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the_faye_adams

“My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellation.” Twitter&IG: @TheFayeAdams

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  • the_faye_adams 18w

    First love letter;
    we were young
    optimistic, with such lovely views on love.
    You wrote letter after letter to me
    I thought nothing much of it
    but boy, did you prove me wrong, over the years that's yet to pass.
    only so young, only 11 years of age.

    First touch;
    Just my hand
    gripped tightly by yours
    just my mind
    running wildly with thoughts
    what is this feeling inside my chest?
    only so young, only 14 years of age.

    First late night;
    The feeling inside my chest grew
    did yours grow too?
    Late nights, 3 a.m
    you're awake, fighting your sleep
    just for another minute to talk to me
    only so young, only 15 years of age.

    First love;
    The years have passed
    and yet you're still the same
    goofy you and giggly me
    sweet smiles, you stare into my eyes
    oh why haven't we done this before?
    If only I knew then, what I was missing out on
    we drive around in your car
    we take trips to the beach
    talking about our childhood
    and the memories that we've shared
    your fingers interlock with mine
    only getting older, only 23 years of age.

    First kiss;
    We took our time
    your eyes met mine
    I felt everything from fireworks
    to an entire boulder crushing on top of me
    beautiful splashes of color throughout the night sky
    the sadness of the weight of becoming attached to you, not knowing what'll happen
    when your lips meet mine
    and they do, like lovers missing one another
    and time stops and you're out of breath
    and we kiss again, till our lips lose all feeling
    and my chest feels like it'll explode
    so cliché, yet so lovely
    only getting older, only 24 years of age.

    First heartbreak;
    It's as if we got caught up in a tornado
    spinning out of control, my mind and thoughts
    what have you done to me
    all these years missed out on loving you
    and the moment I finally admit it
    it's as if a tornado sweeps across my house
    and sucks up everything that I love and cherish
    leaving me by my self, alone with words floating around in the air, all unsaid, all true,
    all feelings for you
    that's what you did.
    you took everything, bits of pieces of my heart
    so whole and complete under your touch, now shattered and broken, like pieces of wood, a home turned upside, destroyed by the passing tornado
    my mind once at ease, as you hold me close to your chest, now a mess, a wreckage left behind by the strength of your tornado
    only so hurt, only 25 years of age.

    First healing;
    It's weird when I think back at it
    how you've been there all my life
    as my friend, everything in between and everything so much more
    goofy you and giggly me
    so young with feelings of love
    it was a slow burn and I enjoyed every moment of it
    we took our time, getting to know each other
    falling in love, if I could change anything I would've kissed you sooner, if I could I would've held you in my arms even tighter
    but things happen they way it's meant to
    or at least the way we want it to
    we took our time, because we knew this was something so much more than either of us were prepared for
    we loved each other way too deeply and it got to scary, how someone could have so much
    power over you
    my heart was in pieces when we said our silent goodbyes, it didn't understand why we couldn't be, when all it felt was love for you
    my mind was at war with itself, showing images of you and then crashing with system overload.
    It took a while for me to heal and to no longer have the urge to pick up my phone and call you.
    All those years knowing you, lovely and beautiful
    and now you're just another passing face on the street, just another mere stranger.
    Only so young, only getting older.



    #wod #first #miraquill #writersnetwork
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    All these firsts spent with you

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  • the_faye_adams 18w

    Your soul glows with love

    It's quite saddening if you ask me
    how you have so much
    love to give other people
    yet so little to give to yourself.
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  • the_faye_adams 18w

    He looked frail
    pale skinned
    hair flowing
    slightly visible smile
    from across his face
    his hands trembling
    because he knew
    this life had
    obstacles upon obstacles
    all waiting for him to fight
    and overcome
    and not once did he ever give up.

    #two #wod
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    The fight within

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  • the_faye_adams 19w

    Sleepless nights
    wide awake, fever rising
    you tuck me in, hold me tight
    you have no idea how grateful I am
    for being a child with a mother like you.
    Mental health, you've lost yourself
    coming home from school to find you
    bathroom locked, blood dripping
    depression took a hold of you
    you have no idea how much that scarred me.
    Teenage mistakes, by my side
    you never held on to anger
    forgiving heart, helping hands
    always taking on more than you can burden
    you have no idea how much you inspire me.
    Secrets shared, tears we've cried
    the trauma you endured has come back
    for a second round, being passed on to me
    sexually abused, you and I, these careless men
    you have no idea how safe I feel whenever
    you are around me.
    Depression takes a hold of me
    but you were there, like you've always been
    even when days are bad, you're in my sight
    yet another world away from me
    due to all the meds you have to take
    just to stay another day here with me
    you fought for me, you protected me
    a bond we share, deep and strong
    more than a mother and a daughter
    more than another woman that's a victim
    more than another statistic.


    #bond #wod
    #mother #daughter

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    Mother

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  • the_faye_adams 20w

    Loneliness with a side of chocolates
    Valentine's date, flowers gifted to you
    I spend another year passing the time
    with a book to read, one or maybe a few
    fantasy or thriller, whichever sets the mood
    by myself, I spend the day like I do most
    whatever feels right, I go with the flow
    candle lit dinner, not for two
    pasta in a bowl, I sit by the window
    by myself and a fictional character
    perhaps a knight, a wizard or even a villain
    a bad boy disguised as good
    the day will past like any other
    alone for valentines never bothered me anyway.

    #February #wod

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    February 14th

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  • the_faye_adams 20w

    What's right from wrong and everything in between
    I think the only person you need to apologize to
    especially right now is yourself.

    For letting others walk over you
    for giving them one too many chances
    to hurt you again and again
    taking advantage of your forgiving heart.

    For letting the voice inside your head
    get the best of you, believing when it said
    “You aren't good enough.”
    “You're not worthy of love and
    the goodness this world holds.”
    “You will amount to nothing.”
    “What are you good for?”

    Such cruel words you tell yourself
    when something doesn't go the way you expected.
    You owe yourself an apology for breaking your own kind heart.

    You do not see, or you fail to see
    beyond the bad days and the things you call flaws
    you cannot see how beautiful you are
    under the sun's rays of light, skin glowing
    hair flowing in the wind, arms out as if you're flying
    or how worthy you are, late nights
    under the twinkling of a thousands stars
    your eyes filled with so much wonder for
    what lives in the sky and all the worlds above it.

    Look at you selling yourself short
    then finally discovering your self-worth
    Look at you overcoming the worst case scenario
    and making today the best day you've had all week.
    Look at you growing, thriving, happy and content
    why did it take so long for you to get here?

    #apology #wod

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    Apology to oneself

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  • the_faye_adams 20w

    resilient, should be your middle name

    and after all this time
    after all you've had to endure
    and overcome
    here you are, alive
    and stronger than ever.

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  • the_faye_adams 20w

    Our last dance

    It took me some time
    to gather my thoughts
    to reason with my heart
    but I finally did it
    I let you go.
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  • the_faye_adams 21w

    I am not belonging to this world
    it's people and the galaxies above
    my soul finds peace in chaos and darkness
    the sky above as the sun casts its last light
    and the ocean below, layers and layers of waves
    leading to the depths of it, only dark
    no visible sight in reach
    the wave rushes to greet my feet
    then pulls me in with it
    because it knows I do not belong
    on the seashore, but deep within it
    the thrill of it as it grips me by the ankle
    the thrill of it as it waves hello
    terrifying and beautiful wonder
    of what power it holds
    my ocean spirit, floating and cruising
    alongside the waves, there is something
    consuming about danger
    that makes you want to go further out
    daring surfers try their luck, but the ocean
    isn't welcoming to all.

    #ocean #wod

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    Ocean spirit

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  • the_faye_adams 21w

    Perhaps the sun rises
    when you are alight
    with a passion so strong
    and vicious like wildfire
    doing the thing you love
    the very thing that lights
    the spark in your soul

    And perhaps it rains
    when your soul
    lacks that passion
    or another's embrace
    a longing friend or lover
    and the rain pours
    because your heart
    is in halves
    you have one and
    they have the other

    Perhaps the flowers bloom
    when you are in love
    with another or with yourself
    so happy and content
    how beautiful you glow
    and grow when you are happy
    lavender springs and sunflowers
    cover your skin
    you bloom from within

    Perhaps the snow arrives
    when you go unloved too long
    iced heart needing anothers flame
    cold storms, covering your entire house
    boarding you in away from the outside
    all the walls you have built
    safe and sound from another's harm
    at the same time depriving yourself
    from anothers warmth
    how the snow falls from your cold heart
    hurt, and lacking the ability trust.

    Perhaps all the flowers that fell
    are those from souls
    who have passed on to another life
    a better one, with all that they've
    ever wanted and desired
    trees stand tall without a single leaf
    perhaps that's a metaphor to you
    who feel like your life is falling apart
    and fail to see that you are still here
    standing strong, and again leaves will grow
    the bad will happen, the storm will come
    yet you are still here and
    will make it another day
    maybe you'll lose sight of that
    just place your hand over your heart
    your branches may be bare and
    you may feel like nothing good will happen
    but don't you see, feel that heart inside your chest beating stronger than ever
    you are all that is good.

    #myth #wod

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    Seasonal emotions

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