Often I wonder of what is in cards for me, A sea, an ocean Or utter delight
Often I wonder of to where I shall end up, Among the stars, walking along the waning moon, To which I was born Or Beside the people who often wonder of where must they step their feet, fearing the fall, scraping their knees.
And oh! May I never be surrounded by those Who believe in no stars, no sun No magic, no someone who'd adore them to the moon and back The moon, the same waning moon, Along which I shall walk to which I was born.
Painting : Christina's World [Andrew Wyeth | 1948]
I chose the painting for the fact that at first glance, the subject seems to be in a state of deep thought, surrounded by nothing but quiet and peace, which both aggravate her, and balance her enough to put her in a state of deep thought.
Meant for the #cees_fire_chall@carolyns_challenges I was inspired predominantly by the Greek mythology, witchcraft, and theories relating to fire being the classical element. All in all, it was an amazing experience to learn so much about the element :)
While i knock every door for validation, my own desires sit on a broken window pane. Like i am searching for people whose eyes confirm that i am not outdated, my wishes, needs, and desires are looking for a version of me, a version of my eyes, that see myself as a whole, as a beautiful human. Inside out.
I know i am enough. I know i am beautiful. I know i am everything- kind, complete, normal, updated, mature but occasionally childish- that i want to be. Than why is it not enough to know this? Why am i on a journey of asking for validation to every individual i cross by? Why is it not enough to confide in my own arms? Why do i have to look for arms that belong to anyone but me? I want people to validate so that i can accept myself. But why do i need others to do that? Why do i think others will validate if i, myself, don't?
There are so many questions running inside me which doesn't have any answer. And while i knock doors for validation, i ask one of these as an extra. But guess what? They don't have answers either. I guess some things are best to be left unanswered. You know why? Because when you give the answer, it comes back with a counter question. And you find yourself in a never ending labyrinth of questions and answers.