Earnest

It had been quite a while that I was quiet,
colloquially a confidant,
with the proclamations pending,
whilst staying true to my cause,
of being relevant,
irrespective of the refurbished rules;

a smile I might conjure,
to hide a shame,
appending a scorn,
that needs a subterfuge,
of synonyms and sympathies;

I doubt my existence,
expecting an enigma,
the realisations are too real to ruminate,
so I rout the roots,
and call it a continuum.

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