A Hero Of War

This is why I do not want to hope.
This is why I do not want to believe.
The moment the light breaks through is the moment I know it is about to leave.
You put a smile on my face then leave me feeling like a wretch of a disgrace.
This is why I stopped believing in love.
This is why I swore to never again try.
The more I bring you back to life, the more you pull me apart and bleed me dry.
This is why I cry.
This is why I beg to die.
This is why I want nothing more than nothing more.
This is why I wonder what is worth fighting for.
This is why I always feel unwanted and used.
This is why I enjoy the abuse.
It is all I know and always on repeat.
This is why I have chosen to accept my defeat.
This is all I deserve.
This is all I am worth.

©magikarp