It's not like I've moved on or learnt to live without you. It still hurts. It still hurts when i see your name in last pages of those abandoned diaries, with a heart drawn beside. It hurts those days when I can't get you out of my brain, and even not willing to remember i just can't stop recalling every moment we cherished in the past. It never was like i forgot how beautiful your smile was or how pretty your green eyes were.. but it hurts me.. I'm sorry but, it kills me. To be honest I'm no longer in place to think or understand that was it your beautifully soothing voice that kept me awake in nights, or is it you in me that i don't want to get rid off by any means. You know what, it hurts me whenever i see a beautiful girl nearby, it hurts cause it reminds me of your beauty and what lied underneath that. How beautiful lies were said, how you placed a dagger near my chest and told me that you love me.. i remember how once you said I'm your world, left me wondering why you've chosen to be nomad abandoning this world of yours you once dearly spoke about.. it hurts me to see how this much love in my heart has led me to nothing but to have a scar as remnant of something which was once extremely beautiful.. I never knew it would end or atleast never knew it would end in that way, but it ended we ended.. its just me and you now.. or just you in me now.. cause I'm not me anymore.. well idk if I'm drunk or high or near verge of death rn but i just want to say that i miss you. I've missed you everyday and I've never loved anyone else besides you. It's hard for me to say but i just can't stop thinking and falling for you. But am afraid. Have been left abandoned like an old empty shelter. You ruined me yet i want you inside me again. This is how i am dying every day and night to meet you. If not in this world then maybe in afterlife. But with a fear will you meet me as an old friend or will you leave me on my state with that cold heart of yours.