The truth is here I never fear He does it all Makes my fears small Breaks the invisible wall Lets me breathe it all Turns me new Brings out my side true Reignites my dead spark Perfectly leads me out of dark Makes my sins bless Makes my terrors less Clears all my past mess Provided I simply Do the right And feed him light For what he tells me Is what he saw Some day long lost So not his flaw
The day you left, you were not alone. With you left the demon in me that had been feeding on your soul for years. I have become every ounce of the person you wanted me to be. Every time I recall a random memory with you, I relive each and every emotion it is drenched with. I laugh, I cry, I long, I regret. Then I make sure to keep remembering it for a couple of days, time and again, so that I never ever forget it. I think about the patience with which you waited for me. I treasure our smiles and laughs and those events where our times and spaces always intersected and became one. I live with you in those memories and worry for you even more. I try to make you laugh and hear your giggles ringing in my ears and beating with my heart. I see you smile and I hear you breathe.
Complicated, complex and unfathomable Is my relationship with food Excessive and binge eating are the norm Others opinions I ignore and exclude
Conscious of gaining weight, I live in fear Finding ways to constantly purge Although you would think looking at my thin frame That of fainting I’m on the verge
My stomach feels queasy and rumbles all day My throat feels parched all the time I’m scared that my swollen face might give away The fact that I always feel the rising bile
This self induced purging affords me the luxury Of eating as per my wants and needs They say I eat a lot for my anorexic body “Do you overindulge every time you feed?”
The pressures I feel from everyone around me Make me feel alright about my swollen face I wash myself often to rid myself of the stench And of vomit removing the trace
I feel I should talk to my mother about the depression And self doubt I have along with anxiety I feel broken and unhappy inside Afraid like a drunk is of sobriety
And then there are days when I feel exhausted For years this has been the norm for me I wonder if of this vicious circle of eating and purging I will ever be able to break free
Bulimia is a potentially life threatening disease that has periods of extreme and uncontrollable food binges and then self induced purging or vomiting. The onset for bulimia is around 15-18 years and is most prevalent in young women. One in every two hundred women is anorexic and suffering from bulimia.
The pressures of wanting to remain thin and adhere to what the society feels is normal often skews the relationship these women have with food.
It is easy to spot a bulimic - the uncontrollable binging and the inability to gain weight , the unrestrained thinking about being thin or slender, anorexia, depressed or anxious individuals are people who need professional therapy and help.
This complicated relationship with food is unhealthy and causes several issues in the long run. The excessive self induced vomiting causes bad breath, irritable bowel syndrome , diarrhoea, dehydration, vitamin deficiencies among other psychological problems.
If you are a bulimic , know that this is a treatable disease and you are not alone. If you know a person suffering from bulimia, please provide the right help and be considerate .
I was on a break from my gruelling schedule On a pretty estate by a small lake And sitting in the backyard of my cottage In a mentally relaxed state
A group of white pekin ducks were Leisurely swimming in the water nearby I sat sipping tea and feeling tranquil Under the vast vivid blue sky
Then suddenly the pekin ducks began to Climb up the slopped lakeside towards me I looked around mildly amused and scared Suddenly aware that they were roaming free
They were joined by four black and white magpie ducks Who seemed unconcerned that I was there Never before had I seen ducks this big who were Delusional about my backyard being their lair
Shocked and taken by surprise I sat rooted They quacked and made their way towards me Eight large ducks came and stood inquisitively While I sat dumbstruck clutching my cup of tea
They were such a bewildering but pretty sight I relaxed on realising they were playfully harmless And proceeded to feed them some of the biscuits I had Delighted by their docile behaviour inspite of their largeness
Once they were fed they happily quacked And made their way back to the lake I felt a sense of calm come over me And a satisfaction I couldn’t fake
The next day after a scrumptious lunch I headed Back to my room for a cup of afternoon tea And heard a knocking on my backyard glass door The ducks apparently were outside waiting for me !
How much happiness a small thing can give you I fed them feeling a sense of contentment Never will I ever forget the day a bunch of ducks Managed to ease off all my pent up tension