• deepanjaligchowdhury 234w

    Lost

    Lost my self.
    Where can I find that girl with her colorful soul... Those days.. Carefree and peals of laughter... Positive and gunning... Open n receptive.. Living life... Free from shackles of life...?

    Life happened and I stopped living.

    Want to breakfree.. Embrace the quirk in me.. The little Miss Perfect... Want to laugh whole heartedly... Want to go back to that place of my childhood... I want to live once more.. Want to hug my innocence...

    Where am I? Where am I going? Won't I get it back??? Won't anyone understand and hold my hand to share this life???

    I want to live, to feel alive !

    A shout out to my 18 year old self---
    Save me... Don't want to fall in a bottomless pit of Shit....
    So not in peace.
    Take me somewhere... Want to find you... You are my true self... Don't want to be an adult... Want you...don't leave me...
    Want to run to you---

    For the first time it's not a guy M crying for; Nor a friend or family,
    But myself!

    'Cause, I have lost her, to the calamity ,called Life!

    For the first time ,
    songs remind me of no lover,
    But my earlier self!

    As if M telling everything to my childhood.. That Teenager.

    Ah!
    Digging in... Can't find..
    Getting lost, In a cold environment...
    It's so dark...
    Everything so familiar but not home...
    Can't feel the warmth.. It's so different...
    It's not me that I wake up to n look at the mirror..
    I need balance...
    Want to sleep... A peaceful sleep... With a free soul... And I prefer living in it with a password for the Finale...
    Random Flow.... of the note to choose a few of the note to choose a few of the note to choose a few....
    Encircled In a circle.

    Lost the randomness.

    ©deepanjaligchowdhury