
On a scrap of paper,
I composed all of myself.
Ripped from a book,
long fallen from shelf.
I tucked it back into the pages,
of this book with no name.
I put back on the shelf,
from which it came.
You were into a book,
that you had no business reading.
To even stop and notice,
what this letter was needing.
It needed to sing,
it’s words to your heart.
You left it unread,
as it fell apart.
The book didn’t want,
to go unread.
The letter inside,
filled with words unsaid.
A book unfinished,
thrown away and forgetting.
For an exciting new character,
with you as a setting.
It took a reader with knowledge,
Of the value of a book.
To see past the tattered cover,
and give it a look.
The letter wasn’t meant
for her to find.
It was meant for you,
but you left it behind.
She knew right away,
she couldn’t let this book diminish.
So she picked up where you left off,
this story was hers to finish.
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jynxielynn85
147w
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This was very hard to write, when I sat down I did not plan to create this. It created itself, I was just the pen. It hurt to write this.
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#pod #childabuseawareness #painful #hurt #dark #sadRock A bye Baby
Birthed from pain, babies molded
by the fist of rage.
Whispered names in darkened halls,
please, mommy, don't let us fall.
No lullabies sweet child, just fist upon flesh.
Daddies mistake, mommies shame.
Little bundles of never given a chance.
Rock a bye baby, as the angels call.
©jynxielynn85 -
Dear Anxiety,
You and I need to talk, we've been sharing this brain for years. You cause me to lose sleep, eat too little or too much. You steal my joy and you rob me of my peace. I've tried appeasing you, but it's never enough. You want more, you won't panic attacks and tears, you want me to feel that I've constantly failed. You show up when I don't need you and make my stomach ache. You cause small problems to become huge issues, and you turn huge issues into insurmountable obstacles. You upset my family and friends, you cause my children to miss out on memories because It's too loud, too bright and just too much. No matter how I try to calm you, you constantly stay in panic mode. I wish we could live together in one brain, and you'd show up when I need you. But you're broken, and therefore so am I. Because of you, I ruin things and overthink things and constantly doubt if I can survive. I've given you the pills and the therapies, still, you rage and scream. You control more of me than I do, and I don't know how to stop you. Anxiety, I'm begging you, please let me be. What do I have to do, so that I can be less you, and more like me? How do I make you see that it can't be always you before me?
©aislyn_jynx
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jynxielynn85
154w
The broken man
I love a broken man, ripped the heart from my chest, positioned it at his feet.
So that he could feel it wherever he should go, in case he had need to know; that I'd be there. I'd never leave him low.
I wish someone would have warned me,
do not mangle yourself this way.
A broken man will decide the heart you placed at his feet is of no value, leaving her the owner of a bloody brutal mess. Holding all the mangled pieces to her chest.
A broken man you see, he will always know how to be.
However, the girl who loved him so completely, she feels hollow, broken and alone.
Can't you see that you can't fix holes with stolen pieces? A broken man though he knows the secrets, he goes to the next heart placed upon his throne.
Fixing his empty holes with the pieces of those who love him, leaving nothing but broken bloody pieces floating in the wake zone.
©jynxielynn85
