When you think someone is your support Who's always on your side Who encouraged you to do your best It's a good feeling You want to get their approval and show them your progress or achievements Even though it may be small it's something you've raked your brain and tried your best at... And when you go to them to share your happiness with the people who encouraged you to try your best When they just dismiss you And act as if I'm troubling them by just telling them the news And make you feel small.. It hurts... It really really hurts...
People say, push through the hard times. But what if the hard times never end, What if there's something new that keeps coming, that keeps pushing you to the breaking point.. A moment of rest, is just a moment. Why should you settle for a moment...
Note : Felt like penning down something after many days.. And this will be a mess.. Pls ignore if its not making any sense..might delete it later.
Thankyou for reading
Dear person i could never forget,
Its been six years without your warmth in this earth.. Six sunny summers, smothering Springs, analogical Autumns and Whispery Winters without your sighs here. Sun still claims the dawn which we once shared and Moon still rules the night which we once neared..
The promises we made to each other were frosted in the first Winter you left me here. I still visit the soil which held the ashes of your dreams six years before.. And will you believe me, if i say, the ashes still burnt my fingers today when i felt them? You know, they say, the dead ones have it easier but the one who remains cradles the crumbs of memoirs we knitted together..
Your last artwork was a shelled butterfly.. The woman who birthed you still treasures the art in her bedside table. You remind me of a betrayed butterfly.. One which was too bright and colourful for this dim world.. Your wings were teared even before you tried to spread them. When moon devours the sky breeding twillight, i imagine you flying among the lost stars like you always wanted to do.. I wish i was there to witness it...
You want me to smile and am trying each day.. Will you come back just once to tell me, am doing good?. Is it okay to scream aloud to the world outside that am falling apart and i have no hands to hold me? Humans are strange di.. I don't know how should i act around them. I still get blinded by few affections and find myself seeking validation.. Reminding me the human in me is still there..
Nights like this, when am all alone with our memories you adorned once, Will i be vulnerable if i admit am missing you..?Will you still wrap me in your blankets and keep me safe from the world? Will you wake me up from this nightmare and tell me it was a bad dream? Will you keep your promises this time, for all the dawns and dusks to come?
Cheers to all the dusk and dawns we shared For all the waves we conquered together I wish i said this enough sister.. I felt safe with you..