Dear stranger, Sophistically I scribbled this down. Adjust to my balderdash and I shall consider you my friend.
You know, being a human, it's not easy at all to have a bond with another soul. Even for you, Mr. Or Ms. Unknown Friend.
I preach for the sunshine in this monstrous life that I booked in. Well it doesn't long for 24 hours, which made me more disgusted.
Hazardous And Lethargic, they say. And then hatred belongs to the sun, As I and you Beg for Snowflakes, Which are emotional and incompatible.
Stranger, I love you for reading this. Thank you for your kindness. "Life is race! Run Run" Crowds of literates shouted. Ain't got a chance yet to run, what say you?
Know my name, I'm Ached Burden. Asset of the Depression. I love trepidation cause it doesn't leave me. And Mortification is my soulmate.
Where there is happiness, there ain't life, you know?. Cause it's this world which is possessed. Uh oh! No! I'm wrong. Given or Taken it's the humans of six sense.
Some speak with eyes, I believe. They long to be happy yet they are deprived. Seasons change, but our dreams don't.
Longing for the smell of colitas, Some sleep to remember and some to forget. But I sleep to think about the future, To cry for the ones who dies and the ones who are going to, To analyse how life is either going to betray or forgive me. For what I have sinned. Which is furiously obnoxious.
I wish to sit beneath the hemlock tree, Just like Robert Frost did. But this time, I do not want the snow to shake down on me, As I desire hatred.
I definitely believe that paper has more patience than people, Just like Anne quoted, If she was here, I swear to Dumbledore that I would have her my dude.
Sometimes it feels like why live when you going to die after all? Why study when there's nothing you would love to do as it's mostly you're birth givers decision. Why sleep when you going to cry all night for nothing matters? Why lóve someone who doesn't know your existence?
Anyways, do write to me like I do. Ached Burden will wait to hear my stranger friend's burden. Lots of love for having patience. And I would love you if it's sustainable.
I wish I had a better one Who'll care for me with gold toast and hugs It's so painful to think bout it. Let me have some peace at least.
All I just wanted was to get a life Scattered with some good comments Bitch I don't want you to be my side so can you please stop spitting rubbish on me It's like ma pockets are filled with hell so deep ...
Oh, I can't stop hearing all those words anymore So just get outta my way coz this ain't your life To throw all your stress on this big bean here. I hate to love you, so eager to smash you, Come show your face,I'll get my pace, gaze to hurt you so bad.
I will never like you anymore. I will never like you anymore, Coz I started to realise how bad you treated me. Yah. I will always hate you, I will always hate you, For whatever you did to me...
Sigh, yah I still remember how you tore me apart, With trash and harsh stuffs out from your heart Thee always said that you live for us no matter what, But I never really believed you.
I cried almost every day when you hurt me like no one ever did. I'm sure that none would be like you. I'm so jealous of everybody else coz you never deserve thier precious place which you are in.
You treated me like a stranger from another core, Shame on you coz it was just only me. Only me. Acting is your all time partner who helps you pretend to forget everything you spit. I know it's all you see me is as a disaster that occured from the foetus with wicked chaos.
Oh I will never like you anymore. I will never like you anymore, Coz I started to realise how bad you treated me. Yah. I will always hate you, I will always hate you, For whatever you did to me...
I seriously have never addicted to a group of musicians until I was 14. It is just always a solo person. But, I had to choose or to be exact I listened to them at first and not because their beautiful or cute that I like them. It's all because they made me laugh hard....at any time (trust me anytime). I'm not into KPOP !!
I wasn't an ARMY with them for all these 7 years..I just knew them this year and now like all the other armies, I know them (can say well) but I can't be a good perfect army..top young for that.
AHL..In the soop,RUN bts......it all made me so happy that I couldn't stop watching and made myself happy. I hated myself too u know? But once I heard the speech in UNICEF ...I just got so motivated to love myself. (That's the only speech I admire the most in my life...coz i am not a good speech listener..idlt)
I am still not so crazy about them...but I got so angry when some said that they are useless.. well for them...here it is. For those bitches this is it. I am just gonna elaborate things abt them. So read this
RM - Ma friend said I mostly speak abt him the most. Maybe that's true. But I like all of em equal. Maybe it's because I have a bit affectionate about this one because he faced a lot of you know facial criticism (it's TRUE...they say he is not fair....well if you wanna know abt the real colour as you see only color and not the talent....go see the bts In the soop to know abt how his skin is.. don't make me curse.) He is good in rapping, started writing in his 13 yrs. His IQ is 148 as you know. He is good (means perfect) in dance if you say he's not.... He is very well in speeches and a good leader to the group. And you still say he's talentless and leave the group? He said to use him ..AND HE IS RAP MONSTER NOT DANCE MONSTER AND OFC THE CUTE GOD OF DESTRUCTION (well he's funny) #RM
Jin- ofc he is world wide handsome. But some say he's not...well idc about some (f***ers)...He has one of the best vocals in the world...the high pitch tho damn. He is perfect too...and seriously you gotta see him praising himself as he's a wwh....such a confidence that I got only and only from him that you are beautiful...say to urself. He is a mom material(jk says so) and a good cook ofc...what else do you need to survive? He raised jungkook idiots...he treated his friend like family. He was worried that if armies shout his name in a high pitch then they might lose thier voice so he told them to do in a low pitch voice you know???he is so caring #jin
Suga- (NO Words) He is .....the....um ...best??? Ppl say without seeing him rap so hard and just like that they say he doesn't rap that much????? Wtf ??? He dances so well even when he tore his muscle In his shoulder. Is it like he is lazy??? He doesn't talk too much..so gentle. He produces songs...without any guide. Is it possible for you too?? He has gummy smile and cute nmw. And he loves all the members so stop accusing he is like he doesn't care for anyone and just being savage making himself proud. He is the Agust D. Daechwita.Still ppl won't believe or understand his hardships as he had to choose between a meal and a bus ride. #Suga
J-Hope- it's hard to figure out that if he has bones are what in his body. He does things so dangerously as it looks...but is godamn flexible. He dances so well...and you say that he is just ugly without even recognising his talent? (You are the dumbest person present in this world if you say this to me.) And he is the one who makes us all so happy and laugh hard. He smiles too cute and his Expression just kills everyone. No matter what he's our sunshine. But yet you say he is over reacting? GO TO HELL #Jhope
Jimin- He is the angel ofc. Dont call him a girl.. he is the most caring one. His personality is just so caring g and hes not always acting in front of the cam. Well we know hes some time naughty too ...idk why promise is not officially released...but it has feelings dude...one can cry listening to it so happily...he cares for armies.too much. He loves his hyungs and the voice he has is unbearable...it just kills me off he sings like a baby. He dances too much...and yet you all call him fat ??? So rubbish. Well he got jams. Rm confessed. #Jimin
V - ik everyone loves him too much no matter what. Hes just so cute and smiles wide. Well they call him weird..maybe ...but I don't feel he is. He has the low growl voice and a soft one too...acts too well ( he deserves to act dude...hwarang last seen tho...lit lit lit) I dont have to describe him much coz ya'll love him too much that some even keep them in profile. #V
Jungkook- and finally just like last but not the least the golden maknae...he was just 15 when he debuted ....isn't it crazy?? Boi you can't even have a ride to the nearest state without ya mom or dad...so just look at it. He has a good vocal and dances well...no hatred for him too that much coz they love him. He loves rm and the team...well atleast dont call him oppa since he doesn't like it. He has a bunny smile but not a bunny...six packed dude??? #Jungkook
*Apologies to those wonderful armies. These ppl deserve more. And I just wanna tell some unknowns too that they have to treat them equal. Just because they are famous now..it doesn't mean they haven't struggled...so don't have that thought in your mind. Love ya'll.*
I wouldn't have been an ARMY if it was not introduced to me lately. And am not crazy. I can be really crazy for when you know me but I won't let ya know. This is the only Korean band I'm listening to though I don't understand a lot I'm not like love you BTS, Crush, biased person so Pls don't ask me. They are too old for me to Hallucinate like that. I'm just being so freaking honest. Maybe the inner me wanna scream to those who said they are useless and you have a very bad taste, but I won't. Cause I know...
You don't want me to go away, Sizzling in the sky I disappear, So I want you to have those, 2005's songs and mysteries.
There's no place without the odour, Of your fragance to cherish, I've listened to you for times in a day, Where you could be a sacred creature.
The drizzle goes from my heart of feels, To sorrow of your blood and sweat, And yet I know the blissful soul, That passes out my crimes against.
I walk intro the wood of Riverdale, Don't see no mortals around me, Where I can be a peaceful beast, That lies upon every right and wrong.
I don't know how I'm going to tell, The love towards the voice I have, Because it's ridiculous to say thee, The hatred of your own language.
They can't disagree that am not worth, Enough to pick on what I get as a chance, It makes my core to rest in peace, Where no one else could intrude me. . So I plead you to let me live, With a dozen of possibilities piled on my wits, Those negativity and mortification, Never trespasses me unpleasantly.
They say I have become mature, I have finally gained my senses of right and wrong.
But all I wonder is one thing, does it really feel good to become mature? Am I really mature and unique, or I am only living upto the standards of this society?
I lost all my innocence, I lost all my purity, right at the moment I started to bleed. All of them say this. The moment they saw me bleeding, they decided I am not a kid anymore. The moment they saw my chest forming its shape, they decided that I am a women. But nevertheless they asked me, if I really want to grow up, if I am really ready to become a woman.
They asked me to become more feminine, they brought me the senses, that women have no right to become like men. They taught me all those etiquettes and thoughts, which are never taught to the men. Clouds of restrictions begin to hover over me, those stupid restrictions, which decided to steal my freedoms forever.
My thoughts began to change for the world. I was no longer a naive like I used to be. The world, the people are no longer, like how they used to be. The blithe I always carried in me, is now dead along with my benignity. The lovely masks of people, which hide their hideous and truthful faces, are now so visible to me.
I lost all my innocence, I lost all my faith. I lost all my love, I lost all my purity. I lost all the spring inside me, replaced by the foggy and cold winters, always staying inside me.
Somewhere, I miss everything I lost. Somewhere, I want them back permanently. Somehow, I want my peaceful sleeps back. Somehow, I want all the happiness again. Someday, I want to become reckless again, Someday, I want to become carefree, by gaining my freedoms back, without any conditions, without any restrictions.
Somewhere I know, I will never like this maturity.
I came to know the taste of having a Brother ,since i met you .Not only as a brother , also as a True Friend, writer ,and Army . Loads or love to you for your protection and care and love And No thanks ,as you always said
Forgot how to write so posting old deleted post for writersbay's #unfoldc
Speciality of this post: Orginally penned for writerstolli's challenge on 02.02.2020 which is a palindrome date. The second stanza is exact palindrome of first stanza ( i.e first word of stanza 1 is last word of stanza 2) yet both stanzas should make sense if read separately.